I’ve been such a tease, but I have been getting stuff going behind the scenes and there’s some exciting stuff ahead ~ Just making a quick little pic post tonight, then more stuff very soon 🙂
First two are a soggy Riley this morning, followed by getting ready for my Laser appointment, Panda came with me to lend emotional support 🙂 They’re such a good little panda 🙂
Next post will be talk of thrift stores and other fun stuff, the site might be down for a tiny bit but will be back better than ever ~ More stuff soon and thanks!
It’s also been brought to my attention that some may think that post with my “Net Worth” in it is accurate. I definitely don’t make 100k a year, I have no clue where they got that number, probably whatever your standard Super Model makes. I’m not exactly struggling to survive and have a comfortable, safe place to live, but 100$ is still alot of money to me.
Like many people in this country, I have multiple income sources and no fulltime work except the effort i’ve been putting into my sites. So yeah, I’d not be asking for donations to fill my coffers, at this point most of my income goes back into making better content. I make most of my own meals, have few extravagances in my life and buy all my clothes at thrift stores. I’m not a chaser of great riches, I just want enough to be able to work towards making my goals and dreams possible 🙂
Thanks for everything, just wanted to clear that up 🙂 Hope you like the pics!
Big changes coming soon to this site, nothing you’ll notice at first, but this tweet should explain for now ~
I have lots to talk about, but my eyes are heavy and need to sleep ~ Just wanted to post a sweet goodnite pic or two… Have a lovely night 🙂 first two is me right now, Northshore Pullups and Bunnies under the fairy lights ~ and third is a preview of my upcoming Retro diapers video, and me with a mural of someone who knows a thing or two about changes ~ I know a few things about changes too, probably will have one tomorrow morning :p
I have been absolutely jamming out lately. A good emotional dipstick for me is how much music i’m listening to and my life has been filled with music. I do my best writing early in the morning with some good music playing, still in PJs and diapers spilling my little heart out. I’ve always been a bit warm blooded emotionally, i’m hyper aware of and influenced by my environment, I tend to get a little flustered from overreading peoples faces or feel really awkward when a comedian doesn’t get a laugh. On the flip side of that, the emotional reach of music can make me reallllly happy, really creative, perky and inspired.
I’m one of those record store employees they released into the wild when Tower Records shut down. I’ve never played anything except a little keyboard and mixing, I’m more of an appreciater than a participant in the grand scheme of things. I loooove Vinyl, and spent many years buying and selling it, working with a friends label, just being involved with musicians and bands and setting up shows. If you know DJ Shadow’s Midnight in A Perfect World, K Records was my main haunt besides Tower. Unfortunately lost to entropy or a new basketball stadium, not sure which came first.
I used to produce these little Second Saturday shows in Sacramento with a small performance art group I started after High School. We did parking lot shows, wild stuff like putting a stage in the back of a van and ambushing coffee shops and State buildings with music, I miss my wild performance art group. There’s videos out there of it that maybe i’ll share downthe road. I’m starting to sound starry eyed and nostalgic, the point is Music has always been incredibly important to me, and it’s been nice to get back in touch.
When you’re suffering from depression and pain, the things you love seem to wilt and fall off, one petal may be family, another friends, or music, or writing, or dancing. I was pretty bare, just stem and seeds, and now I feel like a bright little sunflower. A strong stem to withstand the wind, lots of little petals keeping me bright and big healthy leaves to protect others from the elements. They took a while to grow back, but they grew back stronger than ever.
I’m starting to reach with my metaphors, I almost made one about hairy backs and waxing, so here’s the crescendo of this post, some adorable pics from today 🙂 When I’m feeling really self-indulgent I’ll make a list of some of my favorite musicians to share but for now I hope you enjoy the pics and have a lovely evening full of soft, dulcet tones (or thrash metal, whichever you prefer).
I have been enjoying ending my nights with sharing my thoughts here, thanks for reading and following my journey 🙂 And LISTEN TO THE MOUNTAIN GOATS!
Those 6 Dun’s make sense in my head, a little jazzy beat. I’ve been watching Trème, a David Simon show about New Orleans after Katrina. It’s pretty great, the best stories are told around fascinating characters and like his other show The Wire, the acting and writing of the characters are all A+. The music is amazing as well even if you don’t particularly like Jazz, it has people like Steve Earle and Dr. John mixing it up. There’s been a couple moments that have really spoken to me, lots of feelings of finding your place in the world, dealing with loss and systemic issues related to class, race, place etc, really thoughtful show. I generally keep one David Simon show in rotation so I don’t lose touch of how good TV can actually be.
I’m talking about TV because I took a little rest today, did some shopping and ate at a Mennonite Buffet, lots of good American home cookin’. I bought some cute stuff, more Size 7 diapers that don’t fit and some 4t5t pullups that fit great, a Victorias Secret Snap-Crotch Onesie and a Pink bathing suit that looks so amazing on me, when I finally post pictures of it they’re going to shut this site down for overloading their cuteness servers. I also got a Vonnegut book, probably my favorite author 🙂
My birthday’s coming up… I hid the date for a long time because I wanted to do everything I could to keep discrete, but unfortunately the “Celebrity News” sites have done their research. Though some of their info is a little generous. I’d probably be less frustrated by my Tripod crumbling to pieces this week in the middle of filming if I made 6 figures, though I’d probably have a better Tripod to begin with.
So Birthday’s coming up, and I’m sure i’ll write a long, reflective post about how far i’ve come this year, how exciting all these positive changes are, how hard i’m working at making a career out of my videos and writing and other media, but for tonight i’m just going to listen to some Wilco and relax a bit. I’ve had such an intensely busy and positive week I don’t want to swing the other way, get exhausted or overwhelmed. I want to be doing this for the rest of my life y’know, gotta pace myself 🙂
So i’ll end with a couple randoms fun pics over the last few days, I also posted a slideshow of some fantastic pics on my MV site, but unfortunately I have to be cautious about posting that here. I have my annual WordPress.com payment coming up, the 100$ a year I pay for the extra features of this site, though they still could potentially take my site down if I’m linking to adult sites like they did with my staykinky one. I really need to get this site on wordpress.org (raw server space with no oversight vs WP.com’s content hosting and censorship) or build my own server so I have complete control and won’t get deplatformed. Unfortunately I have neither the time, money or knowledge to do that at the moment. I am building a new PC and may turn my old one into a server, but it’s been a while since I did stuff like that. I used to be really into all that, now my PC knowledge is pretty surface level, i’m behind the times.
I feel constrained by it all, but it’s something I’ve decided to put on the backburner for now while I get other sites set up. Until I can afford to get it all figured out, I pay the 100$ and continue with these half measures and walking on eggshells. A good portion of my content will always be publicly available, my reviews, pics etc, but to make the best content possible I really need to monetize through sites like Patreon and ManyV’s. Of course my heart is still in the right place, this site will always be free and filled to the brim with cute content 🙂
Ok, now for pics and bedtime for this babygirl 🙂 Hope everyone has a snuggly evening and lots of fun stuff soon! Go check out my Twitter if you’re curious about that slideshow vid, or just type StayKinky into your computer. Have a wonderful night ❤
So, I organized my life on Saturday, organized my PC on Sunday and organized my bedroom today. I also picked up another pack of random Size 7’s (Kidgets brand from Dollar General) but they didn’t fit as well as the Gentle Steps brand ones. I have some other brands coming soon, i’m totally into them right now and it seems there’s more than ever 🙂
First pic is clean room panorama, next few are (some of) my diaper stash and little diaper displays so I have all different kinds of them ready for all different situations. And then there’s a little bunny relaxing in a crib and me in some ill-fitting baby diapers.
I’ve been backing up my nearly 2 TB of archived videos and photos over the years so I haven’t had much time to use my computer, but I also have like my next five videos roughly planned out so expect lots more sooooon! Oh, amd one of the announcements is still coming, but I guess I let one slip today… I got a crib!!! It’s just a little pack and play and I’ll tell you more about it soon 🙂
I hope everybody has a lovely day and night and I’ll be snuggling up with my crinkles and bears 🙂 Sweet dreams!
It’s been a really productive day. I got some new stuff that I haven’t really organized and had a lot of little things to do to make my space as comfortable as possible, some pre-spring cleaning to do, groceries, lots of little life things. I’m feeling clearer and less anxious than I have in weeks and things have settled down with the family drama. I do have some traveling ahead of me but I have a couple weeks to get ready, my tickets are booked things are going to be manageable and positive.
I literally haven’t turned my computer on all day, have been relying on my phone for podcasts, Welcome to Nightvale is always good, Weekly Planet/Caravan of Garbage has been fun on Youtube. That channel is new to me, two random geeky dudes that after hours of listening I haven’t heard anything particularly hateful or sexist/racist etc, just laughing at bad movies/silly comic stuff. I suppose I expect too little sometimes, but it’s been fun. Also shoutout to my favorite geeky channel, TheRealJims, takes deep dives into The Simpsons and as a massive season 1-12 fan, I love hearing his takes. Kinda dry and for hardcore fans, but a great listen.
So yeah, housecleaning, diaper stacking, podcast listening, it’s been a productive day and the bears helped a ton, they are good at organizing diapers 🙂
The first two photos are some cute new panties I bought today, followed by bear checking my diapers last night and my wet diapers this morning, and lastly two pics of me in Size 7 Baby Diapers from Dollar General, they kind of fit but the tapes come off easily, they work really well inside of other diapers. Expect to see lots of pictures of me wearing these because I really miss baby diapers and haven’t seen Size 7’s in a long time! I loves them 🙂
More stuff soon! Neat new piece of furniture announcement soon, followed by another exciting thing to share! Lots of good stuff to talk about and share, i’m going to snuggle up with the bears, think of all the friendly people in my life, especially some new friends and old friends I’ve reconnected with… good people, good stuff 🙂
Hope this post turns out OK, trying to get used to posting from my phone 🙂 Sweet dreams and bear hugs 🙂