weak

Here’s a picture from last night of Robert Picardo and I. Very nice guy, modest.
I’ve been a part of this film festival since its conception and it’s gotten progressively more and more swanky. I was looking very cute, mixed and mingled at a classy bar, I’ve been involved in everything from having my short film featured to running discussions to cleaning the popcorn machine. I had a good time, but my body is feeling the alcohol, i kinda fell off the wagon last night, I haven’t drank since I started the hormones. I dated one of the festival directors, we’ve got a love/hate relationship and theres good deal of hostility but we keep it cordial. There was a decent chance I was going to sleep with him last night, I feel bad that I didn’t but would have felt worse if I did, I’ve known him since I was 14, I think him, free cocktails and insecurities lead me to this nasty hangover, and I can’t mentally or physically afford to do that anymore. I haven’t posted in a week, i’m overwhelmed by the internet right now, getting more negative feedback than I expected from my new site. Them’s the bricks, more stuff soooooooooon

11 thoughts on “weak

  1. … Why would anyone give you negative feedback?… Idiotic, close-minded individuals is what they are. I used to be one of those people, but then I realized: “Who am I to judge? I like to wear diapers…”

    IDK, I say don't let the idiotic people get to you, and keep on keepin' on, because no matter what, for every action there is an equal and opposite reaction. In other words, for every idiotic individual, there are people who will stand by and support you.

  2. Don't let the negative feedback get to you. I'll bet most of it is posted without a name or contact info. Those comments are from very small people with barely developed minds that are probably jealous what you are doing.

    What you are doing and what you are going through takes an enormous amount of courage. What takes even more courage is your decision to share with anyone and everyone in the most public of public forums – the internet.

    Best wishes and please keep posting and don't forget the famous phrase:

    “Nil illegitimi carborundum,” -Never let the bastards wear you down.

    kg

  3. Robert Picardo is one of those people I've always wanted to meet. Just wonder what he's like off the set. As for the negativity you feel, I stand by you and agree wholeheartedly with Arachnis in that it is only a small minority of people who are probably commenting. The kind of people who have nothing better to do than try and ruin someone else's day. The best way to deal with them is to ignore them, at least that's the best way I've found from experience.

    Anyways keep on going hun, you know you got people like me and all the other regulars from this site and the entire community behind you every step of the way.

    Love
    Andrew xx

  4. I haven't had that problem with my new blog, but that is what I love about not relying on a service like blogger or wordpress.com, I have the option to go in and ban the offending person(s) IP address from even viewing my site. Even if I get negative comments, I don't care, I've gotten shit all my life, I'm not going to let anyone get to me, then again I carry a much larger stick than most people, and I'm not afraid to use it if I have to.

    Ignore them, Their just trying to bring you down, and if they ever make any physical threats, just go to their town's police department, I had to do that twice now, but it was more than a “threat” is was trying to expose me and my family.

  5. I continually check this site fr your updates, and I am very interested in your life. You are so open and comfortable with yourself, and I am very happy for you. Keep up the great work.

    P.S. You are very cute in that lingerie. Always nice to see a pretty girl in a diaper!

  6. I do hope you recover soon and that you do limit drinking when taking the hormones.

    I am so very sorry that people are giving you negative feed back / comments / etc. You seem to be a wonderful person and have decided to follow your heart (both in diapers and in transitioning). Many people don't have the strength to even start hormones, but you have. The people causing you trouble have no idea how strong you are to have even gotten this far and they certainly have never had to make difficult choices themselves, else they would not give others such grief.

    Also.. anonymous is right – you do look fantastic in that lingerie.

    Take care, Riley. Whenever you feel down, please always remember you have the love of your readers.

  7. Be careful about the booze. It's a trap that a lot of people transitioning fall into. You don't want that hanging over your head the rest of your life.

  8. That sucks that people have nothing constructive to do then to put you down. Love your reviews and wish you the best of luck. Love -T

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