hearts and wallets

Hey there! Sorry for keeping you waiting, I’ve been scrambling to make rent this month and running all around town. I’ve sold my digital still camera and my big lovely monitor, I still had the receipt for this awful Logitech wireless keyboard mouse combo I bought for 30$ at Target a while back, it was the one thing I got rid of that I actually wanted to, the signal reach is literally 5 feet. I’m back with my wrist destroying but familiar giant keyboard and just a basic little optical mouse. When I returned the keyboard to my old Target, it was nice seeing the friends I made there, I was told I looked cute on multiple occasions by some of the girls there that were totally yougogirl! about my transition, which is always lovely, and it reminds me that I left with a good reputation and my head held high. I was always so afraid to be feminine at Target. Now that I’m not forced to be around the less than transfriendly Target employees, I’m just a girl shopping. I just wish they had a gender neutral restroom, I honestly liked working there, helping old people find stuff and I always surprised people with my “Techknowledge” (the name of my old company, catchy right?) The good thing is I’m less than a month away from my OSHA interview about Target, so hopefully I can raise some red flags for making family bathrooms standard in places like Target.

Anyway, this post is about a sex machine, that was given to me by a good friends girlfriend, we named it Bender because its a fun loving robot that likes to get down. I highly recommend you check out letsgetsrs.blogspot.com for the full story. Above is the short little video, the PG video, I probably seem a little different because I was pretty nervous about showing it off, I was always taught to keep my sex toys hidden away. I was giggly, excited, and a little embarrassed all at the same time, a silly little girl showing off her cool new toy. I may call it a “sex toy” but the one time I played with it, the line between “Bender” elaborate dildo and boyfriend blurred a bit.
From my summation, theres only 2 types of mechanical stuff thats involved in sex, i’m talking ore of the method than the device, using my machine as an example. I’d say its an even split between enjoying seeing/controlling the speed of someone getting used by a machine, the impersonal factor of a machine on a person seems to be an effective method of submission, pretty popular on many adult sites. This is with bondage sounds like heaven, I think the used slave roll is pretty hot but unfortunately I’ve only had access to the second kind of robo sex, which is somewhere between “I’m lonely and horny and want to imagine someones there with me” and “a new, complicated thing I can put in my bottom? Awesome!”.
As I said, I tried it out, it was strange, and it ended up breaking it (we ended up breaking up?) right after making the video, I think I might be able to fix it, I’ll be sure to ask you guys if I can’t, but it sounds like a fun little project, getting the sex machine back working. I was really hoping to do something artsy with it, put a big hand on it and point to an event or something. Fortunately, there’s a video of my first and only time with the machine on my private youtube (for donators and special friends only) and it came out a little… interesting, it was more of an experiment caught on tape than a sexy video I pretty much look and act like a virgin. I’ve been doing much more filming and editing, I generally just edit and upload anything interesting I shoot, and I shoot some pretty interesting stuff sometimes, including but not limited to wet and sometimes messy diapers, playing with my toys, both cuddly and sexual, bondage,
I think I’m a good girl, both RileyKilo.com and letsgetsrs.blogspot.com are and will always be ad free, I’ll bring things up once in a while but only stuff I like, and always let me know if I’ve led you astray. I need some donations to literally pay rent this month, so like, within the next few days would be a great time to send a paypal donation, the link to my paypal is right under my profile on the top right of the site, it takes credit cards and it really easy to do, it helps me out so much.
I really thought I would be good this month, but I finally caved in and applied for unemployment, and its been a huge hassle since. I’ve never even considered unemployment as an option, I’m not saying it bad thing, a wise friend told me I payed taxes so I deserve it. I’ve worked since I was 15 and a half and the few times I was in between jobs I did PC consultation, mostly just teaching old ladies how to use computers and cleaning off spyware. I worked with friends, did promotion gigs, all short torm stuff just to make it month to month. I don’t do the consultation too often these days, alot of Mac’s around here and big firms for PC repair, I accepted that my little business had been crushed by the big man years ago. I do get a response now and then, but not since early December, christmas is tough, and I’m done home theater installation millions of times. I love riding my bike, but for long distances I’m a hitch-a-ride from friends kinda girl, public transportation around here is downright dangerous.
Unemployment was the only real option to me, most of the people I know in real life are struggling financially as well. Literally for the last 2 months I’ve been calling the unemployment office now and then everyday, trying to get home, until I eventually went to the office and told me to do it all over the phone. I was so angry because I  had called and they said they’d send me letters with a appointment date, and the date was for March. Since then I’ve sent stuff back, letters, calls, emails, everything. I went into the EDD a couple days after getting the letter, and was told that to keep calling the phone line. So I’ve been doing that non-stop, I have skype so I can call over and over again, and its ALWAYS busy, its ridiculous. Since I’ve gone in, its almost turned ugly, because a lady read off of what she said was the official sattement that I did not make a strong enough effort to stay with the organization… they just dont get it, and once I talk to another person who can actually do something about it, I’ll be able to explain my situation.
I still buy all my own food and stuff, and get alot of stuff from my neighbor who works at an organic farm much more legitimate than the one I’ve worked at. I don’t think I could ever go on EBT, or food stamps, but I just haven’t done it yet, I feel like thats the worse case scenario, and I’m not there yet, It has to do everything with my mom going through her whole adult life without gov. assistance, taking care of my brother and I on her own, with checks and help from Dad now and then. Of course, my childhood would have probably been cooler if we had more money, but pride is pride, I kinda feel the same way, but some people do need assistance, and some good people I know have used it when needed, then went onto normal, decent paying Many times I’ve gone to unemployment or the welfare office (where I worked intake for about 6 months) and thought about signing up, I just never have, I’ve just chickened out and now that I’m actually at a point where I’m having a really hard time getting hired and NEED unemployment, I get a big read DENIED stamp
I know that everything is getting better soon, I’m going to be posting more stuff as often as I can… oh wow, as I was writing this post, at 10:22 PST I was called and offered a job an establishment I applied at a few weeks ago, a job I was very excited about. It’s not a huge money-making job, but it’s doing something i’m good at and enjoy doing, at a very cool, hip, place. It looks like I’ll be able to have a steadier income after all, I am bouncing off the wall right now happy. It’s so funny, I’ve been pouring my guts out, pleading for you help, and right before I post, someone calls and saves the day. I have training tomorrow night, and I start on Saturday… amazing!  I do really need some nice looking feminine attire, I have a couple cute outfits, but I really want to impress these people, where I’m going to be starting is a pretty swanky place, I don’t really want to give away any info for fear of anything jeopardizing it, but it’s minimum + tips, in a transfriendly environment from what I’ve seen, it’ll be nice to get more into the public light, as I mentioned, I miss customer service! Oh, and the bathroom set-up gets the Riley stamp of approval, no more potty drama! I still will be diapered at work, but most likely will stay dry during my shifts, I love diapers, but I also love being able to financially support myself…. oooooo sooooo excited!  
Unfortunately, I’m not going to get paid for weeks, so paypal donations are still accepted and desperately needed!If you’re curious what you get with your donation, just E-mail me, but it comes down to the more you donate, the more you get… videos, private requests, the too-hot-for-youtube stuff. I also have a private webcam so I can do shows or whatever you’d like this cute little girl to do, you know how playful I can be. If you really want to get a hold of me, donating is the best way to catch this little girls eye, and I’m always chatting, sending new stuff and making videos with my “inner circles” ideas. Keep checking back for more stuff, and if you can send a donation, please do! This little girl needs a helping hand right now, things are going to be better than ever once I get over this little unemployment hump and back to work, but until then I’m hoping someone out there can afford to help me get closer to being the bright, shiny and successful woman I know I can be!

Wish me luck for training tomorrow, and I think I’m in such a good mode I might dig up some extra cute pics for this Happy Day… oh, and I’m still in diapers 24/7, and very wet girl right now 🙂

Oh, and much love to my readers! If you read this post in its entirety all I can say is…

thanks for caring ❤

5 thoughts on “hearts and wallets

  1. This isn't meant to sound creepy, so I appologize if it does.

    The toy itself wasn't even the best part of that video. The best part was you and that lovely dress/skirt thing you were wearing. 🙂

    Very cute.

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