survive

ahhh, I survived folsom street fair. Pics soon, I have just a moment to post but I wanted to say I am alive and well, took a moment to retreat outside of the city for today, chance to put my foot up. I’m sunburnt like crazy as well, but I’ve got a smile on my face and some good things coming my way. I finally got some legal stuff figured out, getting ready for the 5th, my big unemployment hearing… I’m so excited… I’ve said it before, but looking 6 months into the future I know I’ll have my life a little more together, I’ve been working on things that won’t pay off just yet, but will. Mark my words!!! All is well, I have tons to say about Folsom, this week, my feelings and where I am, but for now I must run.

Love

nowhere nothin’ fuckup

All is not well in the world of Riley, the crushing feeling of hopelessness, i’m going to put on a smiley face and hopefully have a good experience, do some good networking today, maybe start going down a more positive path. I am starting to understand what its like to be broken, helpless in many ways, I hope I don’t feel like this for long. Oct. 5th I should be out of this mess, the unemployment appeal is hopefully going to net me enough in unpaid unemployment to get an apartment… it’s easier to find a job with an address and a judicially affirmed unfair firing, my employment record sucks until all this gets figured out. I’ve always had a job, i’ve been more productiv creatively in the last 26 days than I ever have, but at what cost? I’m trying my best to hide it but I am living out of my backpack, employers don’t jump on that when theres a million college students looking for jobs. The good won’t come out just yet, I’m going to fall apart, I need to find happiness, joy, love, safety, rest. I’m hurting right now, a hurdle to overcome. I am going to make it, I just hope I don’t destroy my ankle/lose my mind before then. I’m awesome, I can do it, I will become everything I want to be, until then I’m just a nowhere nothin’ fuckup.

now say a word for Karen Brown
she can’t tell the night from the day
they threw her out in the street
just like a cat she landed on her feet

fuuuuu

Folsom is today, i’m dressed up in my little shortalls and diaper 🙂


All is not well in the world of Riley, the crushing feeling of hopelessness, i’m going to put on a smiley face and hopefully have a good experience, do some good networking today, maybe start going down a more positive path. I am starting to understand what its like to be broken, helpless in many ways, I hope I don’t feel like this for long. Oct. 5th I should be out of this mess, the unemployment appeal is hopefully going to net me enough in unpaid unemployment to get an apartment… it’s easier to find a job with an address and a judicially affirmed unfair firing, my employment record sucks until all this gets figured out. I’ve always had a job, i’ve been more productiv creatively in the last 26 days than I ever have, but at what cost? I’m trying my best to hide it but I am living out of my backpack, employers don’t jump on that when theres a million college students looking for jobs. The good won’t come out just yet, I’m going to fall apart, I need to find happiness, joy, love, safety, rest. I’m hurting right now, a hurdle to overcome. I am going to make it, I just hope I don’t destroy my ankle/lose my mind before then. I’m awesome, I can do it, I will become everything I want to be, until then I’m just a nowhere nothin’ fuckup.


now say a word for Karen Brown
she can’t tell the night from the day
they threw her out in the street
just like a cat she landed on her feet

status

Riley Status: optimistic
Ankle Status: not any better : (
Location Status: back in the city until (?)

I really wish I had the time to write the post I really wanted to, its all just scattered notes and thoughts right now, something about weedwackers and unsettling dreams and how you can masturbate to yourself if you put your thumb over the face… it was going to be a stunning epic, a defining moment for the blog, but for now all I have for you is pictures. These, my first ever studio pictures as a girl speak better for me, they’re prettier and a little more focused ❤

cheer up

Hey there friends! I’m heading back to SF, back to the grind, getting a P.O. box and doing the name change, I’m considering dancing again this week, a couple days of rest has left my ankle feeling about the same, but i’m still a little nervous, I must tread lightly. I need to get excited, the city will get my motor going again, I’m feeling kinda cute and vulnerable right now, not something you want to be in the tenderloin. Toughen up Riley, you can’t stay here in Sacramento, its bad news, move forward! Folsom street fair is coming up this weekend, I’m definitely going to be there, shoot me an email if you’re going!

More stuff soooooooon!

sweet little diaper girl

Hey there friends ❤ I'm heading back to SF, back to the grind, getting a P.O. box and doing the name change, I'm considering dancing again this week, a couple days of rest has left my ankle feeling about the same, but i'm still a little nervous, I must tread lightly. I need to get excited, the city will get my motor going again, I'm feeling kinda cute and vulnerable right now, not something you want to be in the tenderloin. Toughen up Riley, you can't stay here in Sacramento, its bad news, move forward! Folsom street fair is coming up this weekend, I'm definitely going to be there, shoot me an email if you're going.

I’ll be writing more soon, here’s a cute little picture taken just yesterday.Wish me safety, luck and prosperity, i’m still your little girl in diapers, stockings and paci ❤