Folsom is today, i’m dressed up in my little shortalls and diaper 🙂
All is not well in the world of Riley, the crushing feeling of hopelessness, i’m going to put on a smiley face and hopefully have a good experience, do some good networking today, maybe start going down a more positive path. I am starting to understand what its like to be broken, helpless in many ways, I hope I don’t feel like this for long. Oct. 5th I should be out of this mess, the unemployment appeal is hopefully going to net me enough in unpaid unemployment to get an apartment… it’s easier to find a job with an address and a judicially affirmed unfair firing, my employment record sucks until all this gets figured out. I’ve always had a job, i’ve been more productiv creatively in the last 26 days than I ever have, but at what cost? I’m trying my best to hide it but I am living out of my backpack, employers don’t jump on that when theres a million college students looking for jobs. The good won’t come out just yet, I’m going to fall apart, I need to find happiness, joy, love, safety, rest. I’m hurting right now, a hurdle to overcome. I am going to make it, I just hope I don’t destroy my ankle/lose my mind before then. I’m awesome, I can do it, I will become everything I want to be, until then I’m just a nowhere nothin’ fuckup.
now say a word for Karen Brown
she can’t tell the night from the day
they threw her out in the street
just like a cat she landed on her feet