feet up

his is just a little post to be less vague about what’s been going on with me ūüėõ

Due to losing my job and being in an awful apartment situation, I decided to pilgrimage to San Fransisco, this town is unsafe in unique ways, and hormones/healthcare is going to be easier to come by. There’s also TONS of resources for people at transitional points in their lives, free lunches, friendly people, i’m finding that there is a community within cracks of the buildings and on the streets, more than i could have imagined. I’ve met a ton of people, making some great connections… i even got a chance to play The Move!

I’ve been living out of my backpack, my name change is in process, and should have a P.O. box ASAP. My unemployment appeal is FINALLY going through, I have a date to see the courts on the 3rd of October, hopefully i’ll have a more¬†consistent¬†paying job by then, but if not its nice to know I have a chance to get unemployment. My boss lied on the application, claiming that I “threatened” him. After I was fired and told that I wasn’t open for rehire, I went and cried in a staircase for a few minutes, came back to get my stuff and my tips, and yes, I did call my boss a pussy, and yes, I did tell him to suck my cock. I was in pretty much rage mode, and you’ll never catch me losing my emotions like that. I said nothing threatening, and got into a car with a fellow co-worker and drove off. I found out later the owner fired his daughter that same morning.

He had no reason to fire me, so he made up a reason, and he’s been caught in a lie. There were tons of witnesses that saw me working hard, being taken outside by the boss, and then walk around the corner crying. Most of my co-workers agree that the bosses needed to be brought down a peg, and though it was a pretty lame move on my part, I was really upset and felt like I was in a corner. I am so looking forward to the day when those guys are forced to show their true colors, and though I support the local/organic/positive stuff they do, the owners are in it for the money and will do anything for the bottom line. They will get their comeuppance!

That’s a positive thing in my life, and one of the many reasons why I feel so much better when I’m out of town. As I mentioned, i’m living with whats on my back, but the backpack is pretty darn heavy. I’m pretty sure just from carrying this load my ankle kinda went out, it feels sprained, I’ve had to walk on it the last few days, and it was hurting pretty bad even before dancing on weds night, but the next couple days I have the¬†opportunity¬†to put my feet up. I’m hanging out with a friend and will be uploading some new videos, getting things in order for the next time I venture out. My next post will be more detailed recollection of some of the events that have effected and astounded me since my journey started, from near-death motorcycle experiences to backrubs and bbq’s in goldengate park to my first experience stripping. Interesting stuff ahead check out this gruesome foot pic!

feet up

This is just a little post to be less vague about what’s been going on with me ūüėõ

Due to losing my job and being in an awful apartment situation, I decided to pilgrimage to San Fransisco, this town is unsafe in unique ways, and hormones/healthcare is going to be easier to come by. There’s also TONS of resources for people at transitional points in their lives, free lunches, friendly people, i’m finding that there is a community within cracks of the buildings and on the streets, more than i could have imagined. I’ve met a ton of people, making some great connections… i even got a chance to play The Move!

I’ve been living out of my backpack, my name change is in process, and should have a P.O. box ASAP. My unemployment appeal is FINALLY going through, I have a date to see the courts on the 3rd of October, hopefully i’ll have a more¬†consistent¬†paying job by then, but if not its nice to know I have a chance to get unemployment. My boss lied on the application, claiming that I “threatened” him. After I was fired and told that I wasn’t open for rehire, I went and cried in a staircase for a few minutes, came back to get my stuff and my tips, and yes, I did call my boss a pussy, and yes, I did tell him to suck my cock. I was in pretty much rage mode, and you’ll never catch me losing my emotions like that. I said nothing threatening, and got into a car with a fellow co-worker and drove off. I found out later the owner fired his daughter that same morning.

He had no reason to fire me, so he made up a reason, and he’s been caught in a lie. There were tons of witnesses that saw me working hard, being taken outside by the boss, and then walk around the corner crying. Most of my co-workers agree that the bosses needed to be brought down a peg, and though it was a pretty lame move on my part, I was really upset and felt like I was in a corner. I am so looking forward to the day when those guys are forced to show their true colors, and though I support the local/organic/positive stuff they do, the owners are in it for the money and will do anything for the bottom line. They will get their comeuppance!

That’s a positive thing in my life, and one of the many reasons why I feel so much better when I’m out of town. As I mentioned, i’m living with whats on my back, but the backpack is pretty darn heavy. I’m pretty sure just from carrying this load my ankle kinda went out, it feels sprained, I’ve had to walk on it the last few days, and it was hurting pretty bad even before dancing on weds night, but the next couple days I have the¬†opportunity¬†to put my feet up. I’m hanging out with a friend and will be uploading some new videos, getting things in order for the next time I venture out. My next post will be more detailed recollection of some of the events that have effected and astounded me since my journey started, from near-death motorcycle experiences to backrubs and bbq’s in goldengate park to my first experience stripping. Interesting stuff ahead check out this gruesome foot pic!

feet down

I have set out on a journey!
I’ve been bouncing around the bay area, and parts beyond, I am resting for a moment with a good friend, overwhelmed, exhausted, and full of life.
This will last a lifetime, and this is only the¬†beginning. I’ve found a part-time situation dancing at a club, I’ve been meeting some bright lights in the city, finding friends and strangers in crowded streets, dark rooms, while watching sunrises. Working on my name change and gender marker documents makes finding a well-paying job easier, starting to get things figured out, getting information, advice, votes of confidence. Everything is going well, I’m staying on point, staying safe, staying active, staying sane. ¬†
A week after leaving, I’m further east than where I started… I’m heading back there soooon, uploading some stuff in the meantime, going back more structured, focused, I have a much better idea of the city now.
¬†More soon ‚̧

feet down

I have set out on a journey!
I’ve been bouncing around the bay area, and parts beyond, I am resting for a moment with a good friend, overwhelmed, exhausted, and full of life.
This will last a lifetime, and this is only the¬†beginning. I’ve found a part-time situation dancing at a club, I’ve been meeting some bright lights in the city, finding friends and strangers in crowded streets, dark rooms, while watching sunrises. Working on my name change and gender marker documents makes finding a well-paying job easier, starting to get things figured out, getting information, advice, votes of confidence. Everything is going well, I’m staying on point, staying safe, staying active, staying sane. ¬†
A week after leaving, I’m further east than where I started… I’m heading back there soooon, uploading some stuff in the meantime, going back more structured, focused, I have a much better idea of the city now.
¬†More soon ‚̧

the city

Hey there! Just checking back in with all my lovely, lovely readers. I’m still doing the backpack thing in SF, I’ve had so many experiences, it’s amazing. I’ve made new friends, reconnected with old ones, getting things¬†straightened¬†out with the legal parts of transitioning your gender, name change etc. I stripped last night for the first-time, I’ll write more about the experience as soon as I decompress from it, but I have to say that I’m not “working” or whoring¬†myself¬†out, and I’m not doing it for the¬†glamor¬†or attention. I was offered a paying gig and I took it, cash rules everything around me, at least for right now. I’m at the library, going to head over to Larkin and get some free food, I’ve been staying with friends here and there,¬†I’ve¬†been pretty safe from the perils of the city, keeping my head above water. I’m so determined to save up for an apartment outside of the city, looking for a legitimate job where I don’t have to show my ass, literally or¬†metaphorically. It’s been less than a week since I’ve gotten here and I’ve seen a lifetime of experiences, more stuff soon, I’m not finding myself around computers too often lately, but I’ll update when I can, I have lots of things to talk about.

Isn’t it going to be amazing when I’m all settled in a positive place, maybe¬†Pacifica¬†or the East Bay, and I’m looking back on all the things that i’ve done and smiling, knowing that I actually came to the city and made it, addiction, criminal record and STD free. Let’s get serious, lets get successful, lets get SRS!

Now’s the time for you to show yo’ ass
They ain’t handin out no mo’ cash

the city

Hey there! Just checking back in with all my lovely, lovely readers. I’m still doing the backpack thing in SF, I’ve had so many experiences, it’s amazing. I’ve made new friends, reconnected with old ones, getting things¬†straightened¬†out with the legal parts of transitioning your gender, name change etc. I stripped last night for the first-time, I’ll write more about the experience as soon as I decompress from it, but I have to say that I’m not “working” or whoring¬†myself¬†out, and I’m not doing it for the¬†glamor¬†or attention. I was offered a paying gig and I took it, cash rules everything around me, at least for right now. I’m at the library, going to head over to Larkin and get some free food, I’ve been staying with friends here and there,¬†I’ve¬†been pretty safe from the perils of the city, keeping my head above water. I’m so determined to save up for an apartment outside of the city, looking for a legitimate job where I don’t have to show my ass, literally or¬†metaphorically. It’s been less than a week since I’ve gotten here and I’ve seen a lifetime of experiences, more stuff soon, I’m not finding myself around computers too often lately, but I’ll update when I can.

Isn’t it going to be amazing when I’m all settled in a positive place, maybe¬†Pacifica¬†or the East Bay, and I’m looking back on all the things that i’ve done and smiling, knowing that I actually came to the city and made it, addiction, criminal record and STD free. Let’s get serious, lets get successful, lets get SRS!

Now’s the time for you to show yo’ ass
They ain’t handin out no mo’ cash

hella

I’m here in San Fransisco, I’ve EASILY walked 30 miles with a bag that weighs about as much as me, I’ve have seen things, dear god I have seen things. I’m pretty overwhelmed by my experience, starting to feel more comfortable in the big city. I’m at the library at the moment, I’ll be able to hopefully upload some pics and videos and stuffff soon. I have a million stories to tell, I’ve gotten so much information and my eyes have been opened as much as people have opened their hearts to me. I feel this city lives and breathes, it laughs and screams and cries all in the same breath. I’m headed to my next adventure wish me luck and prosperity.

The word of the day is Carpe Diem! I couldn’t have expected this to go better, i’ve been here for about 36 hours now and I feel like i’ve lived a lifetime. More stuff soon, life, I love ya, all is groovy ūüėõ

hella

I’m here in San Fransisco, I’ve EASILY walked 30 miles with a bag that weighs about as much as me, I’ve have seen things, dear god I have seen things. I’m pretty overwhelmed by my experience, starting to feel more comfortable in the big city. I’m at the library at the moment, I’ll be able to hopefully upload some pics and videos and stuffff soon. I have a million stories to tell, I’ve gotten so much information and my eyes have been opened as much as people have opened their hearts to me. I feel this city lives and breathes, it laughs and screams and cries¬†all in the same breath. I’m headed to my next adventure wish me luck and¬†prosperity.

The word of the day is Carpe Diem!¬†I couldn’t have expected this to go better, i’ve¬†been here for about 36 hours now and I feel like i’ve lived a lifetime. More stuff soon, life,¬†I love ya,¬†all is¬†groovy ūüėõ

sf explosivo

I’m setting off, I’m heading to the big city! I’m so excited, wish me lovely times and fascinating experiences. If you’re in San Fransisco, send me a letter and maybe we can connect, I’m going to be keeping¬†busy¬†with a few projects there, but I’m always looking to meet friends and cool new people, ideally finding a job and a place in the process. I’m mostly interested in just checking out the scene, filming and doing a little inward exploration, I need to write and I’m having trouble doing it here. I had one of the most intense sexual experiences of my life, I’m completely physically exhausted by it, I came without touching my boyparts, and yes, I got it on video ūüôā

I wrapped up the little chat early tonight, put on a big comfy abriform and got into my sleeper, i’m tired and I have a big big day tomorrow! Send some happy thoughts my way and stay diapered!

tra la la

I got a letter from a sweety, who said they thought of me when¬†they heard this. All the woes of the world go away when a cute little anime song comes on, and this is more or less how I feel right now. I feel in love, like the world has great potential, like the things that have come before have no bearing on the things that lie ahead. I don’t feel like a total weight on everything… my M.O. has been sunny side up nihilism, theres so much suffering that we’re better off not existing, but we will¬†inherently¬†survive so lets focus on the positive, I’ve always been so positive because deep down I feel so negative. Now admittedly theres more fear and terror than hugs and sunshine in this world, but not really where I live as much, and even if you catch an oppressed person in the right moment they’ll admit that it’s not all that bad.

“You can’t change anything without changing yourself” I wasn’t happy with myself so I wasn’t happy with anything, simple as that. The path to self improvement begins within, I feel so freaking awesome all the time. I feel hormonally balanced. Maybe it’s from not seeing the same thing over and over again, maybe it’s from being around positive people, maybe it’s from knowing that I have my hormones set-up for the next year or so, maybe because lately is the first time I’ve been 100%¬†consistent¬†about the hormones, morning afternoon and night. I needed to break from the patterns that I fell into in my last 9+ years of working in the customer service industry, I know I can find a good job, and I’m so looking forward to learning more about video¬†editing and seriously getting into the video field.¬†
I feel like¬†I’ve¬†been bitten by a radioactive Tony Robbins, I’ve gained the super-power to get over anything almost¬†immediately, to not dwell on the negative and to keep moving forward. It took years to get to this point, but I wouldn’t change a thing… wow, i like shuddered when I wrote that, I thought of things I have forgotten, things I would give anything to re-do… but those things happened and i’m in a good place now, so why dwell on them? Same goes for things I can’t really control, like all the suffering in the world.¬†
I’m over it. Life is too awesome to feel sad and frustrated all the time! I’m going to post some stuff about my girly feelings and the talk with my doctor, camera stuff, adventure! More stuff soon, all is well!!!
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