beyond planet parenthood

Hooooray! I’m all hormoned up, I’m good for appointments for the next 3 months! I have battled the creatures on Planet Parenthood, they have taken much from my coffers and even 5 vials of my blood. This time was particularly awful, I was hoping to go to a clinic in San Fransisco, but I haven’t quite made it out there yet. SO I end up going to planned parenthood appointment-less, which is not fun. There were way more protesters than usual this morning which is always fun! I feel so bad for the people who take them seriously, there must be a lot of sad catholic girls out there who feel like their eternal salvation may not come due to using birth control or getting an abortion. I don’t like speaking on this particular subject, both abortion or eternal salvation, but planned parenthood does help a lot of people. I think of it like Wal-Mart, everyone working there doesn’t want to be there, and the clientèle is largely rude and ignorant, and though they do a plethora of different things, they stir up special interest groups for 1 thing in particular, like selling guns or performing abortions. Hopefully, I will never find myself in either of those places again. On the first of the year I will have state-employee healthcare again, which is awesome, so next check-up will be with a doctor of my choosing. 
Not Planned Parenthood isn’t all bad, its the front end that is tough to get past, and though the nurses seem to be a little clumsy with a needle (i have a nasty bruise where I got poked) they are generally caring and friendly and make you feel comfortable, I always get nervous and stuff when I see the doctor, very few people have touched my breasts and I was admittedly a little scruffy, my self esteem was at risk but I also don’t like being a transperson at planned parenthood, it’s a pretty rough place and people don’t keep their opinions to themselves. I did get a vote of confidence when a local leader in the trans-community arrived at about the same-time as  me, as powerful, smart, dynamic transgirl, and she was in heels and her business attire. After catching up I realized that things really are tough all around, but sometimes giving the impression that it isn’t helps keep the momentum going, keeps the people around you inspired, this world really needs a groundswell movement of positivity if we’re ever going to expect peace and love to be consistent themes.

After getting through all the front-end nonsense, I saw a new doctor, did the physical stuff, told her I was going to stick with my current dose. I had a few questions for her which I will go into in the next post. I’m pretty exhausted, I still have some more writing to do, i just can’t promise anything, I’m going to go find a big shady tree to eat strawberries and nap under. More soon. 

labor days

I was planning on telling all these stories, but nothing extremely interesting happened, moved tons of furniture, did some This Old House stuff, it’s been fun almost. I tagged along to some parties and encountered all that beer pongery and jello shottery, laughed and had a good time but made the weekend that much tougher. It’s over now, I’m safe and sound and happy and have earned a houseful of appreciative friends, healthy eating and more yoga… this town has yoga up the wazoo, I need to recharge my batteries, taking it safe and slow, I’m still no more than a causeway away from where I started. 
I’m having trouble imagining a long-distance relationship with my computer, I know I can post from just about anywhere, but theres some things I still need to organize and post and prepare and all that good stuff. I’m getting the ol’ GL2 out for the first time in a week or so today, I’m bursting with ideas and I’m glad so many people have shown their appreciation, and really want to see me blossom. I want to make sure we’re all on the same page… my situation has *improved* since I left the apartment, I’m doing this less out of desperation and more to find a place where I can be successful, to break away from my hometown. It was pretty bad there at my old apartment, I’ll go into detail later and you will likely wish I hadn’t, it was as cute and funky as it was moldy and rat infested
Things are very good though, I’m on the right path, I can take this time to be active and create. There’s lots of people and excitement around me and they know who I am and what I do, as well as openminded people and independent thinkers themselves. I’m able to head back to Sacramento and get to Planned Parenthood tomorrow morning, I’ll let you know how it goes! I’m just a little nervous, not entirely excited but a girls gotta do etc. I’m going to stay on my current dose for now. Completely unrelated, if you like independent hip-hop, check out one of my favorite albums of the genre, Aesop Rock’s “Labor Days” 
You’ll be hearing from me soon! ❤ 

my big backyard

Remember “Your Big Backyard” Magazines? 
those and Zoobooks were awwwweeeesoooome

Big empty rooms have been a consistant theme in the last 2 days. 4 friends of mine are leaving sacramemto the same time I am, all for different places,. Hawaii, Davis, Vegas, Montreal. I’m spending the majority of my day helping my friend move to Davis, it’s a big ragtag bunch of great friends with a little baby girl on the way. These people I will miss and will miss me, my extended family, we have been holding down the streets in Sacramento for a long time, and now we’ve left it to the next generation. There is something to be said about the bonds you form at a younger age, especially highschool, most splinter off as we mature and become individuals, but sometimes they can last until we’re old and grey and playing pokemon cards in assisted living. So on my grandiose adventure to the wild great yonder I basically haven’t left my backyard yet… taking it slow, I guess for now I’m just a wandering good Samaritan 😛

I’m probably going to leave my studio here for now (yeah i call my computer my “Digital Studio”, I’d like to think I do more production than computing) I’ll be posting up in this corner of the world for the evening, things kinda accelerated and didn’t really get a chance to do a goodbye video in the old apartment, but I have a strong feeling that I will find myself back there in the future… I left most of my furniture there, it’ll be nice to think that i can go back and sleep in my own bed again. That bed was pretty fail anyway, think about how many posts after I got back from Boston about this time 2 years ago have involved me wetting my bed and some sort of leaky diaper or no diaper situation has been the case.It’s still a big, kinda comfy, clean mattress, but I would be embarrassed to see it without sheets.. hopefully wherever I move next I’ll have a crib or someone to bed with… aww geez I sound all kinds of desperate.

If I don’t get crushed by a refridgerator today then I will have to mark September 2nd down as a success. I’m going to do a bit of planning and alotof lifting today, so I’ll probably catch you a bit later, theres no internet at their new placce so I’m kinda playing it by ear, but I will likely be posting whenever I get a chance too… everyones still sleeping and I’m the little mouse tapping away at the keyboard. Oh and speaking of beds, I can’t believe this TV I’m blogging on right now, I could literally lay it down, put my sheets on it and take a digital siesta, all while Life HD is playing below me. Maybe thats what I’ll do next, make an LCD bed… well, nevermind, I gues thats just not possible without risk of severe bedwetting shock 😛

trying to soak up the last of this summers fresh air and sunlight. 
California coast, beaches and bridges, i’ll be seeing you soon. 

My Big Backyard

Remember “Your Big Backyard” Magazines? 
those and Zoobooks were awwwweeeesoooome
Big empty rooms have been a consistant theme in the last 2 days. 4 friends of mine are leaving sacramemto the same time I am, all for different places,. Hawaii, Davis, Vegas, Montreal. I’m spending the majority of my day helping my friend move to Davis, it’s a big ragtag bunch of great friends with a little baby girl on the way. These people I will miss and will miss me, my extended family, we have been holding down the streets in Sacramento for a long time, and now we’ve left it to the next generation. There is something to be said about the bonds you form at a younger age, especially highschool, most splinter off as we mature and become individuals, but sometimes they can last until we’re old and grey and playing pokemon cards in assisted living. Seeing my friends procreate is just a lovely reminder that my “extended family”: is growing and growing 🙂 I like when good people have kids

So on my grandiose adventure to the wild great yonder I basically haven’t left my backyard yet… taking it slow, I guess for now I’m just a wandering good Samaritan 😛 I’m probably going to leave my studio here for now (yeah i call my computer my “Digital Studio”, I’d like to think I do more production than computing) I’ll be posting up in this corner of the world for the evening, things kinda accelerated and didn’t really get a chance to do a goodbye video in the old apartment, but I have a strong feeling that I will find myself back there in the future… I left most of my furniture there, it’ll be nice to think that i can go back and sleep in my own bed again.

If I don’t get crushed by a refridgerator today then I will have to mark September 2nd down as a success. I’m going to do a bit of planning and alot of lifting today, so I’ll probably catch you a bit later, theres no internet at their new placce so I’m kinda playing it by ear, but I will likely be posting whenever I get a chance too… everyones still sleeping and I’m the little mouse tapping away at the keyboard. Oh and speaking of beds, I can’t believe this TV I’m blogging on right now, I could literally lay it down, put my sheets on it and take a digital siesta, all while Life HD is playing below me. Maybe thats what I’ll do next, make an LCD bed… well, nevermind, I gues thats just not possible without risk of severe bedwetting shock 😛
trying to soak up the last of this summers fresh air and sunlight. 
California coast, beaches and bridges, i’ll be seeing you soon.