Hey again! I’m back home, crinkly in my sleeper. I said my last goodbye to the summer with a friend on a rooftop in Brooklyn last night, i’m ready for cold and cuddly weather, blanket weather ❤ I'm just sitting down to share some more twitter pictures with you, I'll have something else for you in my next post. Enjoy, part two of my rehashing old twitter posts, we'll talk about my little fun week (a few months ago) of comrades, cribs and crinkles!
Good morning Internet! It’s a lovely, overcast Tuesday morning here in the Bronx, it probably won’t be by the time I’m done with this post, I’m probably going to write for a while, I have a whole morning free ❤ I’m feeling good, had a good day at the DMV changing my stuff yesterday, got my SRS letter from my doctor, I’m happy and healthy, alive, I hope you are too! *no offense to my zombie readers
Now that you’re here, let’s have a little chat, shall we? Nothing serious, just some thoughts… then pics 🙂
I know I need to post more, if you’ve been following this blog for a while now you know there’s an ebb and flow to my posting over the years, long silences etc. I need to push myself during the times when I lack motivation or have conflicting feelings, if I just don’t feel like writing or if I judge my writing too harshly. I’ve been kinda lazy, posting on Twitter instead of taking the time to really construct my thoughts and feelings into an actual post. It’s so easy to do the little single-serving updates, nice to get the little bits of attention, but it’s not the same as actually writing something or making a video. I can’t deny the catharsis that this little corner of the Internet provides me, how I can reflect off the views of my friends and followers and share my thoughts, insecurities, successes and failures. This blog has quite literally kept me alive over the last few years, it’s kept me motivated, it’s blessed me with meeting some really great people and continues to be a necessary creative outlet.
One of the most common e-mails I’ve been getting lately I’ve been getting E-mails wishing that I should post more, and I will. The negative influences have kinda moved on so I’m not dealing with compromised accounts or flagging as I was immediately after the show came out. I’m not as paranoid about what I post about, I can be a little more transparent, open. The e-mails and attention got a bit overwhelming at a point and instead of hating it, I just backed away for a hot second… I have such lovely things to show you since we last spoke 🙂 I think i’ve spent enough time reiterating all of this, lets move on to the reason why we’re all here… cute diaper pics 🙂
Lately I’ve been all over the place, exploring the city, networking, filming, organizing with others, experiencing a ton of stuff, and I’ve been crinkly most of the time. I’ve been tweeting about some of my diapered adventures on my @RileyBBQ account. I know me reliving my old twitter posts sounds really exciting, but it’ll be fun, lets step into the wayback machine and I’ll share some pics and contexts 🙂
goodbye for now crib, NYC here I come 🙂
Hello there friends! I’m here in NYC with my little girl – she’s giving me a ride upstate today, I have the work of the lord to do in Toronto this week and could use some time out of the city. I am tired, I have been running around, doing my thing, trying to survive this lifestyle as an independant. Things are going good otherwise…
good thing – went to the doctor, 100% clean of any STD/STI’s, got my hormones etc – was diagnosed as Anemic (iron deficiancy) and am supplementing with Iron, good excuse to eat red meat, feeling a little bit better, for a while I was really dragging, ignoring my body telling me to slow down.
good thing – excursion to London around Oct. 10th is still on, a number of recent media things have been canceled for various reasons, bad luck/weather but that might be for the best. I’m excited about my next show, and will continue telling my story on here
good thing – after swapping out some RAM and getting a new proccer fan my computer is back in working order. I also recently sold my Canon XH-A1 for something more modern and compact, I miss my HDV camera but needed something that I felt comfortable taking to shows etc – my old camera was the size of my torso. So half of that went to buying a new little AVCHD camera and the other half went to HPV inoculation (good idea for sexually active folks) and other medical bills, this city is expensive
good thing – I’m still single, still kinda floundering, working with a group of avant-garde artists here in the Bronx, hungout with Peaches and crashed the Calvin Klein fashion week tents with mustachio’d topless folks – can’t forget Reverend Billy and #OccupyWallSt protests… I have lots of video to edit/publish and that’s awesome. Not getting a ton of freelance work, struggling but making my mark.
good thing – I’m moving out of my apartment in 40 days. I don’t know where I’m going from there, but I have options and ideas, Los Angeles being one of the better ones.
good thing – I woke up in a crinkly wet diaper this morning, and the weathers allowed me to wear again, feeling little. I have a strong desire to regress at this point, and in my little upstate nursery I hope to find the time/mental state to be able to embrace my little side more. I sometimes feel I’m too cold, too calculating to really be a little girl, but that’s not what others see. Especially when seeing others play the role so well I get really excited about being a little girl… my motivation to do it alone has dwindled… this little girl needs to be kept in her diapers 😛
good thing – I have been changing my fair share of diapers on sissies in the city, I need to legitimize what I do and turn it into taxable income.
good thing – I’ve slowed down on camming – my body is changing and I’m not forcing myself to be sexual when the mood doesn’t strike. My virility is in question as it never has been before, I’m getting closer to non-functioning, and with no plan for SRS that’s kinda scary… at the same time, I’ve always said I like my penis but don’t like erections, and that’s where I’m getting to.
good thing – I got all of my name/gender change information and my court orders, so if I could afford SRS, I have my letter of approval.
Lots of good things, a couple not-so-good things, lack of motivation/overly stressed/relationship with my father has deteriorated to the extent that I doubt we’ll ever speak again… it’s his choice. Those things are small drops in the bucket of my life, not letting them get to me.
More stuff soon, I’ll be doing a livecast from my Nursery sometime this week, I’ll keep you informed. I’ll be posting more, I promise!
hello world, it’s me, Riley, and I love diapers 🙂
Be well internet!