diaper thread

I woke up this morning as I have the last few, waking dozely in the dawns light, repositioning my tiny little body into a position in which I can comfortably wet my diaper… and I do, I feel the diaper swell, not worrying about leaks, just holding my bear and letting go. I snuggle back up and drift off to a dream…
After changing into a fresh diaper this morning, doing a little shower/start my day routine, I see the rainy day and decide to spend some time writing. Sitting down at my computer, I decided a review of the Tena’s would be a good idea, a video even. I start to conceptualize, my hands are on my keyboard, but my fingers aren’t moving, a new tab is open, i’m distracted. I do something silly, immature, something that is always a mistake, I move my mouse to the address bar and type “4” and press enter, sending me directly to 4chan.  
I guess sometimes I need immediate satisfaction, validation, I had wet my diapers in the process of cleaning up my apartment for the video, and I was feeling very cuddly, cute, in need of attention. I took a couple pics, the posters were rather nice, as opposed to the usual hate that flows out of that site. I don’t post on the chans too often, 2008 was a big chan year for me, lots of trapping and diaper threads, a silly, silly thing to be a part of. People tend to post as me, it’s weird to see someone use your pictures to seduce others, but there’s weirder things on 4chan than that. I never made the video, but I will, i’m quite fond of these diapers though I do fall in love easily, with diapers at least.
Oooooh Lightning just struck outside… It’s cold and rainy here in paradise, luckily I have plenty of diapers here to keep me company. And internet friends… and bears and puppies and bunnies and even a monkey 😛 I tend to keep good company. Thanks for reading my little faceplant with the creative process. 
More stuff sooon.
Moar ❤

Crinkle Party!

Hello friends! I had a lovely time doing the Riley Kilo Crinkle&Cuddle Hour (Tentative title) this Friday. There were more people than ever and we played some little games, talked marshmallows and I showed off my diaper stash 😛 Thanks everyone for coming, let’s do it again soon!

"How I Wet Your Mother"

If there’s two things that make me smile, it’s diapers & the Simpsons. Last Sunday, these things collided in a weird-ass episode, it’s 1/2 Inception, 1/2 bedwetting fanfic and makes me feel weird. Read ahead or watch it on Hulu first, as this post is full of spoilers! 

I’ve been watching the simpsons as long as I can remember, I was 3 when “Simpsons Roasting Over An Open Fire” came out, the first episode, and I’ve watched ever since. I’ve missed some of the more recent episodes and honestly, I think season 13 was the last decent season, with a few good episodes here and there since. I don’t watch many new shows, and find myself returning to the familiarity and comfort of 90’s TV…. or Diapers.
I saw this picture on Reddit the other day, “lol wut” was my only reaction. I did a little research and found that Homer becomes a bedwetter in the most recent episode of The Simpsons…

I honestly don’t know how to feel. I didn’t like how Homer was emasculated, the gags were pretty easily achieved and it forced nostalgia and “smart” jokes… but the Simpsons has been failing in that manner for the last 10 seasons, this was a little different, it was dark, it made me sad at points, still does. Basically, Homer screws over his friends and Karma kicks in, causing him to wet the bed.

He hides it from Marge and the kids, until he tries out a too obvious bedwetting alarm, and the awkward “what’s that under the sheets” conversation begins. In the context of hiding something embarrassing from family it was awkward, this is why people are anxious, hiding feelings from my parental figures (rollercoasters, bullying and certain Simpson episodes among other things) are why I’m a pretty anxious adult, and maybe why I so thoroughly embrace comfort objects.

Poor Homer! He’s super upset about wearing diapers, and Marge laments “sorry Homer, a diaper is just not sexy”. I don’t know how to feel about that, I like diapers, and I like sex, sometimes at the same time, sometimes not, I can be a sexy adult in diapers, and a cuddly girl in grown-up clothes… it’s all quiet confusing. In the context of a Nuclear family, the kind of sex a married cis & hetero couple would have, diapers don’t really fit in. The sex I have is all over the place, flowing, kinky, taboo, playing with age, gender, roles, textures, objects, sometimes I just happen to be wearing diapers and end up having sex in them, sometimes I get put in them for the specific reason of being sexualized. It’s confusing, this is why this episode has got me all frazzled. Marge in diapers would have been sexy, that’s the only solid thought I have on all of this. 
The episode gets ridiculous, Marge seeks alternatives after homer gets obnoxious about his diapers, and they use an Inception-esq machine to go into Homers dreams, and it all gets pretty sci-fi silly from then on. They don’t really revisit the diapers from then on, instead bringing back his mother and creating a flashback storyline from that. Not really funny, but interesting, good animation, the South Korean children that animate the Simpsons get better every year 😛
That was bad, this was bad, if there’s diapers on TV, it’s usually pretty bad, this one just hit close to home. After a couple days of letting it all sink in, I get that Truman Show-esq tingle in your spine, like this episode is a glitch in the Matrix, your brain trying to tell you that you’re dreaming. I diiiid just visit my Mom, and they did end with a song very close to me, “Dream Operator” from True Stories. Strange. 
Also these things.

So there’s my little Simpsons wrap-up. I’ll keep my eye out for more silly diaper things. I’ll just try and forget about this awkward little encounter with diapers on my favorite family. I’ll leave you now to sleep, perchance, to dream, hugs and cuddles, just close your eyes little ones, drift off to sleep… ❤

When you were little 
You dreamed you were big 
You must have been something 
A real tiny kid 

 You wish you were me 
I wish I was you 
Now don’t you wake up 
The dream will come true

where, when and with whom

Hey there! I’ve been a busy young lady lately! Lots of adventure, self-realization, exciting propositions and new ideas! Life is good, I’ve been burning my little candle at both ends, but I finally have a morning to myself. I’m in my crinkles and footy, feeling very cute and cuddly, so make sure to imagine me that way while you read these words… maybe this pic will help 😛

OOooooOOooooo Marshmallows! For those completely in the dark as to why I am suddenly modeling with something fluffy and white other than diapers… “the Marshmallow trick” is a little thing some extra-kinky diapered folks have been known to experiment with. It’s no more complicated than putting some marshmallows in your bottom, crinkling up and letting your body get all confused and having a little messy accident shortly after. There’s a little more to it than that, I’ll be laying down a concise, often-too-graphic explanation (much as I did with anal orgasms in this post) of the whole experience, and hopefully will clear up some misconceptions. When the diapered community looks back on the spring of 2012, I want them to think of marshmallows in their butts.

In the picture I’m wearing a little girl pull-up, the easy-ups by pampers, its really cute and fits me 🙂 I have lots of new diapers to show you, expect a review of Abena S4’s, Tena Classic Briefs, Huggies Size 6 Overnights, Attends Medium (CRINKLES!!!) and even some funky diapers i’ve never seen before. This is an exciting time for me, I have focus, diapers, an exciting trip next month and I feel really beautiful right now ❤ This trip is going to be to CapCon, I’ll be doing a presentation there, won’t you join us? It’s in Chicago, it looks like a great event with some really wonderful people coming. I’ll be sharing stories and I’m planning a really special experience, I hope to see many friends and new friendly faces ❤

Another exciting thing… I’m going to be doing a webchat tomorrow night (Friday the 23rd)! Join me here (i’ll post a TinyChat link) at 10pm EST for the free webchat – this one is going to be a little different, I’ll be a little less “little”, we’ll be discussing diapers, wetting, all that good stuff, but with a little more interaction. I’ll be taking questions throughout the hour about all aspects of gender/diapers/life, I’m hoping to learn and share with the always interesting folks in the room. At 11pm I’ll be switching over to Ifriends, taking off my diapers and getting into a little costume kinda like this one…

…and being a naughty girl. Ifriends is not free but it’s much more naked, I have my toys and little outfits and everything, I plan on getting all sexy, showing off my big-girl side. I’m really looking forward to trying this, I love being on Cam and so rarely find the time, tomorrow night will be lots of fun ❤ 
Check out the site tomorrow night, Mommys and Daddys bring your littles to the 10 or call the crinkle-sitter for the 11, it gets a little blue… More stuff sooooon! Hope all is well and StayDiapered!~

Monster Truck Riley

Tuesday! Tuesday! Tuesday!

Inside the Kimberly-Clarke Arena in Hollywood a unprecidented event will take place… the long awaited return of the one and only Riley “CrinkleSaurous” Kilo!!! This cuddle monster has a number of fierce animals to contend with, a wild pack of puppies, a big red crustacean (aka Citizen Snips) and against the advisory of the stuffy regulatory society, a live Cincy Bear! They’ll hear the crinkles 3 towns over! Kilo’s cuddlelust is reaching dangerously levels, no snug will go in snuggled, no bottom will go unpadded!!!

So Internet, zip up those sleepers and get those pacifiers a boilin’ because this Tuesday night, March 13th, Riley is back from her NorCal adventures and will be LIVE ON CAM!!!

::explosion sounds::

Prepare for a shotgun blast of conversation about crinkly travel, The Chicago Ageplay Convention, old friends and new outfits 🙂 If you’re regressed below 2 years old you get in free!!!!

TinyChat, tomorrow @ 10pm EST!!! RileyKilo’s Cuddle Hour! BE THERE!!!

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***the show is free, life is good, look for the tinychat link tomorrow evening @10EST – also, install Skype in case I get B&… More stuff soon, can’t wait to get back home! Hugs Internet!