Blue and the other colors

Last Content Warning for a while: bit’ of sad stuff ahead, then lots of smiles!

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Jazz Legend Bleedin’ Gums Murphy once said “Singing the blues isn’t about making yourself feel better, it’s about making other people feel worse”

The last 5 days I’ve sat down every morning and tried to write something ABDL, write about peeing my pants or one of the brand new diapers I have… but everything that’s coming out is depressing, sardonic or preachy. Life has been really tough for everyone lately and I’m certainly having my share of challenges. Today’s posts going to be about direction and focusing on the positive. So let’s get out some sad stuff first.

It seems I can’t go 2 posts without mentioning a friend that’s passed. Specifically my friend Bill Chill, who did some filming and graphic design for this site (including my current header) and was a cool artist and gentle friend. I just found out and am very sad. Message me if you were mutual friends (Chicago/CAP people) and want to talk.

I’m not numb to it, I’m just numb to talking about it. I’m the kind of sad that just needs some time and bear snuggles.

So I’m going to bank some writing, I’ve got drafts and notes and red-string connecting it all together with some eventual plan for posts/pages of a book. Everyone and my mother has been pushing me to write a legit book, so I think i’m going to take all my profound feelings and sardonic worldview and work towards something real. I overuse “Sardonic” because I grew up on Daria and read a lot of Sedaris, I’d love to write a book with that Jean Shepherd/David Sedaris style Essay structure. Something full of laughs and tears and shocking moments of depravity, all that good stuff! I also love to see what a professional editor could do with some of my drafts, get better at grammar and syntax and all that because sometimes I no write so good.

I’ve always wanted this site to be a bright space online, one where people can come to feel warm and loved, to read my story and see themselves in it. We’re adults and we can tackle adult issues, but I feel there’s a time and place. I shant (I also overuse shant, in the sense that I use it at all) be ignoring my feelings or the icky sticky parts of AB/DL/Trans life, I’m just going to open the drapes for a while. Let’s be little together, talk about crinkles and bears 🙂

It’s going to be a tough couple weeks, I’m mainly stressing about the election from a citizens perspective but also worrying about working it. I’ve been a diligent poll worker and my polling site really needs me this time, but I’m super nervous about getting sick. I have been 1000% Cautious and safe and not eating out or going anywhere really, but this poll working thing is a civic duty IMO and I can;t . Money where your mouth is moment. Will probably be a lot less anxious and miserable when this is all over, thanks for bearing with me. And I’m still confidently 3 weeks+ nicotine free, life is good, I’m happy and safe, just need to remind myself of that sometimes.

Moving forward, consider this site a cuddly little space! Sad posts will be spread out and clearly marked. Starting in 6 days (my 14 year-anniversary!) I’m going to be putting out daily posts and other fun stuff. Fresh start, fresh diapers, fresh outlook.

So that’s that, packing away the Content Warnings and pulling out the NSFW warnings! I’ve recently went through my 200+ kinky and/or ABDL videos and organized/updated them, now I’m moving on to my photos so you’ll be seeing lots of retro pics and memories! Over the years I’ve served as a constant reminder that life, love, success are not all straight lines. There’s ups and downs, wins and losses, sad days and ones filled with happiness and contentment. Living an authentic life is the goal, every other moment of joy is a bonus 🙂 Thanks for following on my journey, cute diaper pics, new video, audio (i’ve been threatening a podcast for a while) and all that coming soon.

I have a new little Raccoon friend to cheer me on and all the kind comments and messages from ya’ll ❤ Thanks for all the support, more smiles on their way! I’m off to change out of my morning crinkles and get busy livin’ 🙂 Hugs!

Riley ❤

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