Hey there friends! Been a nice stay-at-home holiday here, just bears and crinkles 🙂
I’m doing some year-end wrap up stuff so I can start fresh with new year content! For now I have some snuggly pics over the last few days, wearing my Northshores and Forsite AM/PMs and just being a soggy girl.
More stuff soooooon. Have lots of exciting plans and ideas for 2021. Thanks for all the support this year, i’ll be doing a year-in-review post here soon. More crinkles and cuddles coming up, i’m sitting here with a monkey in my lap, warm and safe. Hugs friends!!!
Hey friends! It’s winter snuggly time and we got out biggest snow in forever here in PA! This was last week but i’ve been hiding inside since, did all my holiday food shopping an just hunkering down until the new year 🙂
Had fun in the snow, was a super soggy girl under my poofy jackets and overalls 🙂
Headed to bed, just wanted to show off a couple crinkly pics from the last week ❤ Hope everyone is warm and snuggly, the stuffers and I send our luff ❤
Hey there friends and have a little YouTube video to share with you today! It’s a live recording of a Story Time video I did a few weeks ago, the framing’s a bit wonky but its a story nonetheless, ISOStorytime will be together again on xmas friday! I may also be streaming that day I’ll make sure to post if I’m on CB 🙂
I recently reset my phone so i’ve been locked out for a couple days on this app, technology amirite, had some snowstorms, will post some pics tomorrow! Spent all day going through pics, hundreds from the last week, have been a productive little snuggler ❤ Will post a few here and the rest in the seedier parts of the internet.
Theres big stuff happening in the porn world, not trying to panic, just being cautious. Lots of new legislation coming in. Going to get interesting. MSNBC Basics here. I have been busy to say the least. Figuring stuff out as it happens, and its all happening fast.
I have been kinda funky the last week or so but all together positive. Won’t let the seasonal depression and hormones and everything wear on me, lots of new stuff happening this year but managing my anxiety. Been napping lots, which has kept me chipper. Not a moments worry that I would do things that I have left behind, I have progressed so much this year and the last, I don’t doubt my determination one bit 🙂
Hugs friends, this isn’t my best video but its fun, will be back to more reviews etc soon. 2021 is going to be a year of Live Content for me, so look forward to seeing more of me more often, i’ve been hiding too long 🙂
More soon ❤ Hope everyone is well, cute pics tomorrow!
THAT WAS NOT THE VIDEO I MEANT TO POST!!! I ACCIDENTALLY POSTED THE TALES FROM THE CRYPT EPISODE I HAD IN MY QUEUE!!! SORRY FRIENDS!!!
I was editing a video and listening to smooth Japanese music when suddenly I dropped everything and came rushing here! Some thoughts have culminated into a point and I’d like to share it here 🙂 Talk about shame and getting over yourself ahead!
Internet reviewer Yahtzee once said “Maybe we don’t play retro video games because of nostalgia but because old games have what we want”. This resonated with me, because there’s so much rationalizing going on all the time, when all you really need is “I do this because I like it, it feels good”. I dance around my room to Bubblegum J-pop in certain moods because that music makes me feel unlike anything else. I’m very glad to have found that genre and used to be pretty shy about liking it, especially around my more pretentious music peers.
To bring it a little closer to home, I have been wearing swimsuits and bodysuits more often lately because they make me feel the cutest! They also get me excited, and I’m ridiculously susceptible to snuggles when I’m in one, especially a little gymnastics outfit. I think it’s because I took gymnastics when I was really little and always wanted to wear ballet outfits… but there I go rationalizing again. I just like wearing them, they feel good and turn me on. That’s the beginning and end of the story.
Introspection is super important in personal development, but it’s totally ok to put all that in the “Too Hard” or “Do Later” pile. As long as you’re not hurting anyone, enjoy your particular pleasures. I always kinda felt like a “pervert” or “shameful” for having sexy times (especially by myself) while really indulging in my kinks. And then I realized that i’m the only one keeping myself from enjoying these things. The world may have built those walls of shame but I’m the one keeping them up.
I’m learning it’s OK to stop stressing for a second and just enjoy myself. Not everything needs a point, not everything is leading to some greater goal or part of some grander scheme. Sometimes I just want to wear a cute swimsuit and masturbate to myself in the mirror, if that’s a crime then lock me up. Actually… please lock me up 😛
I find the more you limit yourself, the more things lose control. When I was younger I’d suppress my diaper lust then go all out on occasion, enemas, pacifiers, plastic pants, the whole works. I was always a complete sticky mess afterwards and usually didn’t feel great about it, often ashamed and a little manic, those hard emotional swings are never healthy. I’d be irresistibly horny and usually do about half of what i’d planned to do to myself. I’d then swing hard to “ugh, what a mess, why would anyone love me if I do stuff like that”.
I have since found a much better balance. I still get really turned on, do some kinda kinky shameful things, but it’s all in good fun. It’s good to go a little wild now and then as long as it’s reasonably safe 🙂
There’s a time for serious self-reflection and a time to pee into a pair of snowpants because it feels good. I’ve avoided repeating the “B” word constantly, but BALANCE really is important. Not to sound like the 16th-century Catholic church but I allow myself a certain amount of indulgences and try not to go overboard, I have certainly been guilty of that in the past. I often over-indulged in more socially acceptable things (but certainly more harmful), all the while I secretly longed for other things.
Standing on a cliff over water, some people dive in w/o a thought, some people do a flip, some look cautiously then join in. I’ve always been shivering on the cliff, too afraid to enjoy myself, over-thinking the dangers, fearing criticism from my peers. I’m finally starting to feel like jumping in, enjoying myself instead of worrying about every little thing.
Thanks for reading. Like what you like! I’m going to go put on a diaper and the bears are gonna pat my big poofy bottom because they know I like it 😛 If this site had a mission statement it’d be “getting over the shame of being yourself” or the more direct “fuck shame” and I hope we can all find a little more confidence in ourselves and our interests. We could all be a little more like Amélie ❤
Also, if you haven’t seen Amelie, go see it! I don’t know if it’s still a total cliche to recommend that movie, but it’s a total masterpiece and a must watch. It’s peerless in its sense of wonder except for maybe “Roman Holiday“… watch both if you haven’t!
I’m watching someone really wonderful sing a really cool, beautiful song on ISOstorytime, feeling like I’m in very good company ❤
I have been working on this video for a while, this is the first 2 minutes or so of the full video, which is pretty naughty video with some seriously naughty content 😛 It’s on my big girl site – http://bit.ly/MVKinky
I’ll be making some ABDL themed content in this style coming up, this has been a very intense project but I’ve really expanded my scope when it comes to editing, something like this was more of an experiment to see what I could do 😛 It was successful, but I have a long way to go before I get hired by ILM 😛
More stuff soon 🙂 thanks everyone, been a really tough week but tonight has been absolutely wonderful ❤ Thanks for following me through the good and the bad ❤