Diapered Lifestyle #0 – The Reset Button

Today i’m hitting the Reset Button and starting a big diapered adventure, my biggest yet!

It’s been 5,983 days since I started writing this blog, just over 16 Years, and it’s time for a fresh look at things. I just had an Orchiectomy (Gender Affirming Testicle Removal) in January and have been out of diapers for over 40 Days now. For a girl who wore diapers every night to bed, going 40 days has been a trial, I miss my diapers so much… but this also leads me to a unique opportunity to start fresh with diapers, I have a new body & lots of new feelings, I have a blank canvas and plan to make tons of video this year, so “Diaper Lifestyle” begins today.

Diaper Lifestyle is the inclusion of Diapers in your life, for any reason.

This bright-eyed little girl is going to be exploring the world of diapers from the ground up & telling her story of going from cute panties to even cuter diapers. The crinkly joy, the awkward moments, the wet beds & leaks, every aspect of being a diapered girl. I’m going to put my preferences in the bin and explore EVERY kind of diaper and finds out what works for me, things are going to fit and work differently now that i’m post-op. I’m so excited to be back into diapers, and I’m finally healed enough to wear them again.
And while I will be exploring this authentically, there will be a role-playing element to these stories, especially around the start. I really like the idea of going back into diapers at night because i’ve been wetting my bed too often, followed by daytime accidents & daytime diapering etc, so I’m going to play around with that theme. You may think I sound a little Naive in the following posts, i’m allowing myself to see diapers with fresh eyes through this narrative & want to have some fun with my journey, de-potty training 🙂

And being “little” is a big part of who I am & will be naturally integrated into my story, but it’s not a big focus and wearing diapers isn’t always associated with regression with me, it’s often a very adult need that has very adult issues around it as I wear diapers in my professional life… basically i’m saying that I’ll be talking about wearing diapers to the DMV as much as i’ll be talking about cribs & bottles. I will talk about the stuffies alot tho, the bears are a big part of my life too, they are good bears 🙂

This will also provide a structure for my reviews & informative content, which I will be starting again, I want to get another look at some of my favorite brands & go over some standards, “how to put on a diaper”, “top 10 diaper tips” etc, simple fun topics i’ve covered in the first pass of this blog. See my original first post here.

So let’s push the button!

I’ve been a little bogged down in reality lately and these posts will be entirely focused on my Diapered journey, alongside my usual StayDiapered/StayKinky/Blog Content. Over the last year I tried to expose the seedy underbelly of the ABDL community and while I raised awareness, I feel like it’s a bit of a lost cause in such an apathetic space. So it’s time to move on and focus on the joy of this *whole thing* and practice my “Best way to change the world is to be a positive & kind example for others” ideology. I love diapers, I love my art and my diapered friends and no amount of bad news will take that away from me, we’re safe here.

If you see “Diapered Lifestyle” on a post, know that it will be free of social drama, politics & any such icky stuff. I’ll still cover accountability topics, but i’ll keep that seperate & am taking a long, long break from it all. This is going to be a really fun adventure and I’m really excited to share it with all of you!

Part 1 Starts Tomorrow!

More Tomorrow! Picture Fresh Out Of My Camera & Unedited 🙂

Virginia is For Diaper Lovers 2 – Elevation

New Video!!! I’ve been editing my cute little butt off and finally am catching up on my projects, this is part 2 of Virginia is For Diaper Lovers, the finale including my most recent Shenandoah trip! I have more adventures to share, I can’t wait to talk about my Orchiectomy updates, my laser hair removal (getting laser on my diaper area!!! smoooooth girl!!!) So much to share, pushing out the noise on social media and focusing on the good stuff!

Thanks for letting me talk about Spacey yesterday, I went back and tried to list to some of their podcasts but it’s really tough for me, I was always a little wasted back then, you can really hear the pain in my voice. I was going through some pics of me as a kid and even me as an adult, and so many had this same pensive, anxious ::biting my inner lip:: look to them, and even well into my 20s that look appears. I didn’t see that look in any of my pics in Shenandoah, and I think that says at least a 1000s words about where this little girl is, she’s still a mess but the best mess she’s ever been! More content, less noise, more smiles, less worrying about faceless and soulless folks ❤

More sooooooon! Hugs friends, and please, don’t stress yourself out on Twitter defending me or arguing with these clowns, winter & holidays are ruff, i’m going to be focusing on smiles and snugs and leaving the grinches out of it 🙂

Less Humbugs, More Bumhugs!

Virginia Is For Diaper Lovers #6 – A Combination of Invention and Recall

Will Eisner, when discussing an autobiographical chapter in his “A Contract With God” book, described the story as a “Combination of Invention and Recall”. That’s our memories, isn’t it? I’m digging through footage of my Shenendoah Trip and so much of it seems new, swept away in the whirlwind of travel and an already-full memory. If it weren’t for this blog I would have forgotten most of my 20s, time will tell if that’s a good thing or not.

Workbench

I just came back from another little travel adventure and I have lots and lots of travel in my future, going back to Shenandoah in a few weeks, I’m starting to take advantage of my geographical position and all the great stuff around the Maryland/Virginia area.

To clarify, I went to Shenandoah from the Sept. 11th to the 18th (I always travel on the 11th) then I spent a week with family visiting my area, then I stayed another few days at another resort in Maryland to film/work. I just got home yesterday and don’t have any more travel for at least 2 weeks, so I can finish the Kat video and work on the ~200GBs of video I have to edit. So much new stuff on my StayKinky sites, check them out!!!

Check out this “Trans Breast Growth Diary” video on my transcaping site, I also have a version on Youtube but it’s not in color and not as good, watch the MV one. It’s a video about my breast growth journey!

Here’s some cute travel pics, I need to get back to editing 😛 Hugs friends <3<3

city girl in the mountains

praise the sun

cant keep my skirt down 😛

love this pose

not good at cloth diapers ;P

this looks full, but its just the fold of the diaper

i swear, its the fold of the diaper, really.

Thanks for reading, I always appreciate people sharing this site on their twitters and social media stuff! Thanks for all the support friends! I am so happy with the way I look, check out those tiny boobs!

Virginia is for DiaperLovers #3 – Start at the End

Holy heck friends, it’s all over finally! This has been a wild summer but the last 3 weeks have been wilder! Tiny content warning for family/age/random trans stuff.

It all started with my Doctors appointment and good news and has continued with the goodness. On Sept 11th I went to Virginia, on the 14th I went to Shenandoah Nt’l Park, on the 17th I came back, went to the Renn Faire, hired a plumber for an emergency (never fun coming back to one), did as much editing as I could until the 20th when my Mom came to visit. Spent the last few days hanging out with my Mom, seeing the sites etc, I feel i haven’t had a home cooked meal in a month, I have walked over 10k steps everyday for the last 3 weeks. I have been eating like a horse loose in the green bin and i’m bent over as my congenital back issues are worse then they’ve ever been… but what’s on my face? A big ol’ smile.

Some of these pictures are the best pictures i’ve ever taken, some are sloppy and fun, some are a stark reminder of my age. I have been preparing myself for the effects of aging my whole life, and I just have to puff out my chest and realize i’m beautiful and people love my cuteness and crinkles, regardless of the wrinkles. Back before “Demotivators” were a meme, a guy I knew started it with this and I think of it often.

I try to live my life on this platform as an example, show folks you can age naturally, not edit out blemishes etc and still be happy and proud in your body. I do a little color editing but I see so much of the internet is vaseline and that same smooth barbie/kardashian face that I think is just homogeneity and marketing and generally bad for society, womens esteem etc. Never pay someone who says they will make you beautiful, send you to heaven or set you free. Don’t Pay The Ferryman.

What the heckers does this have to do with Virginia or Diapers? Nothing Really, it’s just the end of a long, long holiday and i’m aimlessly reflecting like a disco ball. I’ve lived a full life, and my face and body reflect it, I’m a well traveled girl 🙂 I spent the last few days with my Mom, who looks great for her age, despite not being a person who cares about cosmetics whatsoever. She also has MS and any number of other health issues but still keeps at it, is incredibly tenacious. We’ve made peace with the stuff that happened during my childhood, and while some of it was unforgivable, time and terminal illness heals all wounds. Glad we’re part of each others lives, though a couple days every 6 months is enough for the both of us.

Pics are from a play area in Virginia, some friendly horseys and some lovely quiet lake views! I’m being such a tease because I have a million cute diaper pics and i’m playing coy with them. Lots of diapers coming tomorrow, I promise!!! Here’s one from the top of the mountain as a little preview 🙂

She also dropped at ton of pics from when I was a kid, going to post a few to my Patreon but here’s a couple when I was 18 when I went to Beijing 🙂 I have a vagabond spirit, so does my Mom, until recently I never lived in the same place for more than a few years, travel is in my heart, and hope to continue with my live meetings and so-on, I miss being a Mommy to strange diaper friends. I want to meet some new friends, I have been disposing of some old “friends” who took advantage of me when I was unhealthy or didn’t support my recovery, I am doing great and don’t need people like that dragging me down. It’s a good time to burn leaves, branches, bridges, if they lead to rotten things. I used to compromise my integrity a lot, hungout with people who didn’t have my best interest. Glad I have moved on, my family treats me like a new person, people on the internet seem to like this healthy, active version of me, one of the greatest fears of putting yourself out there, being rejected, but I have a big note on my desk that says:

“It’s OK to be wrong. It’s OK to fail. You’re Unafraid to Make Mistakes”

I also have a note that says “Maybe Happy Things Make Me Sad Because I Know They Won’t Last” and “Diapers are My Yarmulke” (meaning they provide humility, deference to universe). Let’s just say the wisdom of my desknotes is hit-and-miss to say the least.

Ok, this post is going wayyy off the rails. Here’s a couple china pics, going on a little adventure today, my friend has doctors appointments everyday this week so i’ll be a busy girl advocating for someone I love, on top of doing some editing and starting to reach a conclusion on the Kat thing. Busy busy girl, but happy, smiley and full of life!!! More tomorrow!!!

Virginia is for Diaper Lovers #2: Pork Country

CW: Transphobia and Hamophobia

I often question if the main issue cisgender men have with transwomen is the average cisdude couldn’t possibly imagine losing their virility or genitals. They identify strongly with their dicks and ability to get erections, it’s a big confidence factor especially among ones peers. Same with non-diapered people v diapered people, peeing your pants or wearing diapers is like worse case scenario for many folks, they can’t stretch their empathy/worldview/disbelief and know their perspective may not be shared with everyone. I try to be openminded, even if I didn’t have a strong inherent desire to wear diapers i’d probably give it a shot, i’d do anything once, try anything twice, and like Mae West, “if I like it, 3 times to make sure”

I feel the same way about the South and their xenophobic nature in regards to religion. Once I left Gettysburg heading South it became clear that pork rules the day, every place was a BBQ place, every mascot was a silly smiling pig or clinical dissection chart, nothing in-between. Imagine sitting down to someone in this town and explaining “naw, even if ribs were touchin’ we’d never swallow the ham“. Always reminds me of Homer going “No Meat? What do they eat, lightbulbs?”

Though I have the utmost respect for my veggie/vegan friends, they call me RileyBBQ for a reason, this little girl loves some brisket and smoked meats 🙂

chubbys bbq on the maryland border

great rootbeer

brisket and a great dog

surprisingly clean southern bbq bathroom

Best Brisket at the BBQ Exchange

Porkin’ Across America

Travel exposes us to different cultures but this trip I plan on only exposing myself, as I need a break from the exposés. I want my skin to touch the sun, I want to eat like a fool and shirk my obligations. Since I started StayKinky in the months leading up to the pandemic I have been totally nose to the grindstone, even my trips are for family/obligation or content mostly, flying to LA to do a bit of media or filming up in Ptown or family back in Sac. Then I come back and jump back on the editing/publishing wheel.

And for real, I LOVE IT, I love making content, it’s what I want to do with my life. I love sharing my life and expressing myself, I love taking pictures of my ass, I love being a solo studio that blows a bunch of the hardcore studios away. I love the positive feedback and the hate is thin on the ground, especially since focusing away from Social Media. I feel purpose when I hear my posts inspire others, to share or to simply be. I’m singing the songs I want to sing. I don’t get astronomical numbers but I accepted a long time ago that I have a limited audience and instead of trying to go for some wide appeal, I just want to serve content to those who’ll have me, and rise above the rest. Living well is the best, and i’m so glad to have a small, attentive audience than a million likes but no love.

I need a break though. I got through a “life is great” to “fuuuck i’m depressed” cycle that’s often spurned by exhaustion, life gets overwhelming and I shut down. So I’m going to spend more time in hotel rooms doing what I want to do. When you work from home, are self-employed, you work for a cruel boss and you work all day everyday, i’ve been in such an editing deficit that I fill every waking moment where i’m *not* doing some other kind of work with editing. “time to take a break from cleaning the kitchen to edit”, “just ran errands, time to relax with some editing”, my playstation is considering leaving me, it says it wants to go somewhere it’s appreciated. My family are *aholics, mostly workaholics but various other kinds as well, we’re busy people, survivors.

So I packed up some diapers and dresses and my dear friend and got on the Country Roads to the South, to Shenandoah, to take off some weight and enjoy my beautiful diapered trans life.

Diaper Rainbow

It’s weeks like this that make it all worthwhile.

More stuff soon. Enjoy the piggy pics and smiles from the road. In the present: the next 3 days for me are family family family so might be a day or so until the next post, which is going to be very wet and wild 🙂 🙂 🙂 Thanks for listening. More stuff soon!

leaving the farm

leaving the nursery

always take a pic of the bears before travel

maryland

windows 96

the seventh seal

smiley diaper girl

spectacular views

Song of the Day: Nelly – Country Grammar or Cake – War Pigs (Sabbath is better but this is good too)

You Put The Wrong Emphasis on the Wrong Syllable

I often lie awake at night thinking about this clip form the terrible 2003 Mike Myers/Gwen Paltrow movie “A View from the Top”.

But that’s not what this post is about! I’m editing some awesome pics and more from my Shenandoah adventure and I need to dive deep into that, so here’s some cute pics to tide you over, raw and unedited :):) Biggest hugs friends, i’ve got a really busy week ahead on top of all the editing so expect few words and lots of pics!!! Thanks and more stuff soooooooon!!!

And here’s a little unlisted preview video that I posted on my Patreon a week ago! Be sure to check it out if you want to support my content and get cute little things in your inbox!