Diapered Lifestyle #0 – The Reset Button

Today i’m hitting the Reset Button and starting a big diapered adventure, my biggest yet!

It’s been 5,983 days since I started writing this blog, just over 16 Years, and it’s time for a fresh look at things. I just had an Orchiectomy (Gender Affirming Testicle Removal) in January and have been out of diapers for over 40 Days now. For a girl who wore diapers every night to bed, going 40 days has been a trial, I miss my diapers so much… but this also leads me to a unique opportunity to start fresh with diapers, I have a new body & lots of new feelings, I have a blank canvas and plan to make tons of video this year, so “Diaper Lifestyle” begins today.

Diaper Lifestyle is the inclusion of Diapers in your life, for any reason.

This bright-eyed little girl is going to be exploring the world of diapers from the ground up & telling her story of going from cute panties to even cuter diapers. The crinkly joy, the awkward moments, the wet beds & leaks, every aspect of being a diapered girl. I’m going to put my preferences in the bin and explore EVERY kind of diaper and finds out what works for me, things are going to fit and work differently now that i’m post-op. I’m so excited to be back into diapers, and I’m finally healed enough to wear them again.
And while I will be exploring this authentically, there will be a role-playing element to these stories, especially around the start. I really like the idea of going back into diapers at night because i’ve been wetting my bed too often, followed by daytime accidents & daytime diapering etc, so I’m going to play around with that theme. You may think I sound a little Naive in the following posts, i’m allowing myself to see diapers with fresh eyes through this narrative & want to have some fun with my journey, de-potty training 🙂

And being “little” is a big part of who I am & will be naturally integrated into my story, but it’s not a big focus and wearing diapers isn’t always associated with regression with me, it’s often a very adult need that has very adult issues around it as I wear diapers in my professional life… basically i’m saying that I’ll be talking about wearing diapers to the DMV as much as i’ll be talking about cribs & bottles. I will talk about the stuffies alot tho, the bears are a big part of my life too, they are good bears 🙂

This will also provide a structure for my reviews & informative content, which I will be starting again, I want to get another look at some of my favorite brands & go over some standards, “how to put on a diaper”, “top 10 diaper tips” etc, simple fun topics i’ve covered in the first pass of this blog. See my original first post here.

So let’s push the button!

I’ve been a little bogged down in reality lately and these posts will be entirely focused on my Diapered journey, alongside my usual StayDiapered/StayKinky/Blog Content. Over the last year I tried to expose the seedy underbelly of the ABDL community and while I raised awareness, I feel like it’s a bit of a lost cause in such an apathetic space. So it’s time to move on and focus on the joy of this *whole thing* and practice my “Best way to change the world is to be a positive & kind example for others” ideology. I love diapers, I love my art and my diapered friends and no amount of bad news will take that away from me, we’re safe here.

If you see “Diapered Lifestyle” on a post, know that it will be free of social drama, politics & any such icky stuff. I’ll still cover accountability topics, but i’ll keep that seperate & am taking a long, long break from it all. This is going to be a really fun adventure and I’m really excited to share it with all of you!

Part 1 Starts Tomorrow!

More Tomorrow! Picture Fresh Out Of My Camera & Unedited 🙂

Virginia is For Diaper Lovers 2 – Elevation

New Video!!! I’ve been editing my cute little butt off and finally am catching up on my projects, this is part 2 of Virginia is For Diaper Lovers, the finale including my most recent Shenandoah trip! I have more adventures to share, I can’t wait to talk about my Orchiectomy updates, my laser hair removal (getting laser on my diaper area!!! smoooooth girl!!!) So much to share, pushing out the noise on social media and focusing on the good stuff!

Thanks for letting me talk about Spacey yesterday, I went back and tried to list to some of their podcasts but it’s really tough for me, I was always a little wasted back then, you can really hear the pain in my voice. I was going through some pics of me as a kid and even me as an adult, and so many had this same pensive, anxious ::biting my inner lip:: look to them, and even well into my 20s that look appears. I didn’t see that look in any of my pics in Shenandoah, and I think that says at least a 1000s words about where this little girl is, she’s still a mess but the best mess she’s ever been! More content, less noise, more smiles, less worrying about faceless and soulless folks ❤

More sooooooon! Hugs friends, and please, don’t stress yourself out on Twitter defending me or arguing with these clowns, winter & holidays are ruff, i’m going to be focusing on smiles and snugs and leaving the grinches out of it 🙂

Less Humbugs, More Bumhugs!

Squish In The Park!

Hey there friends!

At the start of this month I set off to NYC to see some friends and see the city before the snow settled in. I took a camera full of squishy pics, wore a ton of exciting new diapers, bought a bunch of fascinating Japanese diaper pants and had a lovely time waddling around the city 🙂 🙂 I plan to spend a ton of time in NYC next year, also spend more time in Jersey, DC, just bounce around the North East a little!

I took some video but it was more of a personal fun/StayKinky filming thing than a bloggy trip. It was 75 all weekend so it was just a perfect situation, had a great time.

In this set I am sogging up these white and blue single tape diapers, I think from Rearz, I haven’t worn many of those but I love how these upskirts look 🙂 Not the only upskirt set from this trip, I like when littles look up Mommy Riley’s Dress ❤

I am going to be back to posting more daily here as well, so be sure to sign up for updates and check back! I loved this haircut so much, so ringletty! Also I love skirts with little lacy bits, and poof! Did I ever tell you I like poof???

Quick content warning about Twitter Trolls:

If you’re wondering why i’m not on Twitter, let me use this account, “BBearcub36” as an example. They have tweeted 54 times in the last few weeks, every single tweet is negative about me or trying to force my attention. I think they’re connected to someone I made a video about. It’s all fine, I just should not have come back to Twitter last time to be honest, it’s just trouble and only roughly 60% of it is my fault. My sites are getting reported/trolled more than usual, so pardon if comments get deleted or people get unfairly blocked, have to keep my dukes up!

Thanks friends, more soon! StayDiapered!!!

2 Songs of the Day!

Dukes Up – Modest Mouse

The 59th Street Bridge Song – Simon & Garfunkle

Virginia is For Diaper Lovers #1 – Plogger

Hi there friends!!! It’s little Riley back home in the North ready to tell the story of her long adventure into the crusts of the South! I didn’t get 100 miles from the Mason-Dixon but I did get some down-home cookin’ and more than a few spectacular views and serene moments in nature. I really treasured this time on the road and it’s set in motion more exciting travel in the future! So let’s get to it!!!

I plan on telling this story in a bunch of ways, some I haven’t really figured out yet, but I want to start telling it while it is still fresh in my metaphorical soul.

“The story is not in the plot but in the telling.” says Ursula K Le Guin, while Ibsen said “a picture is worth a thousand words”, so let’s allow the photos to start the telling while I figure out the rest. These are all the pics of myself taken with the DSLR, which I learned a so much about this trip!

I will start the story in the next post too, this is pre-flight check, make sure you’re properly comfy and ready to go on a wonderfully diapered, green, sky-high adventure!

Coming up are some video logs, or vlogs, today is just a little picture blog, a plog, with just a little wrogging to fill it out. Next post is going to include some of the best photos i’ve ever taken. Coming tomorrow! I have a busy next couple days hosting some travelers so lots of pics coming in while I write and think and catch up on my other projects, including a breast growth diary and a follow-up on the latest accountability project and my 3 Big Asks.

Thanks and i’ll end it with a pretty friend I encountered on a trail 🙂

StayDiapered friends ❤

Song of the Day: The Cure – Pictures of You

Costumes Everyday

Hope everyone is being safe tonight! I don’t really celebrate Halloween, I’m one of those “Everyday is Halloween” kinda people, I dress up in costumes all the time and don’t feel I need a specific day for it. It’s also one of those “Amateur Nights”, I was recently quoted in Glamour Magazine about this.

Back in Sacramento I loved Halloween, there was this big event called Trash Film Orgy I was cast for from like 2002-2009. First time I ever went out as a girl, though it wasn’t really as a girl, more like “haha funny look i’m wearing a dress for a lark, ignore the perfect makeup done by my dearest friend and perfect shoes and hair and my sudden confidence, it’s just a bit of fun” Here’s a video from Trash Film Orgy back then if you want to see little tiny baby Riley, though this wasn’t on Halloween.

Nowadays I stay in on Halloween. I still wear costumes of all sorts, but tonight I’d like to remind myself there’s just one costume i’ll never wear again. Not to hide myself or to appease anyone, i’m always going to be me 😛 These pics were from a wedding maybe 10 years ago? Probably the last time I ever went by male pronouns, quite some time after I started socially transitioning. Feels good to know the monkey suit will never return to my back. Though I could see wearing a suit now to rock some kinda sexy Cabaret look.

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These photos were taken a couple weeks after…

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Funny how things can change 😛 I guess that’s why I don’t like Halloween, I spent so much of my life pretending to be someone else maybe I just don’t see the appeal now.

Hope everyone has a lovely, safe night. Hug your stuffers for me ❤

Riley K.

Also, bonus 18 Year old Riley, aeeeye such a wee bairn!

Diaper Lifestyle pt. 3: [Re]Definition

If you’re just scrolling, read this one! It’s a good one!

It’s a crisp Autumn evening, let’s chat about something that is full of joy 🙂 Today i’ll be defining what I see as a “Diaper Lifestyle” and what it means to me.

Simply: Diaper Lifestyle is allowing the option of diaper use into your life.

It’s not any more complicated than that, if you’re 24/7, an occasional wetter or just keep a pull-up in your purse for emergencies, you’re participating in a Diapered Lifestyle. I’m careful to not apply that label to others, it’s just how I see diaper use demographically. Products, health, public perception, all that effects a Diaper Lifestyle regardless of the motivation behind wearing. I like that take on DL, I’ve always distanced myself from “Diaper Lover”, while I clearly love diapers it’s not the kind of love one would have for say, a Meat Lovers Pizza.

“Is that the kind of love between a man and a woman or between a man and a fine cuban cigar?” ::chuckles::

I keep coming back to “Juicer Life”, I had lots of friends into raw food and juice and it was just part of life, they discussed different juicers and always kept Nalgene bottles with them. Some days they wouldn’t juice at all, but sometimes folks would juice enough for a week and share with others. It was something we did for social fun and our own well being. Juice, like diapers, can have health benefits but this comparison goes much further.

In life, it’s important to think of something to do and see that task to completion. The day to day of life, the main part of it really, is setting standards for yourself based on your needs and wants. Following through on your personal goals is the true measure of success in life, and being a diaper girl may sound like a silly goal to some but it’s what matters to me.

I want to enable diapers as routine in my life because I know that will make me happy, and while the diapers and everything involved in it is wonderful, the doing of the thing is the sweet nectar of life. I say that with no hyperbole, nothing in the world feels better than knowing you’ve done a good job. That’s why littles melt so easily, a real “well done!” is the rarest warm fuzzy of all especially among prickly adults. When we hear that and it’s authentic, smiles and long weepy hugs usually come next.

I feel that’s where Gender Euphoria comes from. I have never been happier than the first time I walked alone down a street in a dress, I still remember every detail of that moment. A huge part of that joy was throwing off the weighted blanket of indecision and allowing life to happen. In that moment I was just living and not second guessing myself or waiting for things to happen. In that same vein, i’ve found a great deal of joy in posting these last few days, instead of planning or making promises I’m engaging in my passions, I’m doing the thing.

I’m so happy to have something that I like as much as diapers. One of my life goals was to just be authentically me, a diaper girl! Knowing that I’ll always have a diaper in my purse or on my bottom brings me great comfort, I hope sharing my story does the same to others. The best moments of life are the little moments of being completely present, when you know exactly who you are and what you want because you’re being who you are and doing what you want.

So that’s what I define as Diaper Lifestyle, it’s more of an action that an identity. I live a diaper lifestyle, I am active in a diaper lifestyle. And things have to stay fluid, I like wearing sexy lingerie or cute cotton undies sometimes and just having diapers on the periphery. I also won’t be focusing on “un-potty training” or setting too strict of rules, it’s easy to get disillusioned or burnout. It’s about the journey not the destination, and while wearing diapers can lead to loss of control, I’m not seeking it out nor actively preventing it. What happens happens though I do find great comfort in bedwetting. If I’ve learned one thing about myself it’s that stability is good but rigidity is bad. Also, taking things too seriously should be avoided, I can definitely be accused of that.

The labels and rules have their place, but what’s most important is the shared goal…

The goal of a Diapered Lifestyle is to improve Quality of Life by including diapers.

We’ll spend the next few posts discussing ways diapers improve Quality of Life and how to get over some of the challenges diaper wearing brings. You’re witnessing the inception of a practical manual and argument for diaper wearing. It’ll be Riley Paine’s “Crinkle Sense”, a manifesto intended to endear the colonies towards a more pampered future!

In all seriousness, I’m just a silly girl who likes to talk about diapers as much as she can ❤

I hope you’ve enjoyed reading alongside my journey to better understand our crinkly selves 😛 More stuff sooooon, I’m in a somewhat soggy Megamax so I should change and get started on my day ❤ Big big hugs from the bunny and I!

and of course, say it with me…

White

Alright, I needed to get that last post off my little chest, I originally had it prefacing this post, but I’d rather keep this one all light, and all fluffy 🙂 So, I have some pics to share from a recent Festival day!

Sometimes when I want to feel extra comfy and padded I wear one of my many diaper covers over my disposables. It really doesn’t serve a purpose other than looking super-cute and lessening the crinkly sounds and you know I don’t mind the crinkling. I also wore a stuffer, but I did something I have a bad habit of… I put in one of those Tranquility Stuffers, and right as I’m about to walk out the door I stop, reach into my diaper and take it out, afraid that a day of walking with a stuffer will be too uncomfortable.

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For this day it was Paris-bought Tena Slip Maxis, diaper cover and tights covered by a cute thrift store find, what seems to be a hand-stitched lacy dress, I live around alot of Amish and crafty people so thrift stores in this area are lit 🔥🔥🔥. I’m into cotton and breezy fashions, especially vintage and even victorian style ABDL stuff. You know how they used to make all kids wear dresses in the 1800s, there was no boy/girl clothes, there were just baby clothes? There’s some neat looks that came from that, very “sissy” but not over the top. I do like poofy dresses and stuff, but for walking around in public I prefer the more simple, elegant breakdown of the design. Baby clothes are pragmatic clothes, and what’s more simple than a bleached white sleeveless dress? Good for diaper changes and checks. The clothes should be easy, it’s the diapers and the girl that are the complicated parts.

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Speaking of silly things little girls do with their clothes, on the way to the Festival I realized I had my tights on backward. These are vintage tights, they have the lines running up the back and my silly self forgot about them and only realized in the car. So, of course, I have to slip off my shoes, pull up my dress and down my tights, avoid stop signs and tall trucks so no one can spy on my re-arranging. I’m trying not to distract the driver and am feeling kinda silly, but of course I’m taking silly pictures too 😛 Car pictures always come out so cute… must be all the natural light and the air of exhibitionism.

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I had a long day, fun day, and came home fairly damp. When I got home and wet it the last time it did leak a little bit, so maybe the stuffer would have been good. I think my next post will be about stuffers…

So a long diaper day with a leaky little end 😛 I hope you like the pictures and this is basically the last set taken with my old phone, I have a new mobile which means new camera and better pics/videos! Here’s one I took the other day when I was romping around in my Goodnites 🙂

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Life is exciting and refreshing and positive things lie ahead. Give your stuffies a snuggle and look for more stuff soon 🙂

The Catch-Up Pt. 1

Hey there friends! I’m back in the blogosphere! I’ve been posting on Twitter @RileyBBQ but decided its time to get back to what I love the most, writing my little personal story on my little personal page. This site pointed to Tumblr for a while, but we all know how that turned out so now I’m here on WordPress. They’re more of a hosting service than a social network and they seem to let you spray your creative juices in any way you please. That’s good for me, as my content has been deplatformed from just about everywhere over the years, probably because it’s so GRAPHIC and SEXUAL. Just look at these pics. How dare I.

 

 

 

I am under no illusions about my content breaking TOS some places, though I have been unfairly targeted in the past, especially on Youtube. The more public you get, the more of a target you are, and for a while there I was a huge target. Luckily, my 15 minutes are up for now, it’s nice to find a home where I can post about my life, crinkles and kink and all. Not to say I won’t be back in the spotlight again, but it was important to take a break. More on that later.

 

To clarify, I will be getting back on Youtube, doing the PG versions of various upcoming videos and then posting the more explicit content elsewhere. I have a few review ideas, starting simple and getting back to doing my favorite thing… chattin’ about diapers 😛

 

As for photos and catching up, I’m starting somewhere around 2016 (with a few jumps back and forth in time) posting some of my favorite random pics over the years. Some of them I’ve posted on twitter, some I’ve been too shy or self-deprecating to post. I hope you like them, and there are many, many more to come. I sure like taking crinkly selfies 😛

 

 

For some context, I think these were taken in a Vegas hotel, you’ll find that hotel rooms are a reoccurring theme in my photos for reasons I can’t begin to imagine. I was trying out these fancy diapers, I’m sure someone in the comments can refresh me as to their name, If I recall they had a .NL website on them.

 

The 3 pics wayyyy up top are me dressed up cute in my Hello Kitty onesie (à la Target clearance rack) and my shortalls, headed out for a day of fun and adventure. The last bunch of pics are me very soggy after a long day of walking and wetting around probably Vegas, maybe NoHo, it’s all a blur. If I recall, these unnamed nappies were real troopers. I look pretty darn soggy. Some of these new designer diapers put in some serious work.

 

I’m so out of touch about the 100s of new ABDL diaper companies, I look forward to exploring them. I’ve always been a neutral party when it comes to diaper reviews so don’t expect any direct sponsorships, my dream would be to have a video for every major kind from every major company, so crinkly consumers could make an informed decision. But I’m getting ahead of myself, lets keep it to just pics and paragraphs for now.

 

There’s a bit of an elephant in the room about “why” I stopped posting outside Twitter. I’m not sure how to put things into words yet, and I don’t want to make it seem like a big deal… but there are some things we’ll talk about in time, things that may be difficult to talk about. Again, taking it slow, I just want you to know I think about this community, this blog, all of you, all day, everyday, this whole “thing” is incredibly important to me. Not even talking about ABDL, but specifically the outlet for expression this has given me. I have received so many kind letters, donations, and positive thoughts from you all that I remain eternally grateful.

 

To put it into a bumper sticker, Life Happens. I’m feeling healthy and happy, I have a level of stability in my life I’ve never experienced and the creative wells are flowing again. I’ve always said that this community will never get rid of me, we’re stuck together you and I, so lets have some fun with it. Very excited to share more!

More stuff soon! And the little bear says Hello!

The site is a bit of a mess at the moment, BEAR with me as I work on it.

If you have any accessibility issues on this site, let me know in the comments!

Sad Soggy Sucker

I’m not really at my best right now. I have been getting some dentistry, and have been a little groggy and miserable from a terrible tooth ache. No worries, next Weds I have an appointment that should take care of most of the misery. I will refrain from going into detail, but I’m a miserable little princess and my bear has been getting non-stop hugs.

I’ve been looking at old pics~ I never really edited this whole set, just me in baby diapers playing cute.

I also have been playing with audio! Have you heard of ASMR? It’s really neat. I made a tiny little clip and have been looking to make more, I purchased a lovely new mic so I can finally make high quality sounds. I think this is a great thing to mix with littlespace! I’d like to take submissions, but I’ll wait until this dentist stuff gets figured out.

Hugs! Babygirl needs love, send happy thoughts ❤

Riley K.

Poppin’

First off, bloggy type post about real life today, plans and the future and stuff! Second off, I thought you were working on your sugar problem Breakfast Cereal, but it seems like you’re back to the sack and hitting it pretty hard. We’re here to help, we love you cereal, but this is too much for us to take.

 

Seriously, those are cartoon babies eating this, I couldn’t imagine feeding this to an baby, or especially a little. I’ve seen how excitable some littles get when they get all sugared up, and it’s hard to contain someone who’s in a footy sleeper, littles can be quite squirmy and wormy. I suppose a harness would help or maybe something that they can’t run in, only waddle.

I’m out and about, living life in WNY now that the snow has melted. It actually snowed 2 days ago which is ridiculous for late April, especially after 3 years in the constant warmth of LA. I realized that I’ve been here in WNY for 5 months now, and to be completely honest, haven’t done much in terms of advancing my future. I needed a break, to get some dentistry done, to restart my transition and get with a real hormone doctor. I’ve been mostly successful with all that, feel positive about my direction but the time has flown by and I need to make better use of it.

I’ve also set myself up to start therapy, though I haven’t started it yet. I have also been considering school. These are things that I tried in the past, but never found an environment that clicked. I would likely start at a Junior College and have never been terribly good at studying/tests, though I’m probably better at it now that when I was in school last (which was nearly a decade ago). I still like the idea of getting some sort of social or psychological certification, and it’d be fun to meet new people and take some classes in Film, Drama, Design, whatever piques my interest. I can still cam, blog, and goto school at the same time, and potentially get SRS all at the same time.

That’s the plan of moving to NY honestly. I did LA and the porn/waitress/extra thing for a while, realized how unsatisfying and fleeting it all was (also smoggy, and the people are all phonies, no one reads, everything has cilantro on it…), wanted to get back to my creative roots and writing and slow down a bit. I wasn’t hardly transitioning for a long time there, I quit for porn for a while, I quit because I couldn’t get a doctor, I quit because I was disillusioned or drinking or depressed. I don’t know what I was thinking, and this move to NY was/is yet another turning point in my life. I’m convinced it’s for the best.

So that’s that, just some thoughts and plans, who knows what the future will hold? I was going to post some crinkle pics at the end of this, but it got all serious so I’ll just leave you with the song I’m listening to as I type this, I don’t know if there’s a higher meaning to “Debaser” being the song of the day. I’ll let you decide. Thanks for listening, I’ll flesh out some of these ideas in my next posts, which I’m going to write right now ❤

Hugs!

Riley K.

Song of the Day: The Pixies – “Debaser”