Diapered Lifestyle #0 – The Reset Button

Today i’m hitting the Reset Button and starting a big diapered adventure, my biggest yet!

It’s been 5,983 days since I started writing this blog, just over 16 Years, and it’s time for a fresh look at things. I just had an Orchiectomy (Gender Affirming Testicle Removal) in January and have been out of diapers for over 40 Days now. For a girl who wore diapers every night to bed, going 40 days has been a trial, I miss my diapers so much… but this also leads me to a unique opportunity to start fresh with diapers, I have a new body & lots of new feelings, I have a blank canvas and plan to make tons of video this year, so “Diaper Lifestyle” begins today.

Diaper Lifestyle is the inclusion of Diapers in your life, for any reason.

This bright-eyed little girl is going to be exploring the world of diapers from the ground up & telling her story of going from cute panties to even cuter diapers. The crinkly joy, the awkward moments, the wet beds & leaks, every aspect of being a diapered girl. I’m going to put my preferences in the bin and explore EVERY kind of diaper and finds out what works for me, things are going to fit and work differently now that i’m post-op. I’m so excited to be back into diapers, and I’m finally healed enough to wear them again.
And while I will be exploring this authentically, there will be a role-playing element to these stories, especially around the start. I really like the idea of going back into diapers at night because i’ve been wetting my bed too often, followed by daytime accidents & daytime diapering etc, so I’m going to play around with that theme. You may think I sound a little Naive in the following posts, i’m allowing myself to see diapers with fresh eyes through this narrative & want to have some fun with my journey, de-potty training 🙂

And being “little” is a big part of who I am & will be naturally integrated into my story, but it’s not a big focus and wearing diapers isn’t always associated with regression with me, it’s often a very adult need that has very adult issues around it as I wear diapers in my professional life… basically i’m saying that I’ll be talking about wearing diapers to the DMV as much as i’ll be talking about cribs & bottles. I will talk about the stuffies alot tho, the bears are a big part of my life too, they are good bears 🙂

This will also provide a structure for my reviews & informative content, which I will be starting again, I want to get another look at some of my favorite brands & go over some standards, “how to put on a diaper”, “top 10 diaper tips” etc, simple fun topics i’ve covered in the first pass of this blog. See my original first post here.

So let’s push the button!

I’ve been a little bogged down in reality lately and these posts will be entirely focused on my Diapered journey, alongside my usual StayDiapered/StayKinky/Blog Content. Over the last year I tried to expose the seedy underbelly of the ABDL community and while I raised awareness, I feel like it’s a bit of a lost cause in such an apathetic space. So it’s time to move on and focus on the joy of this *whole thing* and practice my “Best way to change the world is to be a positive & kind example for others” ideology. I love diapers, I love my art and my diapered friends and no amount of bad news will take that away from me, we’re safe here.

If you see “Diapered Lifestyle” on a post, know that it will be free of social drama, politics & any such icky stuff. I’ll still cover accountability topics, but i’ll keep that seperate & am taking a long, long break from it all. This is going to be a really fun adventure and I’m really excited to share it with all of you!

Part 1 Starts Tomorrow!

More Tomorrow! Picture Fresh Out Of My Camera & Unedited 🙂

Squish In The Park!

Hey there friends!

At the start of this month I set off to NYC to see some friends and see the city before the snow settled in. I took a camera full of squishy pics, wore a ton of exciting new diapers, bought a bunch of fascinating Japanese diaper pants and had a lovely time waddling around the city 🙂 🙂 I plan to spend a ton of time in NYC next year, also spend more time in Jersey, DC, just bounce around the North East a little!

I took some video but it was more of a personal fun/StayKinky filming thing than a bloggy trip. It was 75 all weekend so it was just a perfect situation, had a great time.

In this set I am sogging up these white and blue single tape diapers, I think from Rearz, I haven’t worn many of those but I love how these upskirts look 🙂 Not the only upskirt set from this trip, I like when littles look up Mommy Riley’s Dress ❤

I am going to be back to posting more daily here as well, so be sure to sign up for updates and check back! I loved this haircut so much, so ringletty! Also I love skirts with little lacy bits, and poof! Did I ever tell you I like poof???

Quick content warning about Twitter Trolls:

If you’re wondering why i’m not on Twitter, let me use this account, “BBearcub36” as an example. They have tweeted 54 times in the last few weeks, every single tweet is negative about me or trying to force my attention. I think they’re connected to someone I made a video about. It’s all fine, I just should not have come back to Twitter last time to be honest, it’s just trouble and only roughly 60% of it is my fault. My sites are getting reported/trolled more than usual, so pardon if comments get deleted or people get unfairly blocked, have to keep my dukes up!

Thanks friends, more soon! StayDiapered!!!

2 Songs of the Day!

Dukes Up – Modest Mouse

The 59th Street Bridge Song – Simon & Garfunkle

Virginia is for Diaper Lovers #2: Pork Country

CW: Transphobia and Hamophobia

I often question if the main issue cisgender men have with transwomen is the average cisdude couldn’t possibly imagine losing their virility or genitals. They identify strongly with their dicks and ability to get erections, it’s a big confidence factor especially among ones peers. Same with non-diapered people v diapered people, peeing your pants or wearing diapers is like worse case scenario for many folks, they can’t stretch their empathy/worldview/disbelief and know their perspective may not be shared with everyone. I try to be openminded, even if I didn’t have a strong inherent desire to wear diapers i’d probably give it a shot, i’d do anything once, try anything twice, and like Mae West, “if I like it, 3 times to make sure”

I feel the same way about the South and their xenophobic nature in regards to religion. Once I left Gettysburg heading South it became clear that pork rules the day, every place was a BBQ place, every mascot was a silly smiling pig or clinical dissection chart, nothing in-between. Imagine sitting down to someone in this town and explaining “naw, even if ribs were touchin’ we’d never swallow the ham“. Always reminds me of Homer going “No Meat? What do they eat, lightbulbs?”

Though I have the utmost respect for my veggie/vegan friends, they call me RileyBBQ for a reason, this little girl loves some brisket and smoked meats 🙂

chubbys bbq on the maryland border

great rootbeer

brisket and a great dog

surprisingly clean southern bbq bathroom

Best Brisket at the BBQ Exchange

Porkin’ Across America

Travel exposes us to different cultures but this trip I plan on only exposing myself, as I need a break from the exposés. I want my skin to touch the sun, I want to eat like a fool and shirk my obligations. Since I started StayKinky in the months leading up to the pandemic I have been totally nose to the grindstone, even my trips are for family/obligation or content mostly, flying to LA to do a bit of media or filming up in Ptown or family back in Sac. Then I come back and jump back on the editing/publishing wheel.

And for real, I LOVE IT, I love making content, it’s what I want to do with my life. I love sharing my life and expressing myself, I love taking pictures of my ass, I love being a solo studio that blows a bunch of the hardcore studios away. I love the positive feedback and the hate is thin on the ground, especially since focusing away from Social Media. I feel purpose when I hear my posts inspire others, to share or to simply be. I’m singing the songs I want to sing. I don’t get astronomical numbers but I accepted a long time ago that I have a limited audience and instead of trying to go for some wide appeal, I just want to serve content to those who’ll have me, and rise above the rest. Living well is the best, and i’m so glad to have a small, attentive audience than a million likes but no love.

I need a break though. I got through a “life is great” to “fuuuck i’m depressed” cycle that’s often spurned by exhaustion, life gets overwhelming and I shut down. So I’m going to spend more time in hotel rooms doing what I want to do. When you work from home, are self-employed, you work for a cruel boss and you work all day everyday, i’ve been in such an editing deficit that I fill every waking moment where i’m *not* doing some other kind of work with editing. “time to take a break from cleaning the kitchen to edit”, “just ran errands, time to relax with some editing”, my playstation is considering leaving me, it says it wants to go somewhere it’s appreciated. My family are *aholics, mostly workaholics but various other kinds as well, we’re busy people, survivors.

So I packed up some diapers and dresses and my dear friend and got on the Country Roads to the South, to Shenandoah, to take off some weight and enjoy my beautiful diapered trans life.

Diaper Rainbow

It’s weeks like this that make it all worthwhile.

More stuff soon. Enjoy the piggy pics and smiles from the road. In the present: the next 3 days for me are family family family so might be a day or so until the next post, which is going to be very wet and wild 🙂 🙂 🙂 Thanks for listening. More stuff soon!

leaving the farm

leaving the nursery

always take a pic of the bears before travel

maryland

windows 96

the seventh seal

smiley diaper girl

spectacular views

Song of the Day: Nelly – Country Grammar or Cake – War Pigs (Sabbath is better but this is good too)

Nermal

It’s still pretty early in the morning here, I’m covered in blankies and have my headphones on, looking up pictures of kittens on the internet. One little kitten in particular.

 

I always felt bad for Nermal. They’re just a happy, positive kitten and Garfield was always such a jerk to them. If you really want to stretch you could say that Garfield is that angry, resentful part of us that groans when we see attractive teenagers kissing, bitterness personified in a grumpy kitty. And Nermal is the opposite, they are happy when people succeed and never find ways to put themselves above others. I think we have both these Garfield/Nermal or Rick/Morty aspects to ourselves and what we choose to share with the world is how people will judge us, as a angry cuss or a shiny friend. I haven’t been writing much, because I’ve been much more horns than halos lately, I’ve let the sad things get to me and went a little too far down the Garfield hole. Today is the first day i’ve felt back to Nermal, not too happy of course, but I see the silver lining before I see the clouds and that feels good.

 

[Warning, incredibly personal, substance related paragraph ahead] I can’t attribute this to getting the anti-depressants, as I haven’t started taking them yet. I’m still a little afraid to, but will probably start in the next day or so if I start feeling specifically negative. I know it’s something I can’t go on and off of, so when I do start taking them, I will stick with it. The key factor in all this is quitting my boozy depressed ways, feeling sick all the time from constant consumption. I feel better when I’m sober, and don’t want to go back to drinking 24/7. I share this with a twinge of embarrassment, I wish I could tell you I was strong enough to have avoided that or simply blame a long history of alcoholics in my family, but I’m just going to take responsibility and be a good girl. Thanks for listening… moving on now. [glad that’s over]

 

I’m going to spend the day filling out applications for a second seasonal job, answering some emails, I may stream some games later but I’ll probably take it easy, try to avoid any tough interactions and be gentle with my little kitten self.

 

 

I have been shy, only occasionally posting pics on my Twitter. These are from a few weeks ago, in my Prevail Breezers, these cloth covered nappies for warm weather, I was surprised how much I like them. I have more diaper stuff to talk about, including some recent experience with real cloth diapers and a story I read at CapCon that I think you’ll like. Thanks for reading, check back soon, I’ll have new stuff for you soon! Big bear hugs and have a lovely weekend 🙂 

Song of the Day: “Take The Box” – Amy Winehouse

Poppin’ 2: Electric Boogaloo

Hello again! It’s Riley and the topic of the moment is moving to NY, which I did about 5 months ago. It was a perilous cross-country train journey during one of the biggest snowstorms in Western New York history, it was exciting and exhausting and I have it all on video. I won’t be talking about cold buns and delocation today, I’d like to talk about supply, demand and diapers. Of course, more about diapers than anything else.

Simply, there’s a fair share of diapers left here at my Nursery, so i’ve been going through a bunch of brands I otherwise wouldn’t wear. While filming My Strange Addiction, we went to the thrift store and a pharmacy and did bits of me buying diapers, and I got to keep all the diapers. At the thrift store they had a bunch of bags of Depends, and Tena pads, and Goodnites, and they were like 4-5 each, and they said I could get as many as I want. I was super shy at first about them buying me diapers, but they insisted and I ended up with about 50$ worth of various nappies, not counting others we had bought throughout the week+ of filming. This is 50$ worth of diapers at thrift store prices, which ended up being two huge black garbage bags of various packs.

They were kept safe for me here in NY and i’ve pledged to not order or ask for any new ones until I make a dent in these. Long story short, i’ve been a pull-up girl lately…

I have gone through 2 packs of ATN’s, a pack of Abena S2’s and M4’s, 2 packs of Goodnites, dozens of random baby diapers and pull-ups (like the ones pictured, which I can only guess are CVS brand). I’ve also gone through Bambinos, AwwsoCutes, Northshores… I really need to make some more reviews. I do like the Goodnites Tru-Fit, I’ve been putting Tena Pads in them as well as Pampers and Target brand baby diapers. I’ve been a very good girl this last month or so when it comes to wearing.

Tubs and tubs like these, all mixed diapers I plan to use in videos, diapers for special occasions, ones that are too rare or I’m too nostalgic to wear or throw away. I’m not a nappy hoarder by any means, but I do have a little museum of crinkles that are rare/unique and will probably never wear. I’ll be slowly making my way through my collection, making videos, testing and occasionally leaking, with the goal being to eventually stick with two or three brands that I continually wear for day/night/playtime. I really dislike not being protected because your only nappies are too valuable, or worrying about getting the full use out of a diaper. These 3 or 4$ a piece diapers don’t cut it for a girl who wears and likes to change as often as I do.

Anyyyyway, I’m going Golfing today, something I haven’t ever done. I’ll keep you posted as to my likes and dislikes as I progress through my massive crinkle stash~ I’m sure some of you have many more, storage units full of Attends, closets and closets full of dresses and plastic pants, I’d love to see some collections! Feel free to link your photos in the comments.

Thanks for reading, my next post is for your ears and I’m pretty excited about it. And not to worry, even though I have been wearing pull-ups I always end back up in thick pampers like the Northshore Cares above. Feeling good, plenty of diapers and soft moments in my future. Happy thoughts ❤

Riley K,

Today’s Song – Madlib – “Movie Finale”

Red Dress and ATN’s

Hello! This is Riley and today I have some pics and thoughts for you!

I have been thinking about the FAQ page and a potential “Support” page. I sometimes get visitors who are very new to AB/DL stuff and I’d like to direct them to some basic ideas, like understanding.infantilism.org or Scarleteen.net. I’m also making a link list, so if there’s a site, service, blog anything that you’d recommend, I’ll gladly add it. Just comment below or use the Contact page!

These are a bit older photos that I found, I was on a trip and bought a new dress, I couldn’t wait for a nappy change to try it on. I’ve only worn it once since, but I’ll be sure to find myself out in my little red dress here soon now that all the snow has melted. Hope you like the pictures, and I’m in Medium Tranquility ATN’s 🙂

Always thinking ahead, the little girl bought a summer dress in winter ~

Riley K.