Virginia is for DiaperLovers #3 – Start at the End

Holy heck friends, it’s all over finally! This has been a wild summer but the last 3 weeks have been wilder! Tiny content warning for family/age/random trans stuff.

It all started with my Doctors appointment and good news and has continued with the goodness. On Sept 11th I went to Virginia, on the 14th I went to Shenandoah Nt’l Park, on the 17th I came back, went to the Renn Faire, hired a plumber for an emergency (never fun coming back to one), did as much editing as I could until the 20th when my Mom came to visit. Spent the last few days hanging out with my Mom, seeing the sites etc, I feel i haven’t had a home cooked meal in a month, I have walked over 10k steps everyday for the last 3 weeks. I have been eating like a horse loose in the green bin and i’m bent over as my congenital back issues are worse then they’ve ever been… but what’s on my face? A big ol’ smile.

Some of these pictures are the best pictures i’ve ever taken, some are sloppy and fun, some are a stark reminder of my age. I have been preparing myself for the effects of aging my whole life, and I just have to puff out my chest and realize i’m beautiful and people love my cuteness and crinkles, regardless of the wrinkles. Back before “Demotivators” were a meme, a guy I knew started it with this and I think of it often.

I try to live my life on this platform as an example, show folks you can age naturally, not edit out blemishes etc and still be happy and proud in your body. I do a little color editing but I see so much of the internet is vaseline and that same smooth barbie/kardashian face that I think is just homogeneity and marketing and generally bad for society, womens esteem etc. Never pay someone who says they will make you beautiful, send you to heaven or set you free. Don’t Pay The Ferryman.

What the heckers does this have to do with Virginia or Diapers? Nothing Really, it’s just the end of a long, long holiday and i’m aimlessly reflecting like a disco ball. I’ve lived a full life, and my face and body reflect it, I’m a well traveled girl πŸ™‚ I spent the last few days with my Mom, who looks great for her age, despite not being a person who cares about cosmetics whatsoever. She also has MS and any number of other health issues but still keeps at it, is incredibly tenacious. We’ve made peace with the stuff that happened during my childhood, and while some of it was unforgivable, time and terminal illness heals all wounds. Glad we’re part of each others lives, though a couple days every 6 months is enough for the both of us.

Pics are from a play area in Virginia, some friendly horseys and some lovely quiet lake views! I’m being such a tease because I have a million cute diaper pics and i’m playing coy with them. Lots of diapers coming tomorrow, I promise!!! Here’s one from the top of the mountain as a little preview πŸ™‚

She also dropped at ton of pics from when I was a kid, going to post a few to my Patreon but here’s a couple when I was 18 when I went to Beijing πŸ™‚ I have a vagabond spirit, so does my Mom, until recently I never lived in the same place for more than a few years, travel is in my heart, and hope to continue with my live meetings and so-on, I miss being a Mommy to strange diaper friends. I want to meet some new friends, I have been disposing of some old “friends” who took advantage of me when I was unhealthy or didn’t support my recovery, I am doing great and don’t need people like that dragging me down. It’s a good time to burn leaves, branches, bridges, if they lead to rotten things. I used to compromise my integrity a lot, hungout with people who didn’t have my best interest. Glad I have moved on, my family treats me like a new person, people on the internet seem to like this healthy, active version of me, one of the greatest fears of putting yourself out there, being rejected, but I have a big note on my desk that says:

“It’s OK to be wrong. It’s OK to fail. You’re Unafraid to Make Mistakes”

I also have a note that says “Maybe Happy Things Make Me Sad Because I Know They Won’t Last” and “Diapers are My Yarmulke” (meaning they provide humility, deference to universe). Let’s just say the wisdom of my desknotes is hit-and-miss to say the least.

Ok, this post is going wayyy off the rails. Here’s a couple china pics, going on a little adventure today, my friend has doctors appointments everyday this week so i’ll be a busy girl advocating for someone I love, on top of doing some editing and starting to reach a conclusion on the Kat thing. Busy busy girl, but happy, smiley and full of life!!! More tomorrow!!!

Virginia is for Diaper Lovers #2: Pork Country

CW: Transphobia and Hamophobia

I often question if the main issue cisgender men have with transwomen is the average cisdude couldn’t possibly imagine losing their virility or genitals. They identify strongly with their dicks and ability to get erections, it’s a big confidence factor especially among ones peers. Same with non-diapered people v diapered people, peeing your pants or wearing diapers is like worse case scenario for many folks, they can’t stretch their empathy/worldview/disbelief and know their perspective may not be shared with everyone. I try to be openminded, even if I didn’t have a strong inherent desire to wear diapers i’d probably give it a shot, i’d do anything once, try anything twice, and like Mae West, “if I like it, 3 times to make sure”

I feel the same way about the South and their xenophobic nature in regards to religion. Once I left Gettysburg heading South it became clear that pork rules the day, every place was a BBQ place, every mascot was a silly smiling pig or clinical dissection chart, nothing in-between. Imagine sitting down to someone in this town and explaining “naw, even if ribs were touchin’ we’d never swallow the ham“. Always reminds me of Homer going “No Meat? What do they eat, lightbulbs?”

Though I have the utmost respect for my veggie/vegan friends, they call me RileyBBQ for a reason, this little girl loves some brisket and smoked meats πŸ™‚

Travel exposes us to different cultures but this trip I plan on only exposing myself, as I need a break from the exposΓ©s. I want my skin to touch the sun, I want to eat like a fool and shirk my obligations. Since I started StayKinky in the months leading up to the pandemic I have been totally nose to the grindstone, even my trips are for family/obligation or content mostly, flying to LA to do a bit of media or filming up in Ptown or family back in Sac. Then I come back and jump back on the editing/publishing wheel.

And for real, I LOVE IT, I love making content, it’s what I want to do with my life. I love sharing my life and expressing myself, I love taking pictures of my ass, I love being a solo studio that blows a bunch of the hardcore studios away. I love the positive feedback and the hate is thin on the ground, especially since focusing away from Social Media. I feel purpose when I hear my posts inspire others, to share or to simply be. I’m singing the songs I want to sing. I don’t get astronomical numbers but I accepted a long time ago that I have a limited audience and instead of trying to go for some wide appeal, I just want to serve content to those who’ll have me, and rise above the rest. Living well is the best, and i’m so glad to have a small, attentive audience than a million likes but no love.

I need a break though. I got through a “life is great” to “fuuuck i’m depressed” cycle that’s often spurned by exhaustion, life gets overwhelming and I shut down. So I’m going to spend more time in hotel rooms doing what I want to do. When you work from home, are self-employed, you work for a cruel boss and you work all day everyday, i’ve been in such an editing deficit that I fill every waking moment where i’m *not* doing some other kind of work with editing. “time to take a break from cleaning the kitchen to edit”, “just ran errands, time to relax with some editing”, my playstation is considering leaving me, it says it wants to go somewhere it’s appreciated. My family are *aholics, mostly workaholics but various other kinds as well, we’re busy people, survivors.

So I packed up some diapers and dresses and my dear friend and got on the Country Roads to the South, to Shenandoah, to take off some weight and enjoy my beautiful diapered trans life.

Diaper Rainbow

It’s weeks like this that make it all worthwhile.

More stuff soon. Enjoy the piggy pics and smiles from the road. In the present: the next 3 days for me are family family family so might be a day or so until the next post, which is going to be very wet and wild πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚ Thanks for listening. More stuff soon!

Song of the Day: Nelly – Country Grammar or Cake – War Pigs (Sabbath is better but this is good too)

Virginia is For Diaper Lovers #1 – Plogger

Hi there friends!!! It’s little Riley back home in the North ready to tell the story of her long adventure into the crusts of the South! I didn’t get 100 miles from the Mason-Dixon but I did get some down-home cookin’ and more than a few spectacular views and serene moments in nature. I really treasured this time on the road and it’s set in motion more exciting travel in the future! So let’s get to it!!!

I plan on telling this story in a bunch of ways, some I haven’t really figured out yet, but I want to start telling it while it is still fresh in my metaphorical soul.

β€œThe story is not in the plot but in the telling.” says Ursula K Le Guin, while Ibsen said “a picture is worth a thousand words”, so let’s allow the photos to start the telling while I figure out the rest. These are all the pics of myself taken with the DSLR, which I learned a so much about this trip!

I will start the story in the next post too, this is pre-flight check, make sure you’re properly comfy and ready to go on a wonderfully diapered, green, sky-high adventure!

Coming up are some video logs, or vlogs, today is just a little picture blog, a plog, with just a little wrogging to fill it out. Next post is going to include some of the best photos i’ve ever taken. Coming tomorrow! I have a busy next couple days hosting some travelers so lots of pics coming in while I write and think and catch up on my other projects, including a breast growth diary and a follow-up on the latest accountability project and my 3 Big Asks.

Thanks and i’ll end it with a pretty friend I encountered on a trail πŸ™‚

StayDiapered friends ❀

Song of the Day: The Cure – Pictures of You

Eeveelution

Let’s talk about Pokemon, shall we?

I was really really into pokemon until I was about 12 or 13 years old, We’re talking Gen 1, animated series, merchendise, stuffed pokemon from KFC, the golden card pokeballs from Burger King, the trading card game, I was all about it. Vulpix, Growlithe and Psyduck were my favorites, and of course cute little Eevee.

I’ve always seen Eevee as an inspiration because it can grow up to be whatever it wants, If you don’t follow Pokemon Eevee can turn into a fire type or a water type or electric type when it of evolves, and I always found that endearing, because when I evolved I wanted to turn into a girl-type.

But sadly someone did the evolving for me as is often the case with innocent, vulnerable things like Eevee. I was basically peer pressured into not liking Pokemon, mostly by my mom and stepdad, and coming around freshman year it really wasn’t “cool” to like Pokemon. People were doing grow up things like flirting with girls, getting in trouble, smoking behind the bleachers, And I was told I wasn’t gonna get anywhere in life unless I was doing those things, playing Pokemon was for “losers”.

That of course is not the case and Pokemon is as popular now as ever, and if I were to pick it up again I would definitely not be the only person in their thirties playing Pokemon. But more so I think if I would have continued doing the things I like I would have found my authentic life much quicker, would have not spent so much time trying to balance “fitting in” with my own particular quirks and interests that go against what most people find acceptable. I don’t really care what “most people” think, my friends and lovers and people I care about aren’t “most people”. They’re individuals and I love them.

I bought 5 of these same Eevee shirts when F.Y.E. was going out of business, aren’t they cute! I love baseball tees, elbow length-sleeves, purple, but most of all I love Eevee! Whenever I wear this shirt I think about how we can be whatever we want to be, and to make your own way in life.

The last Pokemon game I played was Pokemon Yellow, which cosmically came out 20 years ago (October 19th, 1999), both a strange coincidence but something that also makes me think about time a little too much for my liking. Maybe someday i’ll get a Switch and try Let’s Go Eevee, I also wanted to try the Pokemon Mystery Dungeon series at some point, I love that Final Fantasy Tactics style.

So that’s some thoughts on Eevee, I just picked up Dragon Quest 11 and look forward to playing that, I need a cute snuggle game. I haven’t actually sat down and played a game in what seems like weeks, so I think this week I’ll take some time to battle some slimes.

Hugs, and thanks for reading… and the last picture is rated “S” for Soggy πŸ˜›

Can’t Keep Up! Pt. 2

I went a little crinkle pic crazy this week. I was back in diapers 24/7 for a few days and couldn’t help but keep taking pictures. I really like sharing my dry diapers at night and then the wet diapers in the morning, not from bedwetting (yet) but just from snuggly morning wettings. It helps me feel connected with all the other diaper folks, and makes me take the time to share and make sure I’m in my diapers. I’m using all my internet friends as impromptu caretakers, it takes a village right?

Lots of #DiaperCheck here! I think the 2nd to last is my favorite, love snow jackets and diapers ❀

Big hugs! Don’t forget to check out my recent “What is ABDL?” video on My Youtube Channel! More stories and real posts soon!

Can’t Keep Up!

I have been posting and posting, but I keep taking more pictures than I can keep up with! I have been working on a more efficient way to post pics on WordPress from my phone, the app makes it hard to post galleries instead of just single pics. I’m figuring it out but in the meantime check out my Twitter at @RileyBBQ and Instagram @StayDiapered, where I have been posting tons of snuggle pics! There’s a little Twitter Widget on the side of the page too that you can click and visit πŸ™‚

As I said, I have been taking tons of pics because I’ve been a little diaper monster the last couple weeks. I feel a little rejuvenated by it, the weather is cooling down so it’s easier to wear, I generally feel good about life and that allows me to enjoy the things I truly enjoy. So in the pursuit of doing some catch-up and getting current, here are my favorite pics over the last few days πŸ™‚

More Random Pics Tomorrow! Getting closed to catch up, but I’m about to snuggle up in bed with another diaper, so they keep coming πŸ˜›

Hugs!!! Thanks for looking πŸ˜›

What a day for a wetter

I promised to share some new new new stuff so here’s a post full of fun and adventure from yesterday!

It was a busy Saturday for this little girl, I had to get up really early and head off to my dayjob, wanted to be extra protected so I put on some NorthshoreCare AirSupreme Mediums, which are a little big on me and very bulky/poofy.

I had a waddle day at work and was invited to goto a show with a friend, so I came home and changed, I was a little soggy by the end of the day, but of course no one at work noticed. Quality diapers and the right clothes on top make my diapers completely invisible, save for maybe having a slightly larger butt than reality.

After a quick clothes-off hose-off and a fresh diaper, I was ready to go. I have been expirementing with make-up lately, I have mixed feelings about cosmetics in general, but it can be fun and I’d love to someday be good at it. I tried some purple lipstick which I thought would match my purple tights and buttons, but with my pale skin it more made me look like I had Pnuemonia. I’m getting laser again soon so hopefully I won’t have to do too much cover-up soon, the woes of being a transgirl.

I went out, I listened to some music and had an accident or two. I haven’t danced in so long, and it was fun to get out on the floor again. Didn’t worry about anything, knew I was diapered and safe and around friends. It’s a good feeling. Diapers really do give me confidence.

The sun started to go down and my BetterDrys started to sag. This was my first time trying them and plan to do a full video review once I do more “research”. They are defintely crinkly and absorbent, really poofy too. I have thoughts about the materials and gathers, but I don’t want to criticize it until I go through a few more. I must say that they get very warm and soggy when they’re wet, reminds me of Attends Briefs but obv. bigger and made much better.

I made my way home to my little nursery and took some very little subby pics, I get so cuddly when i’m wet and tired. I do wish these would show how wet I am more, the wetness indicator fades quickly. I still prefer plain white diapers to any sort of cute colors, at least in the absorbent part. The Original Bambinos were great for that, big and white but with a loud baby-ish tape landing strip. Abena and Tranquility are pros when it comes to the wetness indicators that scream “SHES WET”.

I was just soooo cuddly here πŸ™‚

It was really great to have a long diapered day. I have been really getting back into the routine of it all, still worried a little about rashes and chafing (I slept naked last night just to air out, though I still slept on a bed-pad) but i’ll get re-aquainted again. It’s not like I stopped wearing completely for a while, I would just only wear on occasion. Wearing every day like I have this week is a whole different story. I think a post about my 24/7 experiences in the past would be interesting, I’ll have to look back on some old posts to refresh myself.

Thanks for reading and look forward to a new video next post! Big crinkly hugs, it’s great to be back posting πŸ™‚

New Phloam

Hey Hey! I’ve stepped my selfie game up! I recently got a fancy new phone (Galaxy Note 10) and I’m super excited about the jump in quality my pics will have. It’s still madness to me that some of the best consumer level cameras come attached to phones. I’d love to get a nice DSLR and speedlight flash, all I have now are cheapo Limostudio lights for video, but it’s good for now. Actually, I’ll let you be the judge of that with the little expiremental set of photos I took with the new camera, hope you like them! Just me in my goodnites πŸ™‚

Had a super busy bear day of house repairs and stuff, ordered a bunch of good diaper creams and other preventative messures, i’ll be talking about preventing diaper rash etc as I get back into the routine of constant wear. Was just in my pull-ups today, but back in thick diapers for bed πŸ™‚

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The Last Catch-Up

Hey there friends! If you haven’t been keeping an eye on my Twitter I’ve been posting tons of cute pics! I have been neglecting this site because I’ve been catching up with older pics, so I’ve decided to expedite filling in the gaps so I can start posting all the wonderful stuff I have going on at this very moment.

So here’s a bunch of cute pics from last year that I haven’t posted yet. I still have some older adventures to share like my Disneyland trip earlier this year but my next post (coming out tomorrow) will be about what’s happening with me right now, and it’s all good stuff!

Hope you like the pics, I am not sure of the context of any of these but that hardly matters when it’s just fun, cute crinkly times πŸ™‚ I’m such a little wetter! More stuff very soon! Hugs and love!

White

Alright, I needed to get that last post off my little chest, I originally had it prefacing this post, but I’d rather keep this one all light, and all fluffy πŸ™‚ So, I have some pics to share from a recent Festival day!

Sometimes when I want to feel extra comfy and padded I wear one of my many diaper covers over my disposables. It really doesn’t serve a purpose other than looking super-cute and lessening the crinkly sounds and you know I don’t mind the crinkling. I also wore a stuffer, but I did something I have a bad habit of… I put in one of those Tranquility Stuffers, and right as I’m about to walk out the door I stop, reach into my diaper and take it out, afraid that a day of walking with a stuffer will be too uncomfortable.

For this day it was Paris-bought Tena Slip Maxis, diaper cover and tights covered by a cute thrift store find, what seems to be a hand-stitched lacy dress, I live around alot of Amish and crafty people so thrift stores in this area are lit πŸ”₯πŸ”₯πŸ”₯. I’m into cotton and breezy fashions, especially vintage and even victorian style ABDL stuff. You know how they used to make all kids wear dresses in the 1800s, there was no boy/girl clothes, there were just baby clothes? There’s some neat looks that came from that, very “sissy” but not over the top. I do like poofy dresses and stuff, but for walking around in public I prefer the more simple, elegant breakdown of the design. Baby clothes are pragmatic clothes, and what’s more simple than a bleached white sleeveless dress? Good for diaper changes and checks. The clothes should be easy, it’s the diapers and the girl that are the complicated parts.

Speaking of silly things little girls do with their clothes, on the way to the Festival I realized I had my tights on backward. These are vintage tights, they have the lines running up the back and my silly self forgot about them and only realized in the car. So, of course, I have to slip off my shoes, pull up my dress and down my tights, avoid stop signs and tall trucks so no one can spy on my re-arranging. I’m trying not to distract the driver and am feeling kinda silly, but of course I’m taking silly pictures too πŸ˜› Car pictures always come out so cute… must be all the natural light and the air of exhibitionism.

I had a long day, fun day, and came home fairly damp. When I got home and wet it the last time it did leak a little bit, so maybe the stuffer would have been good. I think my next post will be about stuffers…

So a long diaper day with a leaky little end πŸ˜› I hope you like the pictures and this is basically the last set taken with my old phone, I have a new mobile which means new camera and better pics/videos! Here’s one I took the other day when I was romping around in my Goodnites πŸ™‚

Life is exciting and refreshing and positive things lie ahead. Give your stuffies a snuggle and look for more stuff soon πŸ™‚