Virginia is for Diaper Lovers #4 – Super Alright

Hello friends!!!

I am actively working on the Virginia video today! Today is the first day I have no real plans, I could lie in bed and pee my pants all day if I wanted to. But I am up at 6:30, listening to the new Built to Spill album (incredible) and writing this. Someone stole my garbage cans yesterday (??!!?!) and I have to call some urologists about my Orchi and physical therapists about my back, catching up like mad after a few weeks of non-stop travel. All the travel pics are edited and video is started, but first will be my “Trans Breast Growth Journal” which should be going up on my Trans Youtube today.

New Built to Spill album is incredible.

Ok, enough distraction, lets get to the gorgeous diaper pics!!! These are from the first night and first morning in Shenandoah ❀ I was reading about a video game having a 5 year content plan, and I’d like to introduce you to my 20 year content plan.

Basically just more of this πŸ™‚ I have been putting too much effort into my content (read: over-editing and over-thinking) and not posting enough on here. I plan to do more travelogue and quick reviews. Also, this Kat thing will be my last “ABDL Accountability” for a little while outside of an upcoming “Mommy Scams Video”. Take a break from the drama, I’m exhausted and need to elevate from the sewers. I need to focus on what I do best, make inspiring, smiley content. I think put out too much negative media, I’m really a smiley happy girl most of the time but I don’t think my blog reflects that, I guess I use you folks as a dumping ground for my woes. I need to get the ratio back to more smiles and less pouts. I hope this is a good start!

On the new Built to Spill album there’s a song called “Never Alright” followed by a song called “Alright”. And right now, i’m Super Alright.

This trip made me realize how beautiful I am. I say that with every humble and self-effacing urge pulling back at me but I really am gosh-darn beautiful, and still. Aging has been good to me and my brain. The storm and static of youth, I couldn’t see the beautiful girl underneath. She’s budding, making her way out finally. It’s about time, and she’s emerged as bright and colorful as can be.

The plan is to carry on sharing my life, more raw and unfiltered, keeping things smiley with the inevitable bit of sadness here and there. I don’t want to sanitize and you know me, I embrace pain and misery, but I create to create joy, not anxiety or fear. There may be a place in my art and writing for that, but I feel I overindulge. “The Riley Show” needs to be more like Bob Ross and less like Lars Von Trier.

I want to be an example of overcoming fear, that’s my whole story, right? Courage and Confidence, overcoming, going from not alright to alright. Not just falling down and getting back up, but growing wings and flying.

So I can promise a tone shift around here, transcaping.com will be my place for the deep sads. So many people expressed that I “seem much happier” since I left twitter and they’re right, I was such a bummer on there. I have so much warmth to share, and not just in my diapers, let’s keep it smiley and snuggly and just slightly sardonic. Less meta commentary (like this post) and more diaper fun!

Thanks for reading, turning a new page here in a bunch of ways and just so happy to be here πŸ™‚ Also go check out Evie Lupine’s Review of the ABDL VICE video, Evie Lupine is like, *the* kink commentator online. Check them out! More soooon! Thanks for listening and more Virginia trip pics fun and details incoming!

StayDiapered Friends!

Pink Dress -Soggy Northshore ~~~ Frozen Leotard – Soaked Northshore ~~~ Blue Leotard – Cloth Diapers/Sigzagor Cover

2 More Before We Get All Up In It

Wheeewww! I have a ridiculous pile of photos and over 150Gbs of videos from 3 Cameras to interpret, it’s like a big pile of christmas lights to untangle! The first video is up from my trip on my kinky sites, a cute little shower video ~ I took a very extensive travelogue of kinky/diapered adventures as well as scenery and just fun vlog stuff! Really excited to share!!!

Here’s another little preview!

Here’s another one!

Be sure to check out my paysites to see these kinds of videos early! More sooooon, let me get to editing so I can share all this fun <3<3 Talk soon and STAY DIAPERED!!!!

Virginia Is For… Preview

Here’s a little preview of my big upcoming “Virginia is for Diaper Lovers” video πŸ™‚ whole video will be on YouTube when I’m back and rested up :):) I’ll be home tomorrow for a few days and then I have another adventure next week but I’ll get a chance to decompress after Friday of next week and finish up all the projects I have spinning πŸ™‚

Hugs and more sooooon!!

Wrote a bunch of words

But forgot to make sense of them :p

Words coming soon but now it’s cute pictures because I’m a sleepy girl, today has been such a lovely day, lots more pics and smiles coming soon!!! <3<3

Just a couple little smiles one of my current backyard, 2 of a Soggy Diaper and another of a soon to be soggy diaper!

Hope everybody’s stayingdiapered, big hugs from this littlediapergirl <3<3

Be Leaving

I’m heading out tonight, spending the day packing, allow me to do my favorite thing which is post a ton of random diaper pics!!! Last set of pics in the nylons i’m wearing some really padded panties from Wearever πŸ™‚

I am very excited about this trip, going to spend all day finishing up packing and doing business stuff then i’m on the road! Will be auto-posting on my paysites the next week and the content train shall not stop even if i’m wandering through the forest in a diaper.

I was telling my friend – A woman in her underwear alone in the forest? Suspicious and strange and liable to get you “rescued”. A woman in her underwear alone in the forest with a Tripod and a YogaMat? Perfectly normal thing in our day and age.

More soon, thanks for all the kind words around my “Leaving Social Media” post. I want to do the most good I can in my online presence and this is a very positive step. And while the last 3 years i’ve been on a quitting spree, or a betterment spree rather, but I don’t plan on quitting crinkles, cuddles or little raccoons anytime soon! Those things are good for girls like me πŸ™‚

More pics and thoughts on sugary stuff and surgery stuff coming soon! Thanks friends ❀

Song of the Day – Flannigans Right Hook singing John Denvers Take Me Home Country Roads (My Video from The Celtic Fling)

The 13,343th Day Of My Life

Hey friends!!! I’m in the doctor’s waiting room getting my 3 months checkup since I started a higher dose of hormones!!!

I feel a lot healthier than I did 3 months ago πŸ™‚ Last time I had a laundry list of things to talk about. I don’t know if I’m healthy or if the hormones or better mood is making me less of a hypochondriac, either works for me! Done now, will tell you about it later, all good staying with 2mg E and 100 mg S and starting to move towards an Orchi and potentially SRS, if I want to do more after the Orchi. Keeping my options open, Orchi is easy and SRS is a big deal, so Orchi then maybe SRS if I choose. Exciting!!!

I am leaving for Virginia tomorrow, adventure awaits this little crinkly girl! Going to enjoy some beautiful State Park scenery, do some fun filming and take lots of pics but most of all, actually for once in my life i’ll take a real vacation where I can just turn off my phone, sleep in and sit by the pool all day. I have some projects I’m working on but I have already made plans and set time apart to finish those when I get back. But yeah, it’s going to be a really wild and crazy vacation, I may do some lake kayaking or see James Madison’s home!!!

I have been an incredibly busy baby today so I haven’t been jonesing too hard for social media, but things like getting my nails done and not sharing the pics immediately gives me the empty, restless feeling one gets when quitting an addiction, a yearing or emptiness. I’m doing just fine without the instant gratification, she says as she writes her blog.

I’m really happy to post on this because I know this is going to be around for as long as I keep backing it up πŸ™‚ 140 characters is not enough for what this little girl has to say! Tho I gave you enough reading yesterday so I’ll keep this post short, will send a smile from Virginia and look forward to lots and lots more posts on this website! I have been wanting to do a weekly newsletter situation in addition to this site and would love to hear ideas of good content delivery programs, Mailchimp allows up to 2000 people for free I think, I may try that.

I got a new haircut and new nails πŸ™‚ And I got a new awesome sex doll thing to promote on my kinky sites, it’s wild! Not pictured yet, it’s great tho, use StayKinky for 10% off on Tantaly.com. I got the “Scarlett” and it’s incredible. More on that later tho!!! Lots of new stuff happening!!!

And I really wanted to tweet about these “splooting” squirrels, but I stayed strong lol. Hugs, more diaper stuff soooon!!! I did wear diapers today, went through 2 northshore pullups, but I forgot to take pics πŸ˜›

StayDiapered Friends ❀

(Song Of The Day: Wilco – “Summerteeth”)

Kiwifarms, Keffals and No Country for Transwomen: Why I Left Social Media

ALL THE CONTENT WARNINGS LINK HERE TO MY SFW/Permanent Version for sharing

THIS POST WILL BE OFF THIS SITE IN 24 HOURS.

Diaper Cuteness STARTING TOMORROW, Promise ❀

Hi there friends. My Instagram was recently reported down at 10K and I have since locked my twitter. I am stepping away from social media and focusing on my videos and this blog. I will still post on all my paysites and nothing changes about upcoming projects, I just will no longer have a public face on twitter and other social platforms. I am not a victim of any specific doxxing or harassment outside the usual noise, this is about harm reduction. I am not in danger or facing any crisis, I’m fine ❀

This story is the end of my long journey with Kiwifarms… I’m about to head to a national park for a week to enjoy my friends and nature, going to spend more time away from screens ❀

20 Word Version:

Twitter has become a dangerous place to be a “famous” transwoman, especially if you are kinky or a SexWer. I have locked my accounts for my health & safety, largely due to the violent rhetoric from white leftists and transpeople.

4 Tweets Explaining the Keffals Thing, sorry about this dudes Wojacks and language

The Full Version.

My History With Kiwifarms

After appearing on My Strange Addiction I had my privacy invaded by users of anti-trans forums Gendertrendr and Kiwifarms and a person named C*thy Br*nnan. People related to these sites contacted my family, my old job, they met me at my doorstep and more than once in the street. I was living in the South Bronx at the time and they are partially why I moved out of NYC, I no longer felt safe as a single transwoman in my city. Their articles calling me a dangerous pedophile and rapist (for being ABDL or using women’s restrooms) effectively put out a hit on me, posts detailing my alleged crimes with my address and legal name etc, “someone has to stop this person” on their boards and messages like “the law is the only thing keeping me from killing you”. They had targeted me and ABDLs before, but this was a specific campaign to get me offline and underground. I got my ConcealedCarry, I had to explain transgender people and doxxing to Sac PD & Mott Haven PD to protect me and my family. I got a restraining order. I’ve had run ins with other stalkers, some really bad, but nothing like Kiwifarms. It was a nightmare.

I was heartbroken, in my naive mind it was “Feminists” doing this, I was constantly engaged in advocacy in feminist/leftist groups (I was big into OccupyWallstreet at the time) and felt ostracized… I later learned the difference between a Radfem and a real feminist (we didn’t use TERF much then), and that it was mostly politically motivated bigots co-opting feminism and queer folks to singularly attack transpeople, be it through useful idiots or by using fake accounts. LGB Alliance is the leading group for this now. I learned that not everyone wearing the shield of a social movement is authentically part of the cause. Is Every Person with Dreads for the cause? Is Every Person with Golds for the Fall?

Who or What is Keffals?

I spoke vaguely about Kiwifarms over the years and have kept away from mainstream advocacy because like many transpeople/ABDLs, I was legitimately afraid of what this group is capable of. Folks worked hard to get Gendertrendr taken down but Kiwifarms remained… Until this week, when a twitch streamer named Keffals organized a movement around her own doxxing and harassment and finally succeeded in taking down Kiwifarms. It’s been all over the news, a huge moment for face-forward transwomen online.

I want to clarify, I do not follow Keffals outside of this last week and don’t follow Twitch stuff but I see the things she does and want to applaud her. Arrogantly, I see some of myself in her fearlessness, she has done the good work at significant risk to herself and that’s awesome. And I know these people are not going to just stop fighting and trying to destroy her once Kiwifarms goes down, it’s a hate movement and they don’t just give up.

In the wake of this victory, allegation of racism, grooming, lies and theft spread about Keffals. The accusations were laughable, a post about noodles and putting the italian colors in the pride flag. Not exactly virulent racism, maybe some bad jokes or microagressions from an Italian-Canadian. And of course the grooming allegations are false, but that’s the first place bigots always go with LGBT+ folks, supporting trans youth is grooming to them.

These claims are part of what could only be described as a PsyOp or an “Organized Derailment of a Social Movement through Conveying Selected Information to Influence Actions and Emotions”, AKA, Bullshit. It’s incredibly common in the social justice circles, long history of it, recent example being the 4chan MAPS thing. All these claims center around this user “DreadedJai” and their constant harassment of Keffals. It’s all laid out pretty clearly if you simply look. And remember, that while these people are actively threatening and harassing her, Keffals is in hiding from a swatting incident and enemy #1 of every internet transphobe. But now is the time to doxx and brutalize her over alleged racism.

A SMALL PART OF THE ATTACKS:

It looks like internet bickering until you realize it’s classic Kiwifarms behaviour, go see the threads on their new site l*lc*w.farm right now, it’s all the same talking points. They bait with harassment, like Jai and others have with demanding money then calling them racist when they don’t donate, calling transwomen groomers, bigots, grifters etc then turn tail and call them bigots when they respond. When Keffals said Jai should be “excised from this community like a tumor” she was 100% right in saying that. We have to kick abusive people out of our community, it’s how marginalized communities survive. That’s not a violent threat or racist screed, it’s firm words from an advocate under fire.

But in classic Kiwifarms behaviour, they took that Tumor line to mean Keffals hates all black women and is a monster who deserves to be hacked, doxxed or killed.

A SMALL PART OF THE RESPONSE

I speak extensively about issues of bigotry in my communities. There is real racism around and it often goes ignored, we all need to listen to people sharing their authentic experiences, it’s how we learn. BUT THIS IS NOT THAT. This is a bunch of people with a deliberately disingenuous attacks at the top Transwoman in the worlds spotlight right now, to muddy the waters around Keffals, change the conversation and make her the villain, not the violent trolls on Kiwifarms.

It’s Psyop 101, Divide and Conquer. One Part Kiwifarms brigade and One Part dogpiling for that sweet attention and GofundMe money, they all like and platform each-other and their GofundMes.

I here this often from advocates, but STOP INFANTILIZING PEOPLE OF COLOR, TRANS PEOPLE ETC. Not every transpersons opinion is valid solely because they are trans. You are allowed to contradict and argue and call out bad behaviour regardless of race or gender. Treating marginalized people with kids gloves is othering them, not respecting them as equals. There are people out there that lie, grift and play cards and you can’t let them bully you into silence. Are you gonna listen to Enrique T*rrio about racism just because he’s brown?

Let’s talk about Candice Owens and Jessica Yaniv.

Candice Owens is a black woman who says claims of sexism and racism in America are a deception from the liberals and the jews. She has proven herself time and time again to be a bad actor. As a white person capable of independent thought, I don’t feel the need to sit down and consider her words or be afraid to call her a liar or say she’s a cancer to our communities because I 100% believe that, with no reference to privacy invasion or violence, we should excise people like that from our social justice communities. While there’s an obv history of objectification of black women, “Tumor” is hardly a racial line and more a “we are a community and need to be free of bad actors like this troll”.

If a black woman is being really awful, her blackness or femininity should not shield her from criticism – I have never met a black person or woman who thinks that it should, but I’ve met a whole lot of racists and misogynists who do. There are similar, authentic black women in social justice and I sit down and listen to them. I would never question their experience or judgement on issues or racism. But that’s not Candice Owens.

Jessica Yaniv is a transgender woman who tried to force a salon to wax her testicles. They said they didn’t know how and they were not comfortable doing it. She spent the next few years suing the women, threatening people, getting arrested and more, all because of “transphobia”. But that’s not transphobia, that’s people setting skill and comfort boundaries from someone who is clearly violent and unhinged. They had every right to refuse her service. It’s not transphobia to say NO to a transperson.

There are similar, authentic stories of discrimination from transwomen and I sit down and listen to them. I would never question their experience or judgement on issues of discrimination. But that’s not Jessica Yaniv.

And there are countless, valid stories of white transwomen ignoring, marginalizing and being flat out racist and I would never question the experience of black transwomen on these topics. But that’s not Keffals, at least not anything I’ve seen, and its clear the brigadiers are not engaging in a honest way. I strive to judge people by the content of their character, not the color of their skin, and if someone proves time and again that they are full of it, block them. I have black republicans in my family, people i’ve known most my life, I don’t listen to them about racism because they just parrot FOX. Racist black people exist, black skin does not make you an expert on racism. And of course, I acknowledge my own learned racism from media, family, school etc, I try to be aware. But I’m not going to let Blaire White tell me transphobes are perverts and I won’t let black conservatives tell me “Black Americans are the most murderous group in America“. I will always speak truth to propaganda when given the opportunity.

Why Twitter Has Become Unusable For Me

As a victim of Kiwifarms, I know the consequences of stochastic terrorism. I have seen too many people on my follower list getting caught up in these lies and scams and when I inform them, they agree with it. Legitimate violence too, “we should hack Keffals and if I see her in the street I will beat her up”, such as the first tweet above. They are gleefully communicating with people who think that blocking a troll is worthy of violence, “Fuck around and Find Out” against a trans woman, and for what? Insensitive tweets? Using blocklists? Swatting kills, and these people think Keffals 100% deserves it. And these are not random trolls, these are Transwomen with 40K followers and platforming these trolls to thousands of likes.

Many of these accuser accounts have high follows and low followers, they tweet 500 times a day and everything is super-aggressive crowdfunding, but that’s a whole different story, mutual aid funds are rampant. People make up alot of stuff for money, there’s tons of legit Gofundmes and plenty of fake ones.

Remember This Video? It’s Private Now as I need to update it.

When you get famous to any degree, you lose any expectation of privacy. People will demand and demand of you, and they will keep trying to slice pieces off until they have the whole thing. If you do not react the way they want you to, they use your fame and history as leverage to harm or guilt you. And now you have to worry about getting run-up-on for a tweet about noodles. It’s especially heinous in leftist spaces, where everybody is secretly hitler and just one false move away from exposing themselves. And that brings me to the main point….

I can’t be part of a community that spreads this violent rhetoric. I block and block and I still see people pushing violence. It makes me fear for my life and the safety of my loved ones knowing that some minor infraction will lead to being doxxed again. I have someone in my life that cannot move house or deal with swatting or harassment so I have to leave the scene. I was already a lush then but after their attacks I hit the drink and [redacted] hard and spent the next 8 years on the linoleum. It really broke me and things continued to fall apart from there. I became paranoid and disconnected from my friends and lost a few, further deepening my iso and depression. I missed so many opportunities out of fear, made so many bad choices out of self hate. I have been just now starting to re-associate, 3 years no alcohol, getting my confidence and self-worth back. I expected backlash from MSA, but nothing like that. I’m glad I did it, because maybe it would have killed whoever else would have been in their crosshairs.

I feel like it could all just happen again

And I don’t know if I can take it again. This time it could really do harm to my partner or family and I can’t let that happen, it’s not worth all the joy I get from my friends there. And it’s been mostly joy on there and in my life recently in general, but Twitter is just a place of ugliness for me, the hate has become too prevalent. When I see people violently threatening famous transwomen and being celebrated for it, it’s time for me to leave Twitter.

I am not a pacifist, I believe in direct political action and own weapons for self defense. But I believe that the threshold for violence is astronomical, only in the most extreme situations of self-defense. But Trans/Social Justice Twitter is a whole different universe. Microagressions? Doxxed. Mildly offensive tweet? Hacked. Blocking a woman who’s been harrassing you? That’s fine… oh sorry, it’s a white transwoman blocking a black woman so it’s the Death Penalty i’m afraid. She should have just continued to listen to her demands for money and accusations of grooming and grifting! It’s a horrifying mindset and indicative of college age tankie “kill anyone who disagrees” crowd. I have my time working with leftist groups, I don’t reject them, but these folks are not on the side of good. They wouldn’t be threatening transwomen’s lives if they were.

The problem at the core of all of this is not the grifters or psyops, they will always exist. It’s the lazy college aged white people who don’t research, they just proselytize, they look at the surface level of an issue and retweet. It’s a fashion to them, they don’t care enough to learn the truth, they just hear “Keffals is racist pass it on” and go “ooooo, here’s some tea, ‘hey everyone, Keffals is racist and i’m super not racist cause I tweeted about it!'”

IF YOU ARE GOING TO SELF-STYLE YOURSELF AS AN ADVOCATE, YOU HAVE TO DO THE WORK!

There’s been a big post going around about Keffals, being used as part of “the real proof” of her being an evil bigot. If a single person took the time to read it, they would know how clearly written by a Kiwifarms user it is. Below are a few selections, I remind you she was in hiding from death threats, another thing they constantly deny and pretend is a “grift”. She has never called anyone the N word or outed people in any provable way, this whole article is just calling her a groomer, liar, sex shaming and victim blaming, saying she has a “Death Drive”. Not only is it ok to doxx, harass and ruin her life, it’s actually her fault. Also this was written by a black transwomen to lend it credence, a woman who has not posted on twitter for a year until this, which is the first thing she’s ever posted online.

And here’s the owner of that blog defending Kiwifarms and RTing posts denying online radicalization from sites like Kiwifarms. It’s just right there on the surface if you ACTUALLY CARE, but these self-absorbed tweeters only care about earning the “NOT RACIST” badge, not about doing actual work or critical thinking to combat racism.

Leaving Twitter is a good thing and long overdue.

I need take some time to make definitive media about these efforts dividing and conquering our community. I need to stop fearing the social media clowns and just speak truth. Stop arguing and wasting my time, Ducking the overnight advocates. I need to write a book about my experience. I need to rise above the rabble, continue reading and learning about the experiences of marginalized people, not arguing with anime profiles on Twitter. I need to grow up. Keep working with my local orgs and being politically active however I can, especially heading into the midterms. I am not worried about being called racist by white college kids on twitter. I know what i’m about, my friends and fans and family know what i’m about. I don’t need to prove myself to any moral arbiter, just need to keep learning and working.

“When you bang your head against the wall and feel blood, it’s not the wall that’s bleeding”

And if Keffals does have issues, lets confront them in a sound way. Not with death threats or “get this bitch”. It’s good to talk about race, it’s good to hold people accountable, it’s never ok to encourage violence or privacy invasion. That’s why i’m so exhausted by this, in the face of these violent words, the white transwomen shrug and say “Well, Fuck Around and Find Out”. That’s not solidarity, that’s a deeply flawed and broken community and mindset. Trans leftists have called me a p*do for wearing diapers, a baby killer for voting democrat, a capitalist and rapist for being a sex worker. They attack me because they don’t want a real challenge, they just want to control and antagonize. It absolutely detracts from real, actual issues and all it does is serve their egos. And once they lose attention, they turn to the right. Look at Amy Daly and Vito Gesualdi, two people who went far left to far right over the course of their twitter careers. All progress is made in spite of these people and social media is full of them.

I am more afraid of fundamentalist trans leftists than I am Republicans in my day to day online activities, the wolf I can anticipate, but not the wolf in sheeps clothing.

The racist who screams anti-racism, the anti-sex/SexWork queers who believe all the groomer/trafficking propaganda, the sexual assaulting transwoman who plays victim when called out (more on Chloe Corrupt in another post), the pro-violence/anti-voting wing of the tankie left, the scam artists hiding behind black Gofundmes or behind that of dead kids. Their refusal to evaluate what they share harms this community, all because they are too vain or shallow to actually understand the things they say or platform. It hurts my soul and lowers my bar, so I gotta gracefully exit.

Thanks for reading, this blog has been a rock so I will stick with that. I am finding my thoughts consumed by these clowns, it makes me angry, clouds my mind and stresses me out, I express myself clumsily and say things I shouldn’t. I need to spend more time where people actually care about the cause, not just the attention. Ya’ll know if I was in this advocacy stuff for attention or money, I’d be doing things way differently.

I’m gonna hop in the shower, clean off all this mud and come out clean and focused. I will continue to listen, question my views on race and listen to people with some sense. Books over Tweets anyday πŸ™‚

Be well friends. Don’t let anyone do the thinking for you ❀

Riley K.

Further Reading:

BaltimoreMag: Why We Need To Listen To Black Women

UrielTheWatcher Lays it All Down

What is a Psyop

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Accountability Diary – She Gazed

Hello Internet!

This post will be a quick journal of my recent accountability project, no diaper, kink or fun content to be found here, just explaining my process and working some things out. All the Content Warnings, this is bad stuff but it’s good work, I am well, happy & healthy. I’m not in the role of the victim here, but rather the advocate. If you’re only here for diaper stuff, which is totally valid, Go check out my latest video and come back soon for more silly nonsense, this post is heavy lifting. The actual post/video, unlike this one, will actually be compelling and well made.

I’ve been examining “How Abusers Keep Abusing” and i’d like to be as transparent as possible about this particular project, so I think this diary is the best way to do it. I want to avoid social media and limit the arguing and emotions. I’m not trying to jam anyone up or sneak around, I’m just a blogger trying to figure out if VICE media just put a tiara on an abuser or not. And all things considered the reviews on that special are positive it seems and this has nothing to do with any criticism of that show or her representation of ABDL in it.

And personally, I need to vent, digging through all this grime effects me (i’d be concerned if it didn’t) and writing about it helps, prevents me from getting too caught up or having it consume my thinking too much, as it has the last few days. Consider this a pre-draft alpha, this is my writing process made public, I tend to spill it all and then edit the hell out it.

Let me sincerely thank everyone who has trusted me with their story. It’s not easy sharing and revisiting these experiences and it’s less easy trusting strangers on the internet, I want folks to know that while the video may not come out until the end of September (I originally stated Halloween but I will do everything I can to get it out sooner) I want to keep you informed of what i’m doing and assure you that I am actively working on this, I would never set out on a task like this without the full expectation of taking it to completion. I am traveling through September and will have some other content coming out in the meantime.

In addition to Kat, I will also be briefly discussing “Chloe Corrupt” from Northern California in the video and showing the similarities in their manipulative and defensive tactics. But for the remainder of this post I will be talking specifically about Kat and their associates.


Thanks for reading, here we go.


Out of about 30 submissions split through Contact Form, Twitter and Fetlife, I’ve received about 15 independent reports that I would consider “valuable”. I have received several that I would consider opinion or speculation about her personality, I don’t consider these “Vibe Checks” or character testimony to be relevant. If I was nice to a hundred people and ate one, you’d probably want to hear about that one. Life has no point system, and most every valuable submission has stated how charming and kind they can be, but how there’s a performative aspect to her and can turn ugly.

So I have all these stories in a big pile, what should I do with them? The first step I took is determining the value of each claim, which is done by examining the who/what/where/when and the providence of the person, their statement and the “big picture”. This is all pretty icky work, it’s what we do as a society to vet each other but it can be dangerous if prejudice informs decisions.

For the person, are they active in ABDL, posting and interacting with other community members? Have they been around? Most of these accusations are coming from people I would describe as Known Entities such as verified models and people known online or in local communities. The 2 Anonymous Entries I received corroborate with ID’d people’s stories and led me to people with more information. Many of these folks I have grown to know organically over the years and many are from different cliques and backgrounds, and some I don’t know or don’t know me at all.

As for their statement – Does it make objective sense? Is the message about insulting the person or just sharing their experiences? Are they trying to convince me of something, evoke sympathy? Does the tone not match the level of intensity of the experience, are they not taking it seriously? I think we all have a bullshit detector and frankly, mine is cranked up to 11, as a creative writer (synonym for BS) I have faith in my ability to discern between fact and fiction, though I would not let that weigh too heavily on the scales.

Finally, Does the big picture check out? Am I getting the same facts from separate parties describing the same events? How does it match with the other experiences i’ve been told, do all the dots connect? If one person says baseball bat and the other says pocket knife, that would be cause for concern. Does there seem to be coaching? Is there specific events or just a general “bad vibe?”. Is any of it “political” or subjective?

And from my perspective, after assessing the People, the Statements and the Corroboration, I think it’s pretty clear that these claims have merit.

So lets examine the letters of value – Many center around a single violent incident but all map out a history of ignoring consent, manipulating community members, classic abuser obfuscation and retaliation. Everything from “She never followed through on her end of a commission” or “I was her sub for a while until I realized she was fake” to the much more extreme “she encourages intoxication and breaking consent at parties” to “covering up sexual abuse” to “outing kinky people” to worse and worse and worse. There are a few things that won’t make it into the final product outside of allusions because I, myself, don’t feel comfortable addressing it. I have to set that sort of limit when making a video like this, as some things cut too close to the bone for me.

There’s much more here than a few bad nights or some miscommunication. It seems the knife incident ( I will elaborate on all this in the final product) was just the dam breaking and led to their blacklisting from their local community and having their bad behavior exposed both IRL and online. Often all these claims need is some cohesion or physical proof to get the naysayers to listen and a catalyst event like this (with police reports etc) is often good enough proof for most people. But online, these things are forgotten or ignored. For many industry people, white skin and big breasts is all the vetting they need.


In Defense of Kat


I have a few letters defending her and a few taking a more aggressive stance towards me, lines like “jealousy”, “just looking for attention”, “seeking relevance” etc, but nothing contradicting the piles and piles of accusations. Many are on Twitter and not through email as I asked, as many are taking a similar tone and I assume are sockpuppets, many were created in August 2022 and have no tweets. Email contact would likely expose the facade.


I have seen this often in kink communities and we as world see it more often lately with internet fame and echo chambers… that Cult of Personality mindset. The cliques entire worldviews lies on idea that their person is in fact completely honest and always has been. All the claims of abuse, misdealings, lies, crimes etc are just jealous and petty, it’s all a big conspiracy designed to take this paragon of honesty down because everyone is just so toxic and they can’t handle her positivity (???). Most people see right through it, but through manipulation, insulation and personal reliance people like this gain staunch defenders, building a wall to shield others from reality. In discussing this project, many folks who had never spoken with her, big names in ABDL, were surprised to find she had blocked almost every other model/woman in the scene. If that’s not a red flag I don’t know what is. I was tweeting about this like, 2 years ago, this has been a well documented issue with this person.


Why has she so wholeheartedly rejected the ABDL community? I can only assume it’s because she wants to hide away and catch unsuspecting young ABDLs who only see “KAT IS AN INNOCENT ANGEL” comments, maintain that insular echo chamber. This is like, Abuser 101, find the young or naive, control the conversation, isolate, block and ban anyone who MIGHT call her out. The truth is irrefutable, so the goal is to prevent the truth from penetrating to the manipulated. It’s so heinous when you look at it objectively, it’s this gaslighting chamber and it separates new people from their communities, where accountability matters.


Why This Matters To Me

Probably way too much information about me, but here we go…

I am a sex worker and have been since I turned 18. I have done sex work at clubs and bars, craigslist, in person, in dungeons, and now mostly online with some clandestine IRL encounters. I know that scene.


I also have done all the drugs and gone to all the parties and am also very experienced in that scene, I know when someone is yakked out or how some drunk people deal with boundaries and I know how that should not be mixed with BDSM play space.


Furthermore, I was groomed by a college professor at age 13 until I became an adult, achieved through manipulation and entertainment industry connections. I have been in the entertainment industry since I was a small child.


I tell you these 3 messy details to assure you that I can see it.


I can see it in the people who have abused me and I can see it in those who abuse others. And most frighteningly, I can see it in myself when I gaze too deeply into the abyss. I make this video because I want everyone to see it so we may hope to never see it again. I want the abusers in this community to know there is no hiding behind fans or institutions, we see you.

“J’ACCUSE!”


This next part is messy but due diligence demands that I consider motive. Why would these issues come up now and where are they coming from? What would someone gain from making these accusations up? Though I must say, I fundamentally disregard the notion that women makes these accusations flippantly, for revenge, jealousy, or the implications that it’s just a tool in their box to hurt someone. It has certainly happen, especially when race is a motivating factor, If you’re reading this you should know about Emmit Till, Black Wall Street etc and if you don’t, read this Times Article.

But the Gamergate ideal that false accusations is a common, growing issue is a result of misogynistic propaganda and divisive political rhetoric to radicalize young men. That’s not speculation, that’s page one of the Steve Bannon playbook. Many folks of all political backgrounds and genders capitalize on this idea and use it as a shield, hence the serious number of posts and messages attempting to derail accountability and having a chilling effect on women voices. The statement from the follows:

If you speak your truth, you will be perceived as a petty, jealous, overreacting bitch, no man will want you and no women will work with you. In fact, you may just be crazy.


But lets not let internet confirmation bias skew the numbers, you are more likely to be crushed by a vending machine than face false accusations of abuse because someone doesn’t like you. I am way more ubiquitous in ABDL and a controversial figure to say the least, yet nobody has ever accused me of any sexual assault, scams, manipulation or anything despite having been to many, many events all around the country and fairly ubiquitous in this community for like, ever.

You know why? Because I don’t abuse people. I have been a jerk sure, I can be loud and opinionated and wrong about stuff, but I would 100% hope if you found out that I was doing some proper bad stuff, you would call my ass out. And hopefully I would be granted forgiveness if I deserved it and i’d probably go and do something else with my life if I didn’t. Although I don’t plan on facing this dilemma… I surely wouldn’t send out a bunch of my fans and friends to defend and argue or attempt to silence anyone, I’m proud to say I have not gained that kind of cult fandom nor do I seek it.

While I have fans and supporters, I am a largely neutral party in this community and would not give any deference to personal relationships. Some of these people I have known for over a decade and I don’t see them making these allegations about anyone else despite rivalries and disagreements always existing. They marginalize these voices by making it seem personal and I was hoping as someone completely unrelated and dare I say, trustworthy, I would be able to cut through the conjecture. I intend to present the information as I have with other bad actors such as ABDiscovery and ABDLTruth, providing evidence and testimony from the community, not personal anecdote or opinion.

The Goal – ‘Only those who do not seek power are qualified to hold it.’

When I went on MSA, I did so because i didn’t want someone to get big in this community and then the world finds out that they’re a p*do or they use that huge platform to take advantage of people. Fame lets people rise above accountability, gives them notoriety they may not have earned. I know what people are capable of when they have power and insulation and the willingness to exploit. I grit my teeth as I write this. I remember the faces of the people who knew but chose to ignore. I know how it feels to be a small voice. I know what’s at stake.

The Goal is to collect all these scattered experiences together into a single document and let people make their own judgments. I’m trying to maintain object permanence so when people are vetting her, they can learn of other folks experiences. And hopefully, they will address these issues and be more transparent with their fans and the community and nobody will be at risk for getting exploited or worse. And failing any of that, we will hopefully use this as a means to identify other bad actors or provide precedent if future issues were to arise. My efforts here are not about pursuing anything beyond awareness.

This is what the start of accountability looks like, some of the compiled letters about Kat and her actions.

For now I need a break, I’m putting this out to breathe, I am no longer actively seeking submissions (though feel free to send info/follow up) and have more than enough testimony and stories, tweets, video clips etc to make a reasonable doubt argument. And remember, It’s important to tell this story with respect for privacy of both the victims as well as Kat & her partners, so please do not share any information that would be identifying etc.

Thanks for reading all of this, more cuteness and cuddles sooooon!!!

Safety and Solidarity friends ❀

Riley K.

“Work Hard on Work Worth Doing”

Pink Diaper Fairy August Adventure!

Adorable new video of my little Faire Adventures!!!

Love my little pink dress <3<3 One of my favorite thrift store finds lately, I have collected quite a few little onesie-leotard outfits like that lately and plan to wear a bunch more this fall! I got a really regal purple one the other day, this is primetime for my thrift store shopping because all the Halloween stuff is coming out! I get so many incredible costumes for cheap, many of them custom kids dance outfits that nobody would ever want again (unless you’re a super cute & small diapergirl!)

Hugs and hugs, video about Pride coming up, more cute sunshiny fun incoming! Enjoying making these little travelogues, I shoot all this stuff just rarely stitch it all together in a cohesive way. More fun cuteness incoming and remember, there’s weekly and more diaper content, so much, on my ManyVids! Links on StayKinky.com!!!!

StayDiapered friends <3<3

3 Big Asks – Positive Moments, Fake Mommies and Bad Dommes

There’s 3 Big Asks I have For 3 Upcoming Projects, firmly on the opposite spectrums of our community. Please when sending information, leave out anything that could be personally identifying such as addresses, legal names. I’m just trying to clarify and get the full story on various issues, so please contact me about any other misdeeds we may see in the ABDL community but for now, let’s focus on these 3 Specific Issues. I will not be sharing or highlighting any information shared without getting approval first, I understand these issues are sensitive.

Thanks for reading and I really appreciate any help folks are willing to provide! CONTACT ME HERE and at the top of the page!

First – “Our Awesome Community” Project

This will be my 4th ABDL Accountability video and I want to highlight all the collaboration and positivity in our community after dwelling in the grime. So many new companies and events over the last decade I can’t keep track, so i’m reaching out to find out what’s the best of the best.

Specifically, I am looking for examples of companies, events, websites, or even personal moments, of good vibes and inclusiveness.

I want to hear about stores using diverse models, trans people winning talent shows, helping one another and charity and advocacy. Let’s talk about the good we do, how we’ve made others feel welcome or how we’ve felt welcome or seen ourselves!

Bonus points around important topics that are often forgotten in this community such as accessibility. What were some great moments in your ABDL life due to community inclusiveness and/or is there a store/event/website/folks that you’d like to celebrate?

Couple examples:

  • ABDL Models supporting and promoting each other during some of the various adult sites purges we’ve faced. I don’t see a lot of competitiveness among the “faces” of this community and we all seem to get along pretty well these days.
  • ABU being taken over by good folks after the bad actions of the OG ABU
  • The formation and anniversaries of events like Capcon, Munches etc.

Looking for a specific examples and specific companies! Want to cover a whole bunch of different kinds of awesomeness, specifically around INCLUSIVITY!!!

WILL BE CLOSING SUBMISSIONS IN ABOUT A WEEK!

Second – Fake Mommy Scams

Have you been contacted by a catfish/fake/bot mommy? Have you been a victim of one of these all-too-common scams? Have you discovered your online crush was not who they said they were? Please let me know, screenshots or links to accounts are super appreciated.

WILL BE CLOSING SUBMISSIONS IN 3 WEEKS

Third – Bad Dommes and Unsafe Providers

Has anyone here had issues with a bad Dom/Domme or “Provider” in the ABDL Community?

Additionally, has anyone encountered a Bad Domme out of Colorado? I have seen a large number of claims about abuse, threats, harassment and overall “Bad Domme” behavior. Unfortunately none of this is collected anywhere and just scattered about Twitter and Fetlife. I have never met this person or been privvy to their actions myself, though I trust the accusations as I believe most people should, do, or will.

I think what would help the most is just telling your story or potentially linking me with organizations or individuals that have been victimized by this person. Also, any sort of public social media posts would be helpful but I think they are very experienced at scraping that, though I am finding quite a bit of talk on Twitter. I am not doing this to litigate this evidence but rather to expose it will be talking to a whole lot of different people about this, and if you don’t want to be involved anymore just say so, I know I can run out of spoons with this kind of stuff pretty easily.

I’d like to share the full story to cut through the conjecture, as I have with ABDiscovery, ABDLTruth etc. I want voices to be heard and abusers to be held accountable, if only to protect future victims and help identify other bad actors. After VICE dropped the ball by platforming this person, I feel it’s the need for independent media to pick it up again and hold these folks accountable, so any help would be significantly appreciated. I was planning on doing a “Bad Provider” video as an extension of my “Fake Mommies” video and was not expecting to have a such a well-known subject

And please, not looking for any addresses or anything too specific.

ONGOING SUBMISSIONS – I PLAN TO FINISH THE PROJECT BEFORE HALLOWEEN

THE BIG ASK!!!

Check out my Newly Opened CONTACT ME Page and be sure to leave a return email if you want to get back. If you want to just send a poke you may also and we can discuss specifics. Please for now, don’t just use the contact form as a way to chat about random stuff!

Thanks for everything and here’s to a safer, better community!!!