Oh Heck! Diaper Check!

Hey there friends! New little Diapercheck video today and new storytime coming ASAP! Keep an eye on StayDiapered.com for lots of newwww stuff! Kicking into high gear with the video stuff here, getting a legit shooting schedule and am finally figuring out my fancy new gear 🙂

This is just a little face-to-face, bear-to-bear check-up, Cincy is a little ham in this one 🙂 I’ll be doing some little diaper reviews while I work on my baby diaper doc, I have another project that might take over for a little bit, but expect quite a few stories this holiday season including the Simpsons Christmas Story and some Dylan Thomas for all my Cymru out there ❤

Hope you enjoy the video, just a quick little one, more big poofy videos soon ❤

Oh, and a big surprise today, my Youtube has 10k people subscribed! I’d like to do something special so let’s keep it hush hush for now, act surprised if I bring it up again 😛

Just want to say that I’m very grateful for all the subs and support, we’ve come a long way ❤ Hugs and so much more coming your way!

Daily Post 11/21/20

Hello friends! Made a bunch of fun video, have lots to share but for now I just have a handful of cute pics 🙂 Hope you like them and more video and stuff coming in hot ❤

The bunny pics are from this morning when I was soggy, the penguino pics are when I got out of the shower and got into a fresh diaper which I eventually wet :p haven’t done that in a while worn diapers all day like that, it was really nice 🙂 I have more thoughts on that incoming as well ❤

More soon ❤ Filming went great, feeling lovely ❤ So much stuff, this little girl can hardly contain herself!

My eyes need diapers

Had a very cool, very long day and have a busy schedule of filming ahead tomorrow!

I got out early and went thrifting for some filing cabinets & cute clothes and found buggy! Really neat and expensive I imagine, it really set my heart a flutter. I also got a cool soft Sloth blanket and a neat hammer multi-tool thing. I didn’t get the mermaid tail (I already have one) but the image made me laugh, like some fantasy fish market. I also got some really amazing clothes, and had about 20 minutes of completely empty thrift store, which is heaven for me. Took some pics to share!

I made the below tweet and wanted to share here. I could write ten thousand words on these feelings right now but this tweet sums it up ❤

Hugs from a hopeful, happy girl 🙂 More stuff soooooon ❤

It’s Been 2 Weeks

Hey there friends! The Bearnaked Ladies were an awesome band. The Old Apartment, If I had a Million Dollars, Pinch Me, so many greats. One Week was pretty good too but overplayed, it always reminds me of brushing my teeth while being driven to school. Canadian bands are awesome (Cub!) I think I’m a Canadian deep down, I like cheese curds, I once had a Genny Cream Ale, I like the cold and love Goosers and Raccoons. I think I’m going to marry that Raccoon guy on Youtube for Canadian citizenship and just wear overalls everyday and cuddle ‘coons in the snow.

Retro pics today! I had posted that Paci Pic of me in the baby diapers and wanted to follow up with that whole set ❤ These are like, 2008 era? Size 6 Baby Diapers and the Original Underjams!

These were taken during a brief stint in Mass, a time of my life that I don’t revisit often. I had really long, lush hair and wasn’t happy outside of that. I was trying to transition and confused about my path, on top of that being in a somewhat unsafe situation in a very unfamiliar place. This is around when the Underjams first came out so I was still trying to blog and keep folks updated, but my content from that era is a little embarrassing now.

Good or bad, I was making stuff! I know it’s been a month since my last video and longer since my last review or storytime, thanks for being patient, I love making content but I REALLY needed to take a moment while I got some stuff squared away in my life. It’s been 2 Weeks since the Election, done quarantining and feeling good. I actually got a good nights sleep last night which was fannntastic, woke up energized and horny.

Looking at these pics really reminds me of all the stuff that’s happened in my life, i’m so lucky to be a click away from my memories. I’ve been working more seriously on constructing a book from my adventures, though like so many things I need to start at the basics and start from there. I’m awful at grammar and have little to know formal training, I slept my way through school… you reach a point where “winging it” doesn’t cut it anymore and you either have to learn it yourself or pay someone. Editing video is something that I have to learn/do myself, but to get serious about publishing i’m going to have to pitch this book to a legit publisher. I think with the right editor I could really go far with this thing, a Sedaris style memoir of my adventures be they in travel, diapers, porn or any of the other worlds i’ve inhabited. I have thankfully already written much of it down, just on napkins and bathroom walls.

But in the meantime ~ I need to get back into diaper vloggin’. I hate to be so mercantile, but I make 0 money directly from Youtube as my videos are not ad-supported. I have been hard at work maintaining my content on my paysite and planning some ad-supported YT content on another channel, as well as posting a new storytime this week. I love doing the ABDL videos and will be expanding my Patreon to allow for direct support/early release of my content, but it’s taking me a while and I appreciate everyone’s patience. I’m being gentle with myself, as we all should during these times. I want this site to be consistent and stable, the same goes for myself, so I’m not over doing anything.

So there’s much happening behind the scenes, thanks for stickin’ with me and I’ll have a new Storytime and Review coming soon, I’m going to spend the afternoon organizing some things and getting ready to shoot ❤ I have spent a ton of time and money getting my Size 7 project going (which could be considered a documentary by this point) and will be debuting that by Christmas.

More soon ❤ Going to stop saying what i’m going to do and instead go do the thing. That sentence should tell you how in need of an editor I really am. I just learned what a Split Infinitive is and I’ve been writing most of my adult life, I have been paid more than once to write copy for people. This is just your daily reminder that a fair amount of people are just flying by the seat of their pants 😛

Go forth and with confidence! Busy busy day ahead, bears and I are doing well, hope you are toooo! Be good and talk soon ❤

Daily Post 11/15/20

I got a good night’s sleep feeling energized and ready to take on the world. It’s a short one today, with the tiny little lesson at the end.

I made a little video on my phone to show off my blog, it took me avout 15 tries to do it properly and even then it’s a bit wonky.

A daily reminder that in life you’re not always going to be great at everything, sometimes life takes some patience. I can get frustrated at things that ultimately have very simple solution. Mindfulness helps, just taking a moment to stop, collaborate and listen. Take a breath and start over. Every gamer knows that when they’re on a tough spot usually you can come back an hour later and beat it first try. That applies to most things especially when it comes to creativity. The best cure for writer’s block is some fresh air, the best way to keep from getting stressed out giving up entirely is to just take a breath.

I often times will write something and then come back a few hours later before I publish it and I didn’t do that last night, leaving me to sort of mentally edit all night, even going back and deleting/rewording things multiple times. Should have just given it that air and come back with fresh eyes. That’s why naps are so great 🙂

That’s all for today, tune in soon for more of my Diaper Lifestyle series, haven’t gotten my head back into that space yet really though I have been quite crinkly 🙂 I’m feeling good, more stuff soon! Hugs ❤

Tharr Be Discourse

Today has been one of those days. I never cut myself shaving but I got myself 3 times today. Things have been piling up in my mind and I haven’t swept it onto the page yet, and overall just a crumby couple days… I generally only nick myself when I’m distracted and I really got myself today, to the point where I planned on filming but didn’t. I’m eating Reese’s Sticks and writing about it, two relatively healthy coping methods.

This has led me to write an incredibly long post. Transgender community stuff ahead but nothing too dramatic.

Which gets me thinking… I separate the “coping” aspects of diapers, the stress relief etc, from the sexy part or the comfort part, it’s a many pleasured thing and I have different moods around wearing. I think it’s important to not spend all day categorizing or overthinking something that’s very core to my nature, a somewhat unexplainable desire like my love of diapers.

A Twitter person I had not seen before, @MediumSmallYeen, posted this image and I have been kicking myself all day for not thinking of it myself. Though I must say diapers are more than just a hobby for me, this makes me laugh.

I do overthink things at times, often considering the future too much and not just going with the flow. It’s good to psychoanalyze ourselves to a point and there’s people who make it their job to do so, but when you’re nailing down these identities and not being fluid, I feel we can let ourselves down or get overwhelmed by trying to fulfill these roles.

I guess some examples of this would be not changing diapers because you want people to see you as a little, or being afraid to wear something feminine because you don’t want to be seen as a sissy, I think we need to remind ourselves that things change and that while introspection is healthy, don’t suffer with how you identify, but more of what you’re currently doing. Back to that idea of bumper sticker advocacy, we think so much about what flag we’re waving, what color it is, who’s waving it, instead of the purpose behind that flag. That’s all very vague, let me get down to the bone of it.

I’ve pretty much stepped entirely out of trans discourse because I’ve exhausted my desire to debate my identity. I have always seen myself as non-binary, and I think everyone is non-binary, that gender is just a construct etc, it’s all just clothes and hairstyles etc. BUT ALSO, there’s biological differences between sexes and that some people’s transitions include those biological reasons. Other people transition because they want to or because they believe they are a woman inside a mans body. Intersex and Klinefelters people exist, it’s all very complicated to say the least.

I believe that I developed male parts but have significant female attributes, I take hormones and will get SRS to make up for that incongruence, I explain it better here… BIG POST ABOUT GENDER STUFF. I could be called “Truscum” for that, though my position is not exclusionary, I do feel I take hormones because I suffer from dysphoria and that medical intervention is necessary. A lot of my advocacy has been around equal medical access, and not around a social movement of smashing gender as a whole. I believe in that, it’s just not something I’ll see in my lifetime and understand it takes babysteps so I plan to live my life as a woman, as to say conforming to that role in society. This is IN ADDITION to my personal physical desire to transition, something I would do even in a genderless world.

I have also had transgirls tell me they take hormones because of solely aesthetic purposes or because “they saw Bailey Jay and wanted to be like that”, and I don’t want to even come close to judging people like that, we all have the freedom to live however we want. I am not concerned with other people’s potential regrets, we’ve all got out own journeys, I would never judge someone else’s transitions. Though, to be completely frank, we all do hold personal beliefs of what’s healthy and what’s not, I just thankfully have the piece of mind to not judge or shame anyone. I also think people express themselves differently and may not be as chatty or perspicacious as I am, so something like “I wanted to be like Bailey Jay” could have a whole life’s worth of personal understanding behind it, that’s why we don’t judge, because we don’t know.

I also identify as a woman, I like being a girl and being adressed as a girl and wearing girl clothes. I use female pronouns and have an F on my License. I can hold this non-binary view of the world and also be medically transitioning and a total girly girl. I don’t have girl or boy days, everyday is a Riley day, though somedays i’m scruffier than others.

I support all aspects of trans identity and am a really inclusive person, that’s pretty obvious by now, but I feel in the trans discourse there’s no place for my fluid ideas on everything. I find the rigidity of speech and identity and who gets a seat at the table to be exhausting. I think with my experience things like books and blog posts are more suited than trying to meme it up with the twitter folks. This posts been welling up in a while, have been thinking often about the whole pronouns in the profile thing and my complicated feeling towards pronouns and labels in general. I also am happy to accommodate anyone about any pronouns, but am also terrible at that stuff because I am a scatterbrain with names etc, like most people if we’re honest. I have mental tactics to be inclusive and those work for me, though I often have to remind myself. Years of waiting/customer service made “sir”, “maam” and “guys” common, also people could be a little more forgiving I think. I still mess up and I reallllly try.

Basically, and I keep wanting to ask this to everyone in the trans world, but isn’t it just accepted that if you’re trans that you probably see the world from a non-binary perspective? And not just “men can be women” etc, but that the line between us from a social perspective is blurry enough as to not exist if it weren’t for shampoo companies and clothing stores? That our biology does not define us? I don’t say i’m non-binary because I frankly don’t want to have to explain my idea of gender to anyone, or why I’m non-binary and dress and act femme and take hormones etc. And this is not a judgement of others, but I also don’t care to draw attention to myself. Going stealth is a bit of a dream for those of us transpeople who’ve been through hell for it, something younger or more privileged transpeople lose perspective of. I do feel gender euphoria, but I also mainly wish I never had to think of being trans again, mostly because of all the shaving and discrimination.

While trans can be euphoric, it can also be dysphoric, it’s a two fisted struggle. It’s with society and with ourselves, the mental and physical, the internal and external, and for me the transgender experience has been defined by strife and overcoming barriers. For others it’s all smiles and smooth sailin’, one does not invalidate the other. I’m in a very balanced place right now with my transition, I know who I am and where i’m going. I have learned I don’t need to impress anyone or pass any purity tests, and that while I will champion all aspects of queerness as they are defined, I hope that all the new identities don’t forget that there way isn’t the only way.

This post could be perceived as me coming out as “non-binary”, but I don’t use that label because it’s not how I choose to identify in society, even though it’s totally how I see myself (and frankly everyone else including cisgender people). I have my own reasons, but even if the reason was “because i’m afraid to”, I think that’s a valid reason in itself. It’s not my reason, but I hope you see my point.

In Summary:

Transpeople and their reasoning behind “not being cis” are down to the individual. There’s a ton of diversity between individuals and fluidity is common, don’t get too caught up in flags or labels. I wish I could shake some younger transpeople and remind them “MOST PEOPLE DONT THINK ABOUT GENDER SO DON’T FEEL BAD WHEN YOU INEVITABLY CONFUSE THEM”. People are going to be rude, accidental or not, and when someone like me is getting confused by a newly defined role or identity, imagine how cispeople or transpeople without social media must feel.

Ultimately, Let’s just respect eachother, understand that we may not get each other and try not to be jerks to people, especially other transpeople or friendly cispeople. And while it’s important to platform and praise people for expressing themselves, we all have our own comfort zones and identities and we need to chill out and respect each other.

This has been another long, exhausting post about not overthinking things. I wrote all this because I sometimes feel bad about being trans and that feeling comes entirely from other trans-people these days. I can deal with all the evangelicals and am fine with platforming marginalized voices over my own, but don’t take away my right to be who I am, don’t shame me for medically transitioning, for not participating in the social media advocacy things like profile pronouns, for fighting for things like medical access, we need all sorts of advocacy in this community and we pick our battles, I can’t stand the relentless pettiness, arguing and one-upmanship I see in trans discourse (as well as others) drives me up the wall. Again, people need to be patient with each other.

I put in my years and will continue to do everything I can for my fellow trans humans, but I’m going to continue distancing myself from the Youtubery and Twittering. I need to just enjoy it for a while, stay on the path, and enjoy some stability and gender euphoria in my little isolated place in the world, maybe this time it’ll last a while 🙂 Books and Blog posts work for me, I’m less driven to share or validate my worldview, more concerned in expanding it.

Cheers friends, more crinkly stuff coming soon, it’s been a long day and it feels good to go on a little rant. Very freeing to know that I have a small, captive audience for these posts, hope you don’t mind me going off on one about a topic on my mind now and then ❤ Again, total respect to all identities, I’d just ask for the same in return. I feel this all came from an imaginary argument with an imaginary strawman, but I feel better, thanks for listening.

With all due respect ❤

Riley K.

Daily Post 11/12/20

Been a busy baby lately! Stormy weather here in PA, warm bear hugs are much needed. I’m nearly past the point of having to worry about any virus stuff from the election, so I have put both of those things out of my mind (I just mentioned them…)

This morning I had to make a video for this week as I’ve been doing weekly videos for the last couple months and part of that process is cleaning up with an enema. I don’t always do the enema stuff with diapers but today I did. It was nice… I got out my little changing mat and bulb enema and took care of business :p

I changed out in the shower, did some body maintenance and made a lovely little StayKinky video. I was considering making an abdl video today but I ended up getting caught up doing some life stuff, I need to do a little bit more planning before I actually make some YouTube videos I know I’ve been very slow about that… I’m gettin’ there!

So I had a lovely morning, made some video, took a too long nap and cooked up some Feta-Burgers. It was a little bakery I visit to get fresh buns, makes alllll the difference. Speaking of fresh buns, took some pics yesterday morning…

I was a pretty soggy girl in my Forsite AMPM yesterday morning, I guess they have a new lavender kind also, gonna check them out. You know I love North Shore but I got a case of the pink MegaMax’s and while I like them a lot, the Forsites just felt differently… I really like the Forsites, they are incredibly babyish. My preferences change over time though so who knows. I do believe I will be getting some of the lavender is very soon though ❤

I totally thought that I had made a review of the Forsites but turns out that was the Beyond XP review. Forsite review incoming! I really wanna talk about these 🙂

Ok, more soon, thanks for reading! And I missed a day yesterday but that’s going to occasionally happen, i’m thinking more about the formatting and putting out a weekly/bi-weekly newsletter/magazine situation, something like a StayDiaperedDigest ~ Lots of ideas!

<3<3 seeya tomorrow!

Garden Potty

I was sooooooo not into the mood to be a crinkly baby the couple weeks before the election… I love diapers for getting away from big-girl time, but sometimes big-girlness overwhelms. I’m getting better at the balance tho, I don’t anticipate anything being nearly as stressful as the last 2 months… It’s been 50 days today too, feeling good 🙂 So the last week I have been one crinkly babby, it’s been lovely to get back into my diapers ❤ And also posting RECENT pics again!

I’ve been enjoying exploring some of the more quite places around PA, still frequenting thrift stores in the early morning when even the older folks haven’t made their way out yet. This garden was so serene and the weather was warm and cozy 😛 My sweater came up a bit while taking a pic so you could see I was plenty padded, it was quite fun to just romp around in the sun, not worrying about getting home to change or use the potty, just using my diapers like a good girl! The first pics are the Megamax’s I wore the nights before and the blue diapers are the Abena Delta-Form M3’s. Also random Raccoon Cuteness ❤

I have some videos to make this week so I’m off to start my day and get to work! I’ll have a nice shower and do some body maintenance while the Bears work on ideas. Such creative little bears I have ❤

Thanks for reading! Bears and I send hugs ❤