Run Play Hide

Hey there friends! Here’s a catch-all post for what’s been going on with me lately! Lets go over a few topics…

Run:

So over the last month things have been opening up and I’ve been adventuring around Pennsylvania more with a few visitors including family. After coming back from California in March of 2020, just a couple days before everything shut down, I haven’t really done any traveling. Over the last couple weeks I have been in many big crowds and restaurants and other situations that I didn’t think I was going to be in for a very long time, if ever. I’ve got all my shots, so I didn’t really worry but it was still a bit of an unnerving situation being thrown into the deep end of a petri dish. But knowing my lifestyle I couldn’t just stay inside forever so I had to be brave and tough it out. Still very cautious just finally starting to come out of my cave… with that said, I do plan on going back to masking in customer service situations.

I have some travel to Cape Cod coming up as well as a few local hotel rooms (primarily to shoot content) in my near future. Afterwards i’ll be doing my annual California/West Coast adventures, will only have managed to miss one year, though I may take another cross country train trip instead of flying. So far i’ve been from Albany to San Francisco on a Greyhound Bus (the horrors) and from Los Angeles to Buffalo on a train, might be fun to do Philly to San Fransisco on a train.

I have some people in my life that have needed some time after being isolated so long, and in the process things have been a little slow on the creative process. I have lots of great content from my adventures and will be posting in upcoming galleries, and don’t forget to check my Twitter/Insta/Tumblr!

Play:


StayKinky has been a driving force in my life since I really kicked off the studio at the end of 2019. I’ve been making content for a very long time but never took it serious enough to call myself a Studio. Now with my fancy camera and equipment and new filming space, I have every opportunity to make great videos… but I haven’t really. I’ve still been making weekly videos and yeah, there’s some great ones in there and pretty proud of most of them, but I’m filming these videos like YouTube reviews when I’d much rather be making much more intimate realistic content, less of a show and more of an experience.

Late last year I was starting to do some really wild stuff with green screen but I feel like my creativity/energy has waned a bit, or at least life is worn me down a little bit and I need a re-sharpening. Luckily I have friends and fans to snap a out of that funk, and I’m starting to reignite my passion and reassess the kind of videos I’m making. I’ve been pretty steady in the C list of trans performers for the last decade, and while I know I never going to become some big #1 star primarily because I don’t generally perform with others/do hardcore stuff. I could be doing better than I am now I could be doing what I was six months ago. I’d like to be back to #20 on the top performers list not #50.

With that said its all about finding a comfortable work/life balance and I am happy with what I’m doing now. I certainly could be doing more and promoting more to make the future a little less uncertain and to ensure folks don’t get bored with my content. I really treasure Style in art and my art hasn’t had very much style lately, and that generally comes down to my level of effort I put into things. I need to put more effort into better videos and I will be, I have some good ideas coming up for StayKinky. Granted I’m mostly a single person doing all this on my own so I try not to be too hard on myself, especially because other people will be much harder on me, leading into my next part… I do want to give a quick thanks to everyone who subs to my sites and Patreon etc, you’re keeping me happy, healthy and safe!

Hide:
So a few months ago that PewDiePie thing came out and we all had a bit of fun, I got some really positive feedback and got a little reminder that the world knows who I am. That’s my official statement, but there’s much more behind it.

What most people probably didn’t see were the dozen of imitators that came after that. The little channels that don’t really have a filter or sense of decency who are more prone to calls of violence/doxxing/harrassment etc. Since the PewdiePie video I have been under near constant barrage, everything from podcasts threatening my life, people pretending to be me and posting horrible things, countless hostile personal messages, and multiple campaigns of flagging my content so it’s removed from the internet and I can’t get paid. PHub has been the worst of this, taking down my videos constantly even though they are nothing like what they are being flagged for, and then getting brick walls from support. Receiving brick walls from Facebook and Spotify has also been frustrating and it has taken weeks and lawyers and blood pressure spikes to get some of these things removed. It’s been relentless and I can handle it, but it’s a lot. The stuff I get on the regs would traumatize the average person, so I try not to amplify or focus on it, but it’s there for sure.

So when there’s a lot of heat on me, sometimes it’s best for me to turtle for a little while. I don’t want to toot my own horn or anyting but the amount of garbage most people get, I feel like I get 10 times more due to the intersectionality of being trans, ABDL and a sex worker. Sometimes I don’t need to stick around to be reminded how much people fear/dislike me, because I know those people will go away when the temperature lowers and I’ll be back to mostly good, friendly community people seeing my content, though community people are a handful too. I’m not going anywhere but after doing this for so ridiculously long I know when it is good to step away for a bit. Thankfully I don’t anticipate any more media moments coming up. I’m more than happy to just stay in my lane for now, making crinkle videos and kink content for likeminded folks. Again, part of the reason I do this is because I know I can handle it, so don’t worry about me ❀

Moving Forward

Thanks for reading, have everything a little girl could need to make some really great media, just going slow and measuring my movements, I’ve come a long way in the last few years and want to ensure I keep the positivity flowing πŸ™‚ Thanks friends, more soon!!! New video up on my Youtube btw, full post coming soon!

Springtime Leotards and Molicares!

Hey there friends! New video! It’s showing off all my super cute Leotards and some Molicare Slip Super Plus!

Just a little video today, will be filling you in on my adventures, nothing toooo tumultuous or notable but lots going on! I’m about to have a super busy time next weekend and the following week, so lots of pics and fun stuff incoming!

Always be sure to check out my @RileyBBQ twitter and @StayDiapered Instagram ans well as all my other social medias and sites for more pics and crinkles! https://allmylinks.com/rileybbq

Just got a new shooting space as well, more greenscreen fun coming up as well as more legit, in-depth diaper reviews. I just love Leotards so much, I have been really having fun with these videos πŸ™‚

More coming soon, stay cool everyone! And StayDiapered of course, lots of baby powder!

Back to the Garden

It’s late in the evening and I’m sifting through some pictures of me wearing cute diapers, just thought I’d sit down and share a little smile or two :):)

Life has been very complicated lately. Really going to stretch this metaphor, but Life has been like a really big salad that you get in a fancy restaurant, it’s good and food is essential, but it’s really big and theres so much going on. There’s the stuff you really like, the spinach and feta, but there’s also some water chestnuts and those weird little corn cobs that make you feel giant. You’re impressed by it but also a little confused, I think that sums up my life lately.

Over the last few weeks the I’ve gotten my second covid shot, had a close friend have a health issue that led to a week of Hospital stuff, retired from a local politics thing I was involved in, organized all my clothes and diapers, got my first mani pedi since Cov started (haircut soon), did my taxes, bought a new mattress and a giant mirror, along with some other personal successes and failures too boring, spicy or shameful to mention.

Most of my time has been really focused on getting StayKinky’s relevance and sales up so I’m set up better for the future and any upcoming challenges. Been really pushing the MyEXO recently, learn more on StayKinky (NSFW)! Ok, ad-break over.

As for social stuff, I’m active on twitter, but mostly just working behind the veil right now, editing and organizing etc. When something like the PewDiePie thing happens (and the dozens of ripple effect videos that come after) I generally try to keep my head down a little bit. I’m really happy with my level of exposure right now (save for wanting to sell more videos on StayKinky) and prefer to just work withing my comfort zone as opposed to mitigate attention from outsiders. I may not always feel that way but I enjoy my privacy and obscurity right now, but perhaps I’ve gotten too comfortable wearing a mask…

I aspire to share more of my journey, I’m starting to get out again and would love to share more crinkly adventures. Writing is the pushbroom of the soul, gets things moving and helps clarify my often scattered thoughts, and I haven’t been diligent enough in it. It’s a tool you need to keep sharp, and it’s harder to do the less you do. I neeeed to write, to express myself, but I don’t recognize that thirst often enough.

Best way to stay in touch is to sign up for emails on this site and you’ll be updated of new posts. I have some Youtube videos coming soon and some great new StayKinky stuff out this week, so be sure to stay posted πŸ™‚

So the point is: I’m getting back to the basics, focusing on what’s important (friends, family, health, self expression) and keeping my nose to the grindstone. It’s been a super productive week and i’ve wrapped up all my “ToDo” editing, some stuff from January even, so it’s good to be caught up. Now all I have to do is make NEW stuff, and i’m set-up to do that. I had a ton of diapers and outfits that were just randomly hungup or in boxes and I got all that sorted, I’m really excited about all the fun swimsuit videos and Size 6/7/Training Pants reviews coming up! I have 40+ brands and have been working on this for a looooong time πŸ™‚

The sun is out, i’m getting into tights and cute dresses instead of pajamas and overalls, I’m feeling cute and healthy and have lots of great things ahead. I’ve never had so many responsibilities in my life and it feels like I’m “Adulting” all day everyday, but I also woke up this morning in a wet diaper and spend a significant amount of time talking/playing/snuggling my stuffers, so I’m balancing things well. I’ve been in diapers every night for the last month, and it’s been lovely. In times of need, diapers and stuffies (and all you friends!) are there for me, and that gives me so much confidence!

I’ll leave it for now, these pics were from a thickly diapered outing in a local Garden, got a case of Pink Megamaxes from Northshore that i’ve been really enjoying, a perfect day-to-night diaper, always comfortable going out for hours in one of those (especially if I have a babbydiaper under it so I can change that out after my first wetting, more on my diaper layering methods in an upcoming video)

Thanks for reading friends, more cuddles and pics and video coming sooooon ❀

Hugs friends!!!

My Strange Addiction 10 Year Retrospective

It’s been nearly 10 Years since the Adult Baby episode of My Strange Addiction came out and I look back on the whole process and the shows effects on my life, the community and how ABDL’s and alternate lifestyles are perceived in the media. Timecodes are in the comments, and this is a long one!

I’ll be doing some shorter quick reviews coming soon, but this PewDiePie video made me switch up my priorities and put the work into this one. Please like and subscribe, leave a comment πŸ™‚

Thanks for all the love over the years, you can even look back and see what I thought about it back then πŸ™‚

Big hugs everyone and more stuff sooooon!!!

And as always, StayDiapered!!!

Sigzagor Adult Cloth Diaper Review!

Hey there friends! New review today!!!

Here at StayDiapered, I like to cover various diapers I find online that don’t get as much attention as some of the big brands, as most of those are equal in quality/price ratio and thoroughly reviewed already. I see these Sigzagor diapers all over Amazon and I’m sure ABDLs are buying them, so here I am with a new review!

The key takeaway here is that they are CHEAP. They look nice, they probably make a million of the baby diapers a day and I imagine the quality is fairly uniform, which is fine for the price. They probably won’t last long and who knows how long they will last in the wash, but for what they are I can recommend them for a first try or extra stock of cloth diapers. I imagine they are so cheap because the company makes a TON of baby diapers, and please let me know if you have seen this company change hands or any identical diapers, I know sometimes these companies do second manufacturing runs on machines.

But yeah, check them out if you’re curious about cloth diapering, be sure to like and sub on the video and feel free to share the video around on whatever platforms you like! More stuff soon, this is my first one since taking a little vacation so expect more this week πŸ™‚

Fun stuff soon, thanks for watching!!!

DiaperGirl Builds A Gaming Chair!

Hey there friends! New video today, I build my big comfy, pink gaming chair πŸ™‚

Been really working on setting up my new environment, getting some new gear and space to film, has been an ridiculously busy month that has completely slipped by… I have some script writing to do and videos to edit and lots of fun stuff to share πŸ™‚

Some fun crinkle pics coming tomorrow, going to get poked this weekend so wish me good health ❀

I’m in a soggy pink Megamax, I’m going to take it reaaaaallly easy the next couple days, I have been spread like not enough butter across too much bread… I’ve been watching the LOTR trilogy again πŸ˜›

Anyway, hope you like the video and pics! More stuff soooon ❀

A Year Enough For Love

Hey there friends! I was going to call this post “Urine Review” like “Year in Review” but that’s silly… this is just going to be a catch-all post about the last year and how I’m doing right now. I’m sitting here with a little bear in my lap, wrapped in a blankie, happy and healthy, so let’s chat!

Lots of life stuff so all the content warnings, but don’t worry, this is a relatively happy post!

A year ago I was just getting back from a trip to California, my Mom was in Chemo and my Dad just got in a car accident so despite the early stages of the virus, I was booked and left. It was a quick trip, no SF or LA, just popping in and out. I anticipated the virus getting worse and not flying for a while so I took the trip. My relatives (the 4 that I talk to) have a lot of baggage but we get along pretty well nowadays. They know all about me and my sites but it’s never expressly stated, like you’re discreetly talking about going to the Vet around a dog. For somebody who’s lived so many lives, glad I still have a some older friends around. Been keeping in touch with friends again too, feels good, this last year and recent hospital stuff really put things into perspective, especially how much we need each other.

I came back from California and everything shut down a day later. It’s unfathomable to me that I was walking around an airport maskless a year ago. I had some soggy McDonalds on the way home and that’s the last time i’ve had fast food, if it’s the last time ever i’ll be fine with that. I’ve ordered out to local places maybe a dozen times since then, I have a close friend who is immunocompromised and my lungs have taken alot of abuse so I’ve been SUPER careful, no crowded places, no gloryholes, no orgies, no fun at all. I do my grocery shopping in the dead of night, when I thrift I’m there as soon as they open, wear layered masks, social distance politely and diligently. I think I’ve found a good balance of being protective while not getting too obsessive or paranoid about it, though I’m much more cautious than most locals. I’ll save my “I’m clinically paranoid of diseases” speech, you’ve heard it, i’m just proud of myself for not spending this year curled up in a ball.

CW: Addiction, Strange or Otherwise

This has quite possibly been the best year of my life. I haven’t gone anywhere or done anything, no huge successes or memorable moments, just consistent self-care and positive progress. In April i’ll be 2 years alcohol free, I can not overstate how much of a life saving, big deal this is. I hid my alchoholism from the internet and many people in my life, only a few saw past the facade to the really messed up, foot-in-the-grave girl. I hid myself from my friends, things got really dark, but I’m recovering well and i’m doing great, i’m confident and absolute in my decision.

Amazingly, I also quit smoking during the pandemic, 175 days now, another decade+ long struggle that was really messing me up. The fact that I worked the polls of the 2020 election right after quitting, feels like I climbed Everest naked. Not because it was painful, but because I consistently want to brag about it. I think the most important thing about recovery is just knowing yourself, your triggers, your bad habits and identifying that “Hey lets goto the store and kill ourselves” instinct. I’ve done well to treat myself gently, not hold myself to really high standards, which leads to depression and doubt. Constantly reminding myself to not worry so darn much. Que Sera Sera ~

This part of my journey has been super-personal and private, have you ever seen a picture of me smoking or drinking? I’ve tried to be very careful about how I represent myself, to my detriment sometimes I think. But for now it’s my personal thing, I bring it up now and then to remind ya’ll i’m A-OK ❀ When I’m ready to talk about it, I will in a big way. I could easily write a real version of A Million Little Pieces, but I’m not ready to turn over and express my soft belly yet. That brings me to my next point…

Trans/Philosophy Jam

My mantra lately has been “Time Enough For Love”, or “A thing worth doing is worth doing right”. I’ve been holding my tongue on some issues, doing a lot of thinking and writing and learning. Some things demand urgency for sure, but there’s so much REACTING in the world, i’ve been focusing on is understanding things. I have some commentary content coming out soon (Reflecting on the 4 Issues) as well as some non-ABDL Vlogging about sex and social issues. It’s taken me a while, but i’m starting to get some clarity and the burning urge to join the conversation is significant… but i’m being careful, staying in my lane and taking it easy on myself. Internet conversations can make me super-upset if I let them, so I need to be careful and not over emotionally exert.

Hormones are going great, started taking Finesteride for hair growth because i’m gettin’ old, chest is growing well, feeling and looking mostly great. I still get the migraines and occasional internalized transphobia, doubts etc, I get confused as a sex worker because I spend just so much time glamorizing my parts, I wonder if I could be happy without the hormones, but I know my medical transition is about more than just having an erection or not, it’s about balancing my neurology, being happy in my body and a milllion other things. I’ll always be me with my own complex understanding of gender and cute pink presentation, but hormones and possibly surgery has always been a conversation in my head, as mainly I just really dislike/fear taking prescriptions and having surgery etc. But the quality of life improvement vastly outweighs the downsides, so again, I am confident in my path and don’t anticipate any straying, the hormones are working.

I’m losing my constant erections which makes me happy, I’m no less horny, just more balanced. It’s going to be interesting to see where my StayKinky content goes as my body changes… I’m well past sacrificing my well being to maintain performance. I tried it and it made me miserable, but I was young and dumb and full of etc.

As someone who has been on/off hormones multiple times, I 100% know I am better off with them than without them. I have been hard for too long, had to be tough and aggressive with my dukes up and pistols drawn, knowing very well I have a soft, gentle, loving inside. Yet what we do is who we are and nowadays i’m focusing more on a kind/gentle everything, not just a soft inside with a barb-wire outside. With that said, I’m usually a peaceful person, just tend to be hard on myself if I speak up. Kinda related, I’ll be talking about my experience with speech therapy as child, a recent revelation that I think explained some things about me.

Work it Gurl

Another mantra is “Busy Does Not Have To Mean Stressed”. I have had a super busy year, running StayKinky has been huge, I work 12 hours a day, from posting to filming to correspondence to maintenance to bookkeeping to jizzmopping, i’m a one woman film crew and i’m getting paid for it. People are buying and loving my content, I’ve put out a new weekly video for the last 6+ months and have been making some really innovative content.

Huge shoutout and thanks to my supporters, donators, muses, friends… you are all amazing and loved by this little girl ❀

On top of that, I’m still involved in politics/advocacy, worked the polls for the wildest election yet, helped in part to start a local NAACP chapter, participated in protests for equality, justice and peace, I’ve been active as I can be while also considering my own well-bein. That’s something i’ve forgotten to care about in the past while pursuing “A Better Tomorrow”. The last 35 years have burned my candle down pretty low, i’m trying to balance what I have left and maybe get some of that wax back. I have to take life at my own pace and not pay so much attention to the ominous ticking clock that hangs above us all.

A Final Thought On Danger

This has been eating at me for a little while, I don’t like to talk about it but it’s something that’s become more pronounced in the last year…. Icky stuff ahead.

Please, take a moment to consider the risk I put myself in for being a front facing transperson and ABDL. There’s some harmful misconceptions out there and being public can have some ramifications. I’ve had stalkers and I deal with daily nonsense, all of which I can handle, I’m safe and practical and have lots of systems in check to protect myself. But as the world gets more extreme and divisive there always risk in representing a target of the “culture wars”. And of course the people within the community who either don’t understand boundaries or dislike me for whatever reason (usually trans or anti-sex work hate).

It’s all good, I’m tough, there’s just so much orchestrated hate nowadays, I’m ducking and dodging more than usual. I spend so much time just taking down fake accounts and trying to protect my IP. I’m winning mostly but the kind of nonsense and horror I experience on the regs would melt most peoples brains… If the people who call me a terrible person did 1/100th the amount of reporting illegal/terrible content that I do, there wouldn’t be a shred of that stuff on the internet.

Simply, being Riley Kilo isn’t easy, but it’s worth it to share my story and maybe bring some comfort to other ABDL folks. I’m safe, just know that to be the cute cuddly girl you see in the videos I have to be a tough as hell and unfuckwithable at other times. You’re awesome if you’re here, and the opposition makes me treasure my friends and allies even more, I know the people reading this are not the bad folks, you’re the best πŸ˜›

Thanks for reading!

New Video coming super soon, I have whiteboards and i’m trying to stay organized, i’m doin’ it, but it’s an uphill battle πŸ™‚ Most folks only see a percentage of my output, last year I started weekly StayKinky, this year I started weekly StayDiapered i’m getting in the groove. Even with things like a week with my friend in the hospital or the inevitable bouts of sickness or lethargy, I’m setup, I’ve got content in the bank and every opportunity to make more!

Great things ahead, thanks for all the support ❀ It’s a lot of work, it can be dangerous, but it’s my passion and I love it and i’m so, so happy that my full-time job is making content, to do this site and the things that are so important to me πŸ™‚ Yay! This girl is doing well ❀ Hugs and hugs! More soon ❀

What a load off

Hey there friends!

The dust has cleared, my friend is out of the hospital and I’m home and rested up. I pretty much slept all day today πŸ˜›

I’m going to be back to normal here soon, have some big new videos coming out, but the next will probably be just a quick little Diapercheck ❀

Speaking of Diaper Checks… I have some pics I don’t think I’ve posted, they show a very soggy girl in a very thick diaper πŸ˜›

This girl really should be kept in the thickest diapers, she’s proven that time and time again πŸ˜›

More soon πŸ˜› And thanks for the birthday wishes, I’ll be talking about all that soon, some bloggin’ incoming ❀

Thanks friends ❀