You Can Go Back

Hey there friends ❤ Quick Content Warning for old partners and tough pasts.

~~~~~~~~ANGST AHOY~~~~~~~~~~

I woke up this morning and put on “Trompe Le Monde” the Pixies album, haven’t sat down and listened to it for years. “Motorcade to Roswell” was always my favorite. Brought back lots of memories of 19 year old me, doing my acting group, working at a theatre, laughing to episodes of Strangers with Candy and drinking Jones Soda with friends, putting ice in the bong on a hot Midtown Sacramento Day. I was watching old clips of Trash Film Orgy and the Zombie Walk, an event some friends founded back in the day. Flooded me with nostalgia and it made me smile. I’m in a good place mentally and physically right now, so when I see the past, I can think fondly of the path it’s taken me on, not full of regrets or pain… I can focus on the positive. That’s a new feeling, as for many years, I felt I would always have the spectre of Sacramento over me and all the painful things that happened there. Lots of good stuff happened there too, I’m doing well to focus on that.

Bad dreams are something i’ve always struggled with, I have an active mind and sleep can be exhausting for me, I’ve always been that way. I’m not a big dreamer these days largely due to taking measures to suppress my dreaming, but last night one got through. I was in bed with someone I loved dearly. One of those dreams when you wake up, you desperately try and coax your way back into the dream, you’ve forgotten how she felt, how she smelled, the little details of her tattoos, things you can’t recall in the day but are burned into your subconscious, only accessible in your dreams. When I woke up I took a few moments just staring at the ceiling trying to piece together whatever I could from the dream, gave my little Bear a hug and got on with my day. She’s gone, but I can visit her now and then in my dreams and in that I have found peace.

Following the rule of “No wants to hear what you dream about unless you dream about them“, I’ll get on with the actual thing I want to talk about today.

~~~ FUN, POSITIVE STUFF ~~~

Speaking of going back, I’ve had a handful of photoshoots sitting in my “To Do” basket for a long time, some are embarrassingly old, I never really had anything to do with them other than post some highlights. I’ve devised a plan in which I’ll be posting these sets as slideshow videos with a descriptive audio track, sharing little stories, ASMR-esq audio or erotic dialogue. I really look forward to making these and I think there will be more and more audio stuff in the future, along with my normal videos etc. As always, I try to make things unique and interesting, to expand out understanding of ABDL, explore our own sexuality and maybe find a little comfort in a bit of fantasy ❤

Thanks for reading, this post was ALLL over the place, thanks for getting that off my chest.

Lots of changes happening for this little girl, things are intense right now but I’m surviving and in fact thriving. Nice to have you along in my journey, more stuff sooon! Going to spend my weekend finishing up that MegaMax review, so looking forward to sharing it with you ❤ Be well, positive thoughts!!!

Makin’ Movies

I was a very productive babygirl today, got out my swimsuits and diapers and made a couple videos! I’ll have a review of the Northshore Megamax coming soon ❤

Not much to report right now it’s been a little rocky week or so but i’m back to “normal” and being a positive, busy girl ❤

More stuff very soon and I hope you like the pictures!!!

<3<3

The History Of Pullups

Hey there friends, I have a brand new video for you today!

In this video I talk about a bunch of different kinds of various discontinued Pull-Ups and Underjams! The last diaper (the white with stars) I have no idea what brand, they were given to me at a Convention (thanks!) and I assume they’re just a generic brand.

Hope you like it! Pics and more coming soon ❤ Thanks for watching!

Quack

About a month ago a Duckie Daddy was hanging out in my yard. Then I noticed a Mama ducky had nested in a nearby bush. I’ve been watching her every day and two nights ago I heard little baby cheepers coming from the bush. I kept an eye out all day the next day until I saw that she had moved… I was sad, thinking I had missed her and the ducklings debut, but she had only moved a few feet away, and was looking awfully chubby. I realize that she had her babies under her thinking that there couldn’t be more than five or six.

All of a sudden she stood up and 12 or 13 little duckers peeped out from under her. They started to make their way out, likely looking for a little pond somewhere and maybe the Ducky Daddy too.

They waddled around for a bit, crossed the street (with help from me and the neighborhood) and waddled about. Mama gave the ducklings a quick tour of the neighborhood then went off for ponds unknown.

It was magical, they are so incredibly cute and I was so fortunate to see their first little adventure 🙂 I hope you like the video and a little magic finds its way into your life 🙂 Hugs, and more stuff soon!

Home and Garden

Hey there friends, quick little post here, been a busy, productive girl in regards to life stuff, but have been lagging on posting here 😦 I have lots of cute stuff to share, just have been a little overwhelmed ~ Thanks for being patient, new video in the next couple days, even more after that.

I’m snuggled up in bed, in my PJs and Northshores, feeling cute and sleepy ❤ pics are me right now, sweet dreams friends!

Booty, Booty, Booty, Rockin’ Everywhere.

I was going to post the song that line is from, but after watching the music video for like 2 mins I think my brain melted, i’ll spare you, 2000’s Top 40 Rap is best forgotten. Except the Work It Video.

What’s not best forgotten, is this new StayKinky video I posted with lots of cute booty action 🙂 I’ve been wearing these swimsuits and my butt has never looked better ❤

On the topic of booty documentation, I have some news! First, I mentioned I have this new editing PC and have been so excited to make new videos… but unfortunately during my last shoot my camera has been really acting strange. It barely turns on and has this weird color effect to it. It was heartbreaking, but I’ve ordered a new camera and I’m really excited to share some awesome quality videos and pics, the best I’ve ever made 🙂 My new videos should all be in 4k 60fps, and my compositing and editing will be better than ever.

These picture of my older cameras, new one should be in soon ❤

I’ve gotten away from my roots, which was in film-making, acting and editing. I’m rusty and starting back at square one, and after all this quarantine stuff, who knows where it will take me. Back in the day, I never felt like I could make it in the industry because of the basics of who I am, and things are different now. I also want to make the BEST AB/DL content, and there’s something to be said about the professionalism of content being associated with how well a message gets across. Basically, I want my videos to have the added credibility that comes from a well made product. I will soon have so much power at my fingertips, my plan to convert everyone to AB/DLs will soon be complete!

Hope everyone is surviving, there’s been some busy life/house repair stuff going on here, more posts coming soon! I have a “History of Pull-ups” video on deck (will be my last video on my old camera) and that should be out this weekend, I’m loving making these, hope you’re enjoying watching them 🙂 My “History of Goodnites” video has been really well received, thanks for all the positive feedback ❤

More soon, thanks for watching and to those who contributed to my new camera fund, my heart is so warmed by your help ❤ I will not let you down! Great things ahead ❤

Keister

It’s an old word for butt.

I got off my little but today and made some cute videos, took some cute pics, letting the sunshine in and washing off the malaise of these last stormy days. Lost power for a bit, lots of thunder and lightning and bear snuggles.

More fun stuff soon 🙂 Hope everyone is weathering the storm 🙂