Hey there friends ❤ Quick Content Warning for old partners and tough pasts.
I woke up this morning and put on “Trompe Le Monde” the Pixies album, haven’t sat down and listened to it for years. “Motorcade to Roswell” was always my favorite. Brought back lots of memories of 19 year old me, doing my acting group, working at a theatre, laughing to episodes of Strangers with Candy and drinking Jones Soda with friends, putting ice in the bong on a hot Midtown Sacramento Day. I was watching old clips of Trash Film Orgy and the Zombie Walk, an event some friends founded back in the day. Flooded me with nostalgia and it made me smile. I’m in a good place mentally and physically right now, so when I see the past, I can think fondly of the path it’s taken me on, not full of regrets or pain… I can focus on the positive. That’s a new feeling, as for many years, I felt I would always have the spectre of Sacramento over me and all the painful things that happened there. Lots of good stuff happened there too, I’m doing well to focus on that.
Bad dreams are something i’ve always struggled with, I have an active mind and sleep can be exhausting for me, I’ve always been that way. I’m not a big dreamer these days largely due to taking measures to suppress my dreaming, but last night one got through. I was in bed with someone I loved dearly. One of those dreams when you wake up, you desperately try and coax your way back into the dream, you’ve forgotten how she felt, how she smelled, the little details of her tattoos, things you can’t recall in the day but are burned into your subconscious, only accessible in your dreams. When I woke up I took a few moments just staring at the ceiling trying to piece together whatever I could from the dream, gave my little Bear a hug and got on with my day. She’s gone, but I can visit her now and then in my dreams and in that I have found peace.
Following the rule of “No wants to hear what you dream about unless you dream about them“, I’ll get on with the actual thing I want to talk about today.
~~~ FUN, POSITIVE STUFF ~~~
Speaking of going back, I’ve had a handful of photoshoots sitting in my “To Do” basket for a long time, some are embarrassingly old, I never really had anything to do with them other than post some highlights. I’ve devised a plan in which I’ll be posting these sets as slideshow videos with a descriptive audio track, sharing little stories, ASMR-esq audio or erotic dialogue. I really look forward to making these and I think there will be more and more audio stuff in the future, along with my normal videos etc. As always, I try to make things unique and interesting, to expand out understanding of ABDL, explore our own sexuality and maybe find a little comfort in a bit of fantasy ❤
Thanks for reading, this post was ALLL over the place, thanks for getting that off my chest.
Lots of changes happening for this little girl, things are intense right now but I’m surviving and in fact thriving. Nice to have you along in my journey, more stuff sooon! Going to spend my weekend finishing up that MegaMax review, so looking forward to sharing it with you ❤ Be well, positive thoughts!!!