New Phloam

Hey Hey! I’ve stepped my selfie game up! I recently got a fancy new phone (Galaxy Note 10) and I’m super excited about the jump in quality my pics will have. It’s still madness to me that some of the best consumer level cameras come attached to phones. I’d love to get a nice DSLR and speedlight flash, all I have now are cheapo Limostudio lights for video, but it’s good for now. Actually, I’ll let you be the judge of that with the little expiremental set of photos I took with the new camera, hope you like them! Just me in my goodnites πŸ™‚

Had a super busy bear day of house repairs and stuff, ordered a bunch of good diaper creams and other preventative messures, i’ll be talking about preventing diaper rash etc as I get back into the routine of constant wear. Was just in my pull-ups today, but back in thick diapers for bed πŸ™‚

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The last few years

Long post ahead, I’d like to explain what’s been going on with me so we can move on to the fun stuff. Here’s what’s going on in my life, the good and the bad.

1.) I live in Pennsylvania! I have been living here for a little over 3 years. I live with a dear friend who is as kind and supportive of a partner as a little girl can have. I am not looking to date anyone or for a serious romantic relationship, moreso because I’m just not ready or looking for that sort of thing. I am open to new friends and playmates, but am taking everything very slowly. I need some time to work on myself before I bring others into this mess.

2.) I’m not currently medically transitioning (hormones etc.). Still living and loving as myself, she/her pronouns and dresses and everything. I plan to start again when it is the right time to start again. I know I’m being vague here, but it’s a personal issue that I’m sensitive about talking about for now, I haven’t found the words yet.

3.) I spent a good portion of these last few years working a normal job and being a depressed alcoholic. I kinda lost my motivation in life after a few people close to me passed away among other life events, though that’s a drastic oversimplification, depression is something that I always have and always will be challenged by. In the last 6 months I’ve pulled myself together into a functioning human being again, especially with the aid of not drinking anymore. My 6 month landmark was just yesterday actually.

4.) The bears are as cute and snuggly as ever. There’s also a new panda and ostrich and a couple stuffies added to the mix.

5.) After a long hiatus, I’ve gotten back into wearing diapers everyday. I didn’t ever stop wearing or purge my stuff, I just rarely was in the mood. I’ve been wearing to bed everynight, which is a start on the path to becoming 24/7 again. I’ve missed being a diaper girl, missed the constant comfort of my diapers.

6.) I’m clear with my cancer worries and have regular colon checks, and no, not the fun kind of “colon checks”.

7.) I have a fairly big piece of media coming out later this month. It’s been 13 years so far for this blog, I want to keep being a friendly internet diaper girl until my days are done. It’ll take some work to get the trust of a community back, as I have disappeared for a little while in the past.

8.) Sobriety is relative and don’t call myself “sober”, I just don’t mess around with alcohol anymore. I don’t look down on anyone for drinking and can be around alcohol just fine without imbibing, though I’ve always preferred the company of stoners to drinkers πŸ™‚ There was no drastic emergency or diagnosis or born-again moment, it was just time for me to stop. I fully believe if I hadn’t quit when I did, I wouldn’t have made it to now. Glad to be alive and to know what I escaped as to not go back.

9.) Now that it’s been 6 months, I’m putting talk of my sordid past on the shelf for now. I don’t want to lose sight of my mistakes, but I’d rather not dwell on them. So many exciting things happening now, best to focus on the present and look towards the future.

10.) And finally, most importantly, I need to express how much the support of fthe community has helped me. We’ve been on a long road together (and meeting cool new people all the time!) and I’m eternally grateful for all the messages of support, encouragement and compassion. I couldn’t wish for a better group of people looking out for me. Thank you with all my heart ❀

So that’s what’s up! Thanks for reading, I’ll finish this post with my most recent photo, taken this morning, took a break to snuggle the bear while writing this post. You have before you a very healthy happy diaper girl πŸ™‚ Hugs and love, more stuff tomorrow!

The Last Catch-Up

Hey there friends! If you haven’t been keeping an eye on my Twitter I’ve been posting tons of cute pics! I have been neglecting this site because I’ve been catching up with older pics, so I’ve decided to expedite filling in the gaps so I can start posting all the wonderful stuff I have going on at this very moment.

So here’s a bunch of cute pics from last year that I haven’t posted yet. I still have some older adventures to share like my Disneyland trip earlier this year but my next post (coming out tomorrow) will be about what’s happening with me right now, and it’s all good stuff!

Hope you like the pics, I am not sure of the context of any of these but that hardly matters when it’s just fun, cute crinkly times πŸ™‚ I’m such a little wetter! More stuff very soon! Hugs and love!

White

Alright, I needed to get that last post off my little chest, I originally had it prefacing this post, but I’d rather keep this one all light, and all fluffy πŸ™‚ So, I have some pics to share from a recent Festival day!

Sometimes when I want to feel extra comfy and padded I wear one of my many diaper covers over my disposables. It really doesn’t serve a purpose other than looking super-cute and lessening the crinkly sounds and you know I don’t mind the crinkling. I also wore a stuffer, but I did something I have a bad habit of… I put in one of those Tranquility Stuffers, and right as I’m about to walk out the door I stop, reach into my diaper and take it out, afraid that a day of walking with a stuffer will be too uncomfortable.

For this day it was Paris-bought Tena Slip Maxis, diaper cover and tights covered by a cute thrift store find, what seems to be a hand-stitched lacy dress, I live around alot of Amish and crafty people so thrift stores in this area are lit πŸ”₯πŸ”₯πŸ”₯. I’m into cotton and breezy fashions, especially vintage and even victorian style ABDL stuff. You know how they used to make all kids wear dresses in the 1800s, there was no boy/girl clothes, there were just baby clothes? There’s some neat looks that came from that, very “sissy” but not over the top. I do like poofy dresses and stuff, but for walking around in public I prefer the more simple, elegant breakdown of the design. Baby clothes are pragmatic clothes, and what’s more simple than a bleached white sleeveless dress? Good for diaper changes and checks. The clothes should be easy, it’s the diapers and the girl that are the complicated parts.

Speaking of silly things little girls do with their clothes, on the way to the Festival I realized I had my tights on backward. These are vintage tights, they have the lines running up the back and my silly self forgot about them and only realized in the car. So, of course, I have to slip off my shoes, pull up my dress and down my tights, avoid stop signs and tall trucks so no one can spy on my re-arranging. I’m trying not to distract the driver and am feeling kinda silly, but of course I’m taking silly pictures too πŸ˜› Car pictures always come out so cute… must be all the natural light and the air of exhibitionism.

I had a long day, fun day, and came home fairly damp. When I got home and wet it the last time it did leak a little bit, so maybe the stuffer would have been good. I think my next post will be about stuffers…

So a long diaper day with a leaky little end πŸ˜› I hope you like the pictures and this is basically the last set taken with my old phone, I have a new mobile which means new camera and better pics/videos! Here’s one I took the other day when I was romping around in my Goodnites πŸ™‚

Life is exciting and refreshing and positive things lie ahead. Give your stuffies a snuggle and look for more stuff soon πŸ™‚

White (Preface)

This is a little rant about some of the persistent people that have contacted me over the years with negative, uncomfortable and/or pedophilic comments, and how it can erode my desire to make content because I know these people are enjoying it as well. Reader discretion advised.

There has been someone who has commented with something involving a meticulously described white dress and an underage girl and all these strange religious allusions, I’ve been blocking and deleting them and reporting them but they still find a way to post. It get’s tiring, frustrating, and makes you not want to be a part of anything to do with the ABDL world.

I’ve had serious, real-life, police-involved issues with people not understanding privacy, limits, safety or with people who disagree with my message/existence in general. But frankly, the TERFs or trolls are one thing, the invasive ABDLs are another. I’m a target, especially how long I’ve been posting, adding the fact that I’m divisive (read: trans) to some, I tend to receive more than my share of nonsense. I’ve gotten quite good at protecting myself and more comfortable with the block button, but it feels like the nonsense is at it’s peak and only getting worse with people more virulent and outspoken.

I just feel AB/DL and any minority really just needs to contemplate ways to not let them win, not let them drag us down. I beleive there are ways, but much of it comes internally, to overcome the inevitabile slings and arrows. It’s so painful to share your heart and have it derided, misunderstood or attacked. For me, it was tough to start sharing it, and has been tougher to open up after each consecutive blow, though I have been better at dodging them. 

Basically, my little white dress in these posts made me feel bad for a second but I snapped out of it, telling myself “Don’t let ANYONE make you feel bad about your healthy hobbies”, even if the most uncomfortable stuff comes from within the fandom. Believe me, I have seen and heard the absolute depths and it’s messed with my head, fearing that their dark fantasies are a reflection on me, that i’m really this bad person inside too because i’m enabling them. But I must remind myself, I’m me, they are them, and the twain shall never meet.  

With that said, crinkly comments, kinky ideas and constructive criticism are always welcome, just remember you’re talking to another human being πŸ™‚ A friendly human being, but one with limits.

Anything to do with minors (under 18) is never welcome, I will report your ass.

——Rant over ~ I feel better——–

Look forward to the next post, which is up now!

Disneywhirled

(I started writing this post years ago but never finished it ~ was living in Buffalo, was thoroughly unhappy in life and needed to do something. This Disney trip was the beginning of a very positive change in my life)

Hey there friends! I have a little story to tell you, it’s about a babygirl visiting DisneyWorld! I went in December 2015 during the coldest part of the season in Buffalo, It was lovely to get away to the warmth of good friends and theme park adventures.

I left on very very rainy day, took the greyhound for the first step of the trip. I made plans to spend a day or two before the trip with friends before flying out to Florida. It was a largely uneventful few days but very relaxing.

I ate my little butt off (or on?) at Golden Corral, bought a new purse and some new tights for travels, and got already to go! We took a car to the airport and I made sure to have my nappies on πŸ™‚

Couple flights later I was on my way to Florida. Drove across Orlando to the entrance to the DisneyWorld complex, look at it from a satellite sometime, there’s miles and miles of nothing but Disney, hotels, parks, malls, all of it with Disney branding. Around DinseyLand in Southern California you can get away from the Disney stuff pretty easy but DisneyWorld is exactly that, an entire immersive world of nothing but Disney. I was bouncing and crinkling up in down in the car when I came across the sign, I’m pretty sure every little wets their pants when they realize they’re at Disney.

We made it to our home for the next week (we stayed at the “Movies” version of the All-Star Hotels) and then headed out to The Magic Kingdom. I was already missing my little teddy bears back home, but as soon as I got to the park my eyes lit up and I couldn’t think of anything but magic and cartoons.

I spent the next week visiting the parks and snapped a ton of fun pictures!

Went all over the Kennedy space center ~ saw the Atlantis space shuttle. If you visit make sure to see the whole show, it’s amazing, especially the “reveal” of the space shuttle. There’s a video someone made of the pre-show on YT here.

Because I’m not a big fan of Rollercoasters and I am a big fan of culture and travel, Epcot is where I had the most fun. Took some pics of the Japanese displays, showing off lots of cute/kawaii outfits and little stuff πŸ™‚ I went to get hotel breakfast one morning and saw that a tour group has prepared breakfast… white bread, donut and fruit cocktail. Probably my favorite part of traveling is the random weird stuff.

Met some stormtroopers and played some guitar hero, saw the worlds biggest gingerbread house and tried to avoid the worlds biggest crowds. My favorite scary ride was probably the Test Track at Epcot, I do love the little rides like Peter Pan though πŸ™‚

It was a lovely adventure, seems so long ago. I don’t remember many of the details, I do remember all the fun. It’s been fun looking through these old pictures, next post look forward to some new ones ❀

Thanks for reading, more stuff sooooon πŸ˜›