It’s happened again. It’s been over a month since I last had an accident, I thought I was going to be ok, but I still keep waking up wet.
“I am going to be OK” I say to myself, my voice cracking in the freezing morning air. I move my tiny body a little and can feel the cold damp around my waist, i’ve been sleeping in it for a while & have a long morning or laundry ahead. There’s nothing wrong with me, I’m just a bedwetter, my body just thinks it’s safe to pee sometimes when it’s not… but I also seem to forget that i’m not wearing diapers sometimes.
I know that sounds funny, why would this grown-up girl feel like she’s still wearing diapers… but the truth is, I just really like diapers. I have always been fascinated by them, back to my earliest memories. I’ve always loved the plasticy feeling, the colorful packages, the idea of being all snuggly & careless, it’s always made me feel warm and fuzzy but also a little sad, like Christmas. I often dream of diapers, I sometimes feel naked without one. I have tried to be a big girl and just wear panties, but I keep finding myself back in diapers, be it due to accidents or just wanting the warm, comforting hug that taping on a diaper gives, they call them “Huggies” for a reason.
A Diapered Lifestyle was always a little scary as a concept. I’ve always been really social and the idea of certain people finding out about my diapers is a big worry. I’ve never felt like I “Fit In” and diapers make me feel like more of an outsider, made me afraid of hugs and always felt like I had a “dirty little secret”. But I don’t think it has to be that way and my journey is really about accepting that I can live a full, joyful life while Staying Diapered. And if I keep having accidents, Diapers are going to be a less embarrassing alternative…
So i’m going to start thinking about diapers again. I’m going to pick up some new ones and begin my journey to be comfy and happy in my diapers, for life! I’ll be talking all about my diapered journey in these following “Diaper Lifestyle” posts & videos, as well as real-life tests and reviews of diapers & diaper accessories, I’m going to find out what works best for this girl and hopefully help new & old friends find what’s best for them!
In these pics you can see i’m still experiencing significant bruising Post-Op, don’t worry about it 🙂 I’m also working on being more hydrated, I usually drink a ton of water but have been lax on that… diapers should allow me to drink all the water I want, no accidents or worries, just crinkles and smiles!
More soooon, we’re going to be starting at the very basics with a breakdown of how diapers are made! Thanks friends and here’s to a wonderful diapered life!